Not one thing nor the other...

By physical sex we may be male but in reality in terms of gender we are sissy gurl, neither being a boy although we may share some interests with them nor because of our more overly feminine ways a girl almost too feminine for the modern girl or even seeing ourselves as a girl trapped in a males body.

That betweeness is what needs working on in terms of acceptance and that it can come in different ways rather than trying to assign us to a gender we just aren't and never will .

The school age sissy

Something I do care a lot about are children, specifically those assigned as boys at birth who find everything connected around gender doesn't actually feel anything like them not least because I was one.

In my day the dividing line between acceptable boys behaviour, mannerisms, dress and interests and that of girls was heavily policed both by boys and girls in the playground, organizations, and adults such as parents, teachers and medical professionals.

Parents would berate, remove items deemed unsuitable, physically punish, teachers tended to ridicule you in front of your peers and some medical professions co-operated with enforced gender norm programs making some of us who were more gender questioning wear boys items, removing anything girls had least we become "sissies"

Equally girls could find themselves forced to wear dresses against their wishes, prevented rom doing things like climb trees.

The thing really was deep down, we are what we are having our own sense of gender identity, how we see our own gender roles and how we feel best gender presenting.

I feel "boys" who don't wish to wear traditional boys school uniform should have the option to wear girls and equally any "girl" should have the option to wear that of boys so long as you're fairly consistent over it and where possible able to share in games and PT with those you feel more comfortable with in non competitive settings.

That was all this sissy wanted in school and in scouting.

Not to change the "culture" of any group nor to usurp the majority groups own identity but to able to join in as I am.

Tammy always existed but was discriminated against, humiliated  and denied what was right for hur and in 2021 stands up for children today facing similar situations.

The same but different - being you

One reason I have to have a blog rather than a Tumblr is Tumblr doesn't just rightly clamp down on threats but also on anything that contradicts its right on "woke" culture even though it's supposed to be a social blogger tool for all regardless of views.

Being on there talking and sharing my childhood experiences helped me understand me and get to grips with who and what I was really about, having conversations with boys apart from the stuff at one site but because in part their opposition to anything that's not pro gender questioning and skewed towards modern feminism, they axed all my original accounts.

Well I'm post gender questioning  having moved on from gender questioning and now being seen as non binary with sissy gurl elements because we got to really what I was about.

My sex is male and socially I am a mixture of masculine and feminine gendered hetrosexual so you might think it was okay to be gender affirming as a boy but on there it wasn't at all.

That's the thing: While I respect the rights of others to be as they are because I share space with them doesn't mean I should not  act feminine or have to have anything to do with things that are 'girly' that I'm not hard wired to because I do have a feminine side as a sissy gurl

My own part boyish nature in all its forms should be accepted as part within my own sissy gurl gender identity rather than being denounced is best channelled in areas that benefit everyone and people should be appointed because of their ability not trying to mirror society demographics as good as having a mix can be.

Respecting those space also should include respecting my right as a Sissy Gurl to present in skirts and dresses as a matter of course, being accepted for what I truly am.

My wearing a skirt doesn't make me a girl either.

Spaces that have existed for male and females alone because they provide safe spots for free frank conversation should be respected  even if most things are co-ed.

There is merit in single sex youth movement units even if two of the opposite sex do share facilities and take part in exercises together because it helps develop each to their full potential learning from older members and leaders of their own gender not just skills but also how to be the best grown man and women they can.

We aren't all the same but are complementary and all sides deserve respect as the gender  that they are from the one they are not.

The same but different - being you

One reason I have to have a blog rather than a Tumblr is Tumblr doesn't just rightly clamp down on threats but also on anything that contradicts its right on "woke" culture even though it's supposed to be a social blogger tool for all regardless of views.

Being on there talking and sharing my childhood experiences helped me understand me and get to grips with who and what I was really about, having conversations with boys but because in part their opposition to anything that's not pro gender questioning and skewed towards modern feminism, they axed all my original accounts.

Well I'm post binary genders, having moved on from "I'ma boy cos I have his body" and now see myself more as Sissy Gurl because we got to really what I was about.

My sex is male and socially I am a mixture of feminine and masculine gendered traits so you might think it was okay to be gender affirming as a masculine boy but on there it wasn't at all.

That's the thing: While I respect the rights of others to be as they are because I share space with them doesn't mean I should have to accept attempts to cast me as things I am not just because I do have a feminine side too AND I have a male body.

My mixture of masculinity and feminine traits should be accepted within my own  Gender Identity, our natural boyish aggression rather than being denounced is best channelled in areas that benefit everyone and people should be appointed because of their ability not trying to mirror society demographics as good as having a mix can be.

Having dolls and liking soft cute underwear are just a part of the whole I am.

Likewise my interest in things usually associated with females such as kawaii and my like of wearing dresses and skirts apart from short trousers should be respected.

I also know I am so off the scale with my feminity I could never socially be a girl as I'd be less feminine and more effeminate to them while being just as much over the masculine limits too plus my submissive dainty side is so plainly sissy to them

I say just call me Sissy Gurl and get on with it as I'm so third gender we might as well be honest about it for once.

Spaces that have existed for male and females alone because they provide safe spots for free frank conversation should be respected  even if most things are co-ed.

There is merit in single sex youth movement units even if two of the opposite sex do share facilities and take part in exercises together because it helps develop each to their full potential learning from older members and leaders of their own gender not just skills but also how to be the best grown man and women they can.

They aren't the same but are complementary and both deserve respect as the sex that they are from the one they are not.

The conflict starts

As we have seen so far in while I was quite happy being a boy albeit with a few unstereotypical interests and like looking very like a boy to the point I preferred to stay in grey shorts rather than  the longs high school required when not sneaking on skirts, there was a problem emerging around how my gender needs as male and a teen boy who would at least legally become a man were being met.

They were not being met which badly effected my self confidence and in a number ways I was being pushed toward a female as norm mindset by people who were supposed to look after me without any help in expressing my increased awareness of being a sissy in a world we didn't officially have a space in.

The other thing was that in all honest I remained a child.

The only thing I was was born a boy albeit one with feminine interests and a penchant for wanting to wear skirts and dresses that were more that of girls rather than being a growing up girl on the cusp of becoming an adult female aka a Woman.

I just preferred to be a sissy gurl rather than an adult man or woman.