Christmas 2010

It's Christmas here which is why posts are a bit off the usual schedule.

For as long as I remember Annuals have figured in my Christmas's with these two being up with being the longest from boyhood adding something to the weekly comic experience which normally include a Christmas  week special.

In my LSG life it is the same and for the same reasons, they have same connection, making me happy because it's just about the mixture of boys and girls interests within.

I like the anime Ben 10 Alien Force which is an adventure series shown on tv and had this years annual.

 
I did have some money which will put toward some cds in the near future be the classical or pop, a recording of Anne-Sophie Mutter playing the Brahms Violin Concerts, vouchers and a book token all of which will come in handy for when the roads clear and it's possible to travel into town as the snow melts.

Season's Greetings

 

It's fast approaching Christmas here where apart from reading the Nativity story we're going to busy with writing our Christmas Cards, visiting our friends and generally preparing for Christmas Day itself so we'll be taking a break here on the Feminine Boy until the New Year.

Our blog is like us unapologetically Junior minded steeped in life and likes of being a Junior even if by our age we are older than our years and that is and was what we're about our child-like innocence.

So with all that we'd like to wish you a very happy Christmas and New Year.

Making the most of the season

 

The year has seen so much happen with me both on the inside and the external presentation side Christmas will have an element of this mixed in with all my other stuff as the best present for Tammy is knowing she's just a Sissy Gurl.

Miss D mentally undressing me revealing all my sissy traits was the best present of all.

Raves from the grave!

Well I have eventually started to tackle the question of what to do about tracks I really liked from my mix tapes back in the 80's that I don't have either cds or even vinyl copies of cos I was skint at the time. They were tapped straight off of the radio on my Pioneer GhettoBlaster - a big somewhat expensive stereo radio cassette recorder that handled all sorts of tapes and had dolby to cut tape hiss for good measure.

I have decided to chase them on various music download sites and in time to group them in files.

So far I have gotten:

Billy Satellite: Satisfy Me Aug 84

Ratt: Round and Round July 84

Night Ranger Sister Christian June 84

Dwight Twilly Band: Girls April 84

Twisted Sister: We're Not Gonna take It '83)

Twisted Sister: I Am (I'm Me) (UK April 83)

Twisted Sister: I Wanna Rock (84)

Twisted Sister: Stay Hungry (84)

Twisted Sister: Leader Of The Pack

Twisted Sister: Come Out and Play

Preparing for winter

Winter usually is a time where I tend to go walking through the local woods quite a bit because I do enjoy being out of doors taking fresh air although though my social anxiety makes it hard at times to feel confident by myself.

Equally, with my physical disabilities not least cerebral palsy, I find walking about difficult even in flat shoes so I could never wear heels to walking never mind actually run around in although believe me I do so enjoy trying to hugging trees cos they they make me feel good and also it's part of game I've played since childhood starting in the school playground that had a big tree at the corner near a gate where played our games back then.

I just love dashing about feeling the fresh air on my skin dressed in a pretty skirt.

That was the most fun I could have then and still love now.

Linzi

It's been a rough ol' two weeks for me emotionally as no doubt several of you will have gathered and I'm slowly trying to get back to normal.

I don't make any apologies for posting something that takes me back to my childhood cos with events my mind has been thinking about the past, the people in them and what they meant to me.

Linzi pictured from a crummy old photo I took has been a part of my life for decades a gift from a dear friend that I treasure. I treasure both Linzi as a doll, one of several I still own, and love as much as the memory of the person who brought her into my life.

Linzi is very girlish in her lace, ribbons and nicely finished hems in a relatively unfussy way that also is a part of my own self image (it may not be the most practicable in sub zero temperatures though!) and helped me though some difficult times with childhood scrapes.

Do any of you have similar objects in your lives that hold a lot of emotions?

Petticoating II

 The last time Petticoating was looked at was in April last year where we looked at the process where you are moved toward more femimine dressing  which may have at an early age and so rightly involves nothing connected to mid and post puberty where our bodies change and mindset broadens to include sexuality.

