The Viewmaster

Being away last week lead to talking quite a bit with others around childhood experiences, the things we did, the toys we had and all that and really that's what I feel like talking a bit about this week.

One thing I remember having in the 1970's and I'm sure my brothers had one a little before I did was a Viewmaster viewer which is something all those born this century probably have not got a clue about.

Over the decades they came made in plastic or bakelite in variety of colours with some having even a character shaped front such as Mickey Mouse or Hello Kitty.

It was like the one above with two pieces at the front that took in natural light although I think there was a powered model with a mains unit and a pair of eye pieces at the back.

The one I used to have was a beige coloured one that I think left sometime in the 2000's I think and you could get a projector too

What did you use them with I hear you cry?

Actually a card disc with seven pairs of stereo images per disc that you slotted into the viewer  and to which there was a frame advance lever on the side that took them around a pair at a time.

This is one I rebought. from the 70's. A gurl craves what she loved and all that but it was complete which was all I needed.

See the thing was most of us didn't have any kind of video recorder until the early 80's even if your school like mine did have a few, your dad might of had a Super 8 Projector that played film highlights that lasted about 5 minutes before a reel had to changed so this gave us stereo images - some from our favourite cartoons - we could watch anywhere for hours on end.

Anyway Paddington Bear was and is still most cool!

Now those "reels" shown were included in the original set and to which you might of added others from disney cartoons, Hanna-Barbara tv shows, hello kitty or gasp! educational sets about space or different places you could buy with your pocket money.

You soon could build up a good collection and major child interest films nearly always had a Viewmaster release tie-in you bought from the local toyshop or Argos the catalogue shop and today you can find many available used if like some of us you suffered excessive parental tossing out as you got a bit older and would like to buy back your favourites.

The Herbs

Last week was busy with going to the Easter Party last weekend and I had a few things to do  like packing and that.

 The Herbs were an late nineteen-sixties cartoon put together by the same people as Paddington Bear and indeed was written  by Michael Bond himself that I always loved for the  stories of the animals named after herbs such as Parsley the Lion and Dill the Dog and Sir basil and Lady Rosemary.

It doesn't take much for me to start singing:

I'm a very friendly lion called Parsley,

with a tail for doing jobs of every kind,

but I mustn't treat it roughly or too harshly,

for it's such a useful thing to have behind.

 I picked up a couple of dvd's of the show that do play in the Blu Ray machine to watch with Gordon Rollin's narrating when it's too bad to be out.

It can live with my Paddington, Ivor The Engine, Clangers,80's  Dangermouse and Bagpuss discs.

Little Sissy Gurl Life

Life as a little sissy gurl has much in common with that your initial childhood having routines you are expected to keep to and a structure that even in law adults some of us badly need to keep us grounded and settled.

A big difference between role playing as in Age Play and Age Regression lies in with the former you may play the role for a brief period but otherwise are in a very much adult mindset, for those of us who are always in for reason of developmental delays and attendant disabilities you are very much a child in a adult body to the point breaches of the accepted conduct are dealt with there and then.

With Age Regression you do have an adult sense of self you go back to which truthfully I do not being more an eternal child and I think what some call Age Dysphoria is more it because I'm permanently in a child-like headspace.

For some although not all of us we do get spanked like the child version of us would of done back in the day in the manner we did. For us, we find it helps regulate our behaviour as much as you may work on the underlying issues too.

It isn't what this blog is centred upon but it is in the life we lead.

After an interesting week trying to solve one problem, there was something that came into mind that I did feel about talking about.

Gender cultural norms.

I saw this a while back and personally I just love what it is about.

In the first instance do we know the gender of the dress wearer? Personally I couldn't careless as much as I care about your ability too be the gender you are.

It may be  someone born male  or maybe  a female who doesn't see why she should have to remove every single naturally growing hair from your leg? Nor pluck your eyebrows thin.

Can we not appreciate how they dress and what as people they are like-their inner beauty if you will?

If I as a sissy gurl want to wear a shorter skirt or a short sleeved dress especially this time of year then frankly as those who know me will know I shall without getting hung up on if there's a stray hair here or there as having a skin condition lots of shaving may remove hairs but does nothing for where patches where my eczema  is.

