Linzi

It's been a rough ol' two weeks for me emotionally as no doubt several of you will have gathered and I'm slowly trying to get back to normal.

I don't make any apologies for posting something that takes me back to my childhood cos with events my mind has been thinking about the past, the people in them and what they meant to me.

Linzi pictured from a crummy old photo I took has been a part of my life for decades a gift from a dear friend that I treasure. I treasure both Linzi as a doll, one of several I still own, and love as much as the memory of the person who brought her into my life.

Linzi is very girlish in her lace, ribbons and nicely finished hems in a relatively unfussy way that also is a part of my own self image (it may not be the most practicable in sub zero temperatures though!) and helped me though some difficult times with childhood scrapes.

Do any of you have similar objects in your lives that hold a lot of emotions?

Petticoating II

 The last time Petticoating was looked at was in April last year where we looked at the process where you are moved toward more femimine dressing  which may have at an early age and so rightly involves nothing connected to mid and post puberty where our bodies change and mindset broadens to include sexuality.

Because you do doesn't mean you are always sexual and looking for sex but however embarassing it is you just have to admit it is part of you.

Feminization for those of us who have gone through that stage involves making gender based role reversals as feminine boys such as putting or actively encouraging us to were more grown up, sexy panties and bras, wearing make up and learning to accept your sexual side unlike Men is not about taking a female but learning to be taken up your bottom, just like females do.

So while parts of this are little different than what we did before almost playing dress up although we may be more pressured to be overtly feminine wearing pretty dresses and maids outfits other elements come in.

Men derive from masculine boys where that natural agression shifts into their newly emerged sexual side using their penises to push sexual advances on females.

Feminine Boys and sissies are feminine by nature, submissive looking for the dominant one to initate sexual advances as much as you may enjoy them.

Unlike them you don't have a penis as such just a short stub that might outwoodly look a bit like one which is as well give it plays no part in your sexual side and you learn the proper term for is a sissy cliteris.

I have a clit.

It would naturally alter in size as visual and other stimulation  produces responses in you and so like a good many to help control that and avoid bulges in your panties it is locked in such a way that while you can shower and go the loo it won't expand because there's a fixed barrier to it which is locked on.

As you can see it fits better and in some contexts the locking is about sexual control although like anything to do with sex damn well should be consensual.

It also shifts the attention to how you get your sexual release as any activity is connected to recieving sexual advances

It's more rewarding if you have a sexual side really.

Little gurl reading

 

When it came to reading although people tried to push me toward more 'grown up' works like those by George Orwell, Thomas Hardy and Jane Austin I always longed for my Junior and early Senior favourites which no doubt would fail a diversity test for being seen as white, middle class and stereotypically girlish.

Of course being a LSG with some boyish likes I just loved the Jennings series by Anthony Buckeridge who as a Prep School teacher knew the working of boys inside out.

Part of the reason is language, my disabilities limit my ability to read for understanding and comprehension of plots so in a way they have to be a bit younger and in an easy to grasp  formular, the other being they key in to recreated school age-play where these were about our lives sometimes set in school itself and all read in boarding school.

Enid Blyton's Naughtiest Girl series is my favourite cos in so many ways I can readily identify with it's main character, Elizabeth Allen, whose attitude are not so removed from mine while every boy knew a Jennings from his set at school.

Then there's this one, Those Dreadful Children.

The three Carlton children - John, Margery and Annette - are excited when a new family move into the house at the bottom of the garden. However, the older Taggertys - Pat, Maureen and Biddy are loud, rough, dirty and not at all the sort of children the prim, tidy Carltons want to associate with. Due to an old friendship of their fathers they are forced together - two sets of Dreadful Children - who have to take a hard look at their own behaviours as they learn to get along.

My copy is really rather old being the third print from 1953.

There's a bit where Dopey the dog jumps the garden wall and joins in the merriment whereby Annette, the smallest Carlton, threatens to go and tell Mummy about him. This is where she learns a few stark facts of life from Pat the oldest Taggerty who grabs hold of her dress. "Sit down, tell-tale. Do you know what you want? You want a jolly good spanking — one that hurts. If I were John I'd slap you every time you told tales or yelled." When Annette actually kicks the dog she is shouted at again and she very quickly learns through her fright that she'd better change herself a little.

In truth I could be easily like that, telling tales, yelling whenever anyone questioned my attitudes and being a bit lazy too,

I do benefit from a good hard spanking to change my attitudes at times.

Being two in one

Looking across the year, it seems more junior or younger high school presentation styles seem to be me not least because in so many ways I am very much a child still and much else seems so age inappropriate for me.

Simple attire like gingham dresses I can just put on and zip up adding a cardigan for extra warmth when needed seem to suit me better.

Actually as a boy to had been taken out after doing some regular clothes shopping to try on new football boots in a dress would of been pretty cool given I loved playing the game as much as I liked more feminine, girl associated things.

That's the thing with being a gender fluid feminine sissy gurl, you're not just one thing or another.