Because you do doesn't mean you are always sexual and looking for sex but however embarassing it is you just have to admit it is part of you.

Feminization for those of us who have gone through that stage involves making gender based role reversals as feminine boys such as putting or actively encouraging us to were more grown up, sexy panties and bras, wearing make up and learning to accept your sexual side unlike Men is not about taking a female but learning to be taken up your bottom, just like females do.

So while parts of this are little different than what we did before almost playing dress up although we may be more pressured to be overtly feminine wearing pretty dresses and maids outfits other elements come in.

Men derive from masculine boys where that natural agression shifts into their newly emerged sexual side using their penises to push sexual advances on females.

Feminine Boys and sissies are feminine by nature, submissive looking for the dominant one to initate sexual advances as much as you may enjoy them.

Unlike them you don't have a penis as such just a short stub that might outwoodly look a bit like one which is as well give it plays no part in your sexual side and you learn the proper term for is a sissy cliteris.

I have a clit.

It would naturally alter in size as visual and other stimulation  produces responses in you and so like a good many to help control that and avoid bulges in your panties it is locked in such a way that while you can shower and go the loo it won't expand because there's a fixed barrier to it which is locked on.

As you can see it fits better and in some contexts the locking is about sexual control although like anything to do with sex damn well should be consensual.

It also shifts the attention to how you get your sexual release as any activity is connected to recieving sexual advances

It's more rewarding if you have a sexual side really.

Little gurl reading

 

When it came to reading although people tried to push me toward more 'grown up' works like those by George Orwell, Thomas Hardy and Jane Austin I always longed for my Junior and early Senior favourites which no doubt would fail a diversity test for being seen as white, middle class and stereotypically girlish.

Of course being a LSG with some boyish likes I just loved the Jennings series by Anthony Buckeridge who as a Prep School teacher knew the working of boys inside out.

Part of the reason is language, my disabilities limit my ability to read for understanding and comprehension of plots so in a way they have to be a bit younger and in an easy to grasp  formular, the other being they key in to recreated school age-play where these were about our lives sometimes set in school itself and all read in boarding school.

Enid Blyton's Naughtiest Girl series is my favourite cos in so many ways I can readily identify with it's main character, Elizabeth Allen, whose attitude are not so removed from mine while every boy knew a Jennings from his set at school.

Being two in one

Looking across the year, it seems more junior or younger high school presentation styles seem to be me not least because in so many ways I am very much a child still and much else seems so age inappropriate for me.

Simple attire like gingham dresses I can just put on and zip up adding a cardigan for extra warmth when needed seem to suit me better.

Actually as a boy to had been taken out after doing some regular clothes shopping to try on new football boots in a dress would of been pretty cool given I loved playing the game as much as I liked more feminine, girl associated things.

That's the thing with being a gender fluid feminine boy, you're not just one thing or another.

Ravel Orchestral Music

Ravel's orchestral music has always had  place in my life from Bolero to the Mother Goose suite and when cds first came out I bought a single cd in Dg's Galleria series from 1987 that had the recordings of Seiji Osawa's set with the Boston Symphony Orchestra  that included Un Bal and Bolero but it didn't sound so good.

I really loved that three lp set from 1974 and recently I bought this newly remastered two cd set that holds all the lp set did on two discs that fit as many now do in a single cd size case.

While the notes are a little basic in this set, the sound is now most vivid allowing the beauty of this set I loved to be heard in a digital form.

Bob Dylan in Mono

Another year another box set comes out screaming 'must buy' I guess but thankfully this one wasn't as expensive as last years Beatles in Mono box!

Bob Dylan's first eight ground breaking albums re-released in the original mono mixes long unavailable outside of very expensive speciality releases on vinyl housed in box with slide in carrier<.

The albums made in the EU - wherever that is - come in the mini lp form which I just adore as you have the same sort of tactile feel handling them as the lp issues I and a few others had back in the day.

In my case I still had tapes or lps in various conditions of some not getting around to buying more than a couple on cd in over 25 odd years so I was looking for a nice complete set.