Easter Sissy

Well spring continues onward toward Bunny Time which brings back strong memories of childhood so it's no surprise in my world what matters outside of the Spiritual side of Easter.

Easter is a part of my Sissy Life especially in the more Little side of that loving a Easter party with frilly dresses, games and fun, fun, fun.

England's finest chocolate people strike again with this pretty decorated Egg which you might of thought was it except this also came:

Yes it's that cat again in her own exclusive design so you can tell I love Hello Kitty although I really really wasn't expecting it so thank you to the person who knows who they are for it as it's mooch appreciated.

I don't eat loads of chocolate but i just adore Easter Eggs and I feel small doing so.

Happy Easter folks!

A leopard can change its spots

It is easy to get into a mindset of thinking about those things in  your life that may not be going so well or even into comparing how you are doing compared to others but that's a habit which so easily leads to you beating yourself up.

Like for instance we may only know of what another person really is doing from what it is they've shared with us which may well be selective, missing out any mess ups and only as they feel it is so really those comparisons may not be too accurate.

The other side of this is we may be understating our own abilities, using a very high baseline to judge them by or be so used to perceiving our failure that we automatically feel we have when maybe we've done okay really.

This came to me on Sunday where I had spent this weeks Study Weekend working on a longform part of guide working with a person I hadn't collaborated with before with no indication of the exact format and structure they were working for even.

Let's say the absence of that usually gets me into tailspinning territory  as I stare into the blank page on my non microsoft office suite so I type a few headings  and eventually find one to start typing to and slowly work may way to the final one.

I review it and send it to the person I am working with with not to say it's not perfect but it's like the best I can do here thinking to myself it's not really good enough, maybe they'll do the electronic equivalent of tearing it up even.

Imagine then you get a message to say although it may need the odd change, they really like it that even they say it's a pleasure to read something so well written, that actually I'd structured it similar to their own section.

Really, Tammy that boarding school feminine boy severely dyslexic actually manages to pull it off when they was feeling like walking the corridors thinking they'd failed!

I think the point here is I grew up so much with the idea I was no good at this that I came to believe it didn't matter  what I did or anyone said they could help me, that I couldn't change that outcome.

I changed the outcome cos I actually believed in it enough to do the work using techniques that I had learned and was prepared to spend my time on learning  and learning to trust people who were prepared to help me make those changes.

The smallest of things

Things have been a bit hectic here for various reasons but birthday was marked of sorts and we did have some presents such as a Beach Boys deluxe edition of their mid 1970's albums with unreleased versions and the like which was great cos they were an early gurlhood like of mine, having many singles and albums.

Things like that go back ages as do things I have around girlguiding like badges, activity books and even the odd period dressed dolly and this gurl loves hur dollies madly.

Perhaps by arrangement I should whisked away and dressed up very much like this be a friendly firm lady for a day or so just being so so little, treated accordingly?

Sissygurl's birthday

A few days after going around the sun again things remain the same,eh?

However you attempt to wrap this up, it's all about getting better at being you rather than really getting any older or different really as from the beginning of time people have tended to say by your early years they know what the chronologically older you is going to be.

For me it remains as it always did, a fine tuning here and there but basically the same me with no blinding "now I'm a grown up" moment so Mrs "happyasagrownup" I could never be you even if I tried, it wasn't there and I'm different. I'm happy not being one.

And that is okay really.

Like this is my birthday but it's just as it's always been essentially, routed over decades, very much in the first and a bit so you have the same sorts of things as presents cos that's what you enjoy and I'll add the odd post here and there about some of them cos I like things in some kind or order.

There were some more plushies, pretty lingerie, chocolate and money.

Although there will seperate entries later on I did get a Hall and Oates sacd of album I only have on record, a sacd box set of Violin Concertos and a few classical records.

The latest installment of Now Yearbook presents the '60's: 1963-1964 was a lp present, three discs that show the new sounds coming in that were to change popular music.

Why talk about them? Cos I'm more than any one thing, nay, this whole sissy gurl thing.

There were phone calls and cards obviously but every was as it remains and I'm happy about that.