What it is

 

What this whole thing, this whole blog was about really is finding the real you from all the attempts at gender, age and other social conformities I and countless others were and have been subjected to from the moment we emerged from the womb.

For some it is relatively simple - they just were boys or girls who became men and women within the mainstream of what socially at least it meant.

With me it was more complex liking my physical boyish body but loving to wear clothes associated with girls and even to share in their interests when that of boys around me did not because of being so very feminine.

It takes extra layers on for not wanting nor feeling like a man but just as much not being a woman either because I never felt an adult or even really an older child most of the time being pretty much a child for life mentally at least.

The gain of the last few years has been being that sissy gurl adult but child in his dress or short trousers playing with his dollies, reading comics, letting the grown up world go by.

Equality for all

 A changed world is what strikes those of us brought up in the nineteen seventies and eighties where we are making some progress in the ability to present as you are in school or in scouting, girl, boy, non binary or transgendered.

Today, while inheritance doesn't have to, it remains more usual for a fathers business affairs to be taken over by a son and until the recent changes in succession laws, the first born male took over from the reigning monarch but families live on with their sons names.

Many of us would argue the advancement of equal opportunity employment, the ability of women to open and run bank accounts in their own right and of equal pay were right and proper in a society that values all.

Some trends in education, child care and the breakdown in traditional parenting however seem to disadvantage boys in particular and it seems to me be be just as right in its way for these to be addressed in order to raise a generation of boys to be the best men as it was to pave the way for girls having a bigger role and stake as women.

The same but different - being you

One reason I have to have a blog rather than a Tumblr is Tumblr doesn't just rightly clamp down on threats but also on anything that contradicts its right on "woke" culture even though it's supposed to be a social blogger tool for all regardless of views.

Being on there talking and sharing my childhood experiences helped me understand me and get to grips with who and what I was really about, having conversations with boys apart from the stuff at one site but because in part their opposition to anything that's not pro gender questioning and skewed towards modern feminism, they axed all my original accounts.

Well I'm post gender questioning  having moved on from gender questioning and now being seen as non binary with sissy gurl elements because we got to really what I was about.

My sex is male and socially I am a mixture of masculine and feminine gendered hetrosexual so you might think it was okay to be gender affirming as a boy but on there it wasn't at all.

That's the thing: While I respect the rights of others to be as they are because I share space with them doesn't mean I should not  act feminine or have to have anything to do with things that are 'girly' that I'm not hard wired to because I do have a feminine side as a boy

My own part boyish nature in all its forms should be accepted as part within my own sissy gurl Gender Identity, our natural boyish aggression rather than being denounced is best channelled in areas that benefit everyone and people should be appointed because of their ability not trying to mirror society demographics as good as having a mix can be.

Respecting those space also should include respecting my right as a feminine boy to present as one without intimidation even though I like to wear skirts and dresses.

My wearing a skirt doesn't make me a girl either.

Spaces that have existed for male and females alone because they provide safe spots for free frank conversation should be respected  even if most things are co-ed.

There is merit in single sex youth movement units even if two of the opposite sex do share facilities and take part in exercises together because it helps develop each to their full potential learning from older members and leaders of their own gender not just skills but also how to be the best grown man and women they can.

We aren't all the same but are complementary and all sides deserve respect as the gender  that they are from the one they are not.

Recast to the past

Experience has tended to show me the way in which you present can have a strong effect on how you feel.

The word "vulnerability"  Tommy a LB at one site used to describe that feeling of having so much wind  feeling the more exposed legs comes very much into mind as I did walk out today in them as a van pulls in sharp next to me with a typical big builders build winding down the window asking where the nearest place that does hot drinks and sandwiches was.

Good grief, I felt all of nine or ten just standing there answering him with old "stranger danger" messages ringing in my head in shorts of the same length as these mentally cast back to that era hoping I'd  dealt with in a way mummy would be pleased with.


I'm just a little sissy gurl.

More Rumer

 It's not the week most of us have been wanting to be entering looking toward current affairs but as we can't do much about that we might as well focus on what keeps us going and that for some us includes music.

The artist Rumer to whom a good number of first caught in 2010 with Seasons Of My Soul has recently returned with a album that collects fifteen superb songs by the acclaimed American songwriter Hugh Prestwood routed in Southern folklore of stories told from the heart.

Many of these songs have not been commercially recorded and the arrangements and production by Fred Mollin makes the most of them while Rumer's voice continues to remind us of late great Karen Carpenter.

The song Ghost In This House is a favourite of mine with its folksy feel.

Recommended.