Why mono? Simply the stereo separation is very distracting when listening to these performances and the vocals come over more clearly which as the cornerstone of Bob Dylan's appeal lies in his words. Stereo isn't needed for this stuff.

The mastering is very good even the most ardent critics acknowledge outside of the original mono lps that can hard to find at affordable prices without being beat up, these are the best yet and for around GBP 7.99 per disc in the set very good value for money.

If that was cool enough mine had a bonus cd of the Brandeis University, M.A. folk concert from 1963 included plus a free complete Mp3 download offer of all these albums to save me ripping them to play on the portable music player!

Signs

Everything has a beginning and in that age old nurture vs nature debate while exposure to stimulation beings traits out for me it's nature ultimately because it only brings out what was within you in the first instance.

Most accounts presume an awful lot but people are more complex like for instance I am autistic which has a major impact on how I see things and read social signals of which those around gender codes when you are growing up do take on a big role.

I don't see the pink or blue traffic light signs when you look at play and the toys that may feature in it even if some advertisers may of turned the colour settings way up high.

There isn't a "for me" setting.

 

Autistic boys and girls like me don't relate to others the same and find it hard to really get started on playing because we struggle with the social rules so the fact I may be wanting to play with dolls may not of been picked up and that some child most likely a girl would have to teach me how to play with them and with other children playing with theirs in a game or adventure.

This kind of scene was not untypical back then with all the humiliation some of us faced for just being different. 

I loved rope jump back then skipping loads.

It wasn't that I didn't play with boys nor that I didn't see myself as in hindsight more girlish but it was I wanted to play with games that back the only the girls did too as that was a part of me.

The femming of Tammy

The above is my new HK flight bag that happens to be ideal for butting my purse and sandwiches in for work.

And this is the new Tote bag ideal for putting magazines and that in while I'm in town.

Feeling braver than usual I brought this white rah-rah skirt with pockets which at a length of thirteen inches is just about the shortest skirt I've ever worn so you do need to keep brain in gear when it comes to sitting down.

It feels so different.

I am a sissy gurl being enouraged to explore their feelings and presentation in all directions to find the real me.

Here I teamed it up with neon fishnet hold up stockings and three inch heels looking like the sissy gurl I am on the inside.

Soul re-issue update

Dee Dee Sharp: Happy 'Bout The Whole Thing/What Colour Is Love/Dee Dee
Edsel 3 on 2 beermat set of the P.I.R. albums. Nice re-mastering job on this issue if Dee Dee of "I'm not in love" fame appeals.

Raydio S/T c/w Rock On 2010 Edsel beermat.
Lovely sounding and if you like the material well early Ray Parker Jr.it's recommended at half the price and the masterings darn good to boot.

Ojays Family Reunion 2010 Edsel beermat
I shouldn't have to say how what the heck how brilliant this album really is to any of you BUT this recent re-master is so good we could add the word 'Audiophile' in the same sentence as is that good PLUS it has the 1977 9.42 I Love Music as remixed by Tom Moulton as the bonus track. Possibly bargain of the year.
Catalogue no. Edsel EDSM0001

Smokey Robinson Smokey c/w Pure Smokey (aka Smokey Robinson Solo albums vol:1)
Hip-o select 2010 beermat
Decent mastering and these two albums are self recommending with Just My Soul Responding's thoughtful mediation and I Am, I Am the precursor to Quiet Storm.

Quiet Storm & Smokey's Family Robinson (aka Smokey Robinson Solo Vol:2)
Defined the whole 'Quiet Storm' soul genre.

Jones Girls S/T c/w At Peace with Woman Edsel 2005
Reissue of the first two albums for Philadelphia International originally issued in 1979 and 80 respectively.

Patti LaBelle: The Spirit In It, I'm In Love Again & Patti Edsel 3 on 2 beermat 2004
The issued studio recordings of her brief time at Philadelphia International, The first album in this collection is rootsy Gospel infused soul from '81 that got lost in those 'Good Times' on the R&B chart where it seemed everything was funkified disco, the second was cash in after her leaving for MCA in '83 but did include such gems as If Only You Knew and remains a strong set and don't even start me on the third when 'da kids' from Sugarhill tried adding electro beats to straight 'in the can' soul to compete against her MCA stuff out like New Attitude. We all saw Beverly Hills Cop back then, right?
Trouble is that sound is just so dated and when it goes into a breakbeat it's positively cringe-worthy atop of what were fine vocal performances. Thankfully Where I Wanna Be and all four tracks from what was side two escape most of this *%^& an can be appreciated as a bonus to the two 'real' albums.
The masterings extremely good btw.

Going forward

 

Part of this age regression is a coping mechanism being literally the child-like with vulnerabilities me working within what I can actually cope with rather than pushing so hard at appearing to act more grown up and sophisticated I am left to cope with what I can't with no support and guidance and part is coping with how the nervous breakdown affected me.  

I am wearing more child-like attire privately such as this school uniform as it helps to lift me more into that headspace and less likely to be 'read' as a fully grown up feminine boy.

I am looking more at finding people who are more like me to explore it more so I get more from my life on terms that are truly appropriate for me although I will remain at the sites I have belonged for the last few years even if it feels I have to put a bag over my face when it comes to just being open about myself and  my own life beyond.

I am and remain a little sissy gurl who likes to wear skirts and dresses and has a dominant feminine side not transgendered but also sharing the odd mainly masculine trait too.

The Mole Years

One thing that I'm finding myself coming back to is as awkward as it has been for me to deal with is my interests are that of child because I'm an adult little and they remain as they were from childhood.

One area where this is particularly apparent is in my tastes in literature that remain around 10 though 14. 

One series of books I enjoyed during my chronological childhood was Sue Townsend's Adrian Mole series which by pure fluke in diary form connect very much with my recollections of that era as a boy in the fifth and sixth forms.

It's a funny and at time sad story of unrequited love for his girlfriend Pandora, an account of his burgeoning intellectual development including his observations on life, attempts at deep meaningful poetry as well as running social commentary on England in the early 1980's.

It was produced  for tv in 1985 been shown on the ITV network of commercial tv stations.

The Growing Pains covers the period  from 1982 to the UK General Election in 1983, documenting the launch of Breakfast TV and the increasing distance between him and Pandora.

By this point our hero also discovers the need to shave as most of us biological boys did back then.

For me this is book about modern boyhood that is so relatable for being set in my own boyhood era.

Michael Jackson: Hello There

My childhood overlapped very much with the childhood of an artist who belong to a group many of our year followed and re-emerged in my mid teens raising the bar of soul and r&b music contributing hugely to its soundtrack.

In 2009 the specialty arm of Universal Music Group, Hip-O that do direct orders issued this unusual 3 cd set that actually is a coffee table book with enclosed music covering the early Motown era solo recordings Michael Jackson made.

What makes this desirable isn't just the lovely photos and the write up about his time at Motown as good as that is its the fact you get 6 solo albums of which two are currently unavailable anywhere in the world and the original versions of the tracks that came out in 1984 on the Farewell My Summer Love 1984 album in overdubbed form for the very first time.

There are contained across the cds a good many of his early solo hits  such as Ben, Got To Be There, With a Child's Heart, Morning Glow (a personal favourite owning the original '45), We're Almost There and One Day In Your Life, the last two coming from the 'forgotten' Dear Michael album of 1975 (and 'One Day' was a UK #1 single in 1981). The albums do hold up well despite their years as examples of quality 70's soul.

Amazon UK are currently offering this for less than £10 which is very little for a stash of great material.

Michael in death as in his life remains a mixture of contradictions, intensively successful and yet seeming, lonesome with few true friends, impressively innovative for a period  but failing to respond to the rapid changes in black music from the late 80's onward.

For what it is worth, I feel he had an awful lot of the little boy very much in him which can be evidenced by his many animals that he bought as pets and most famously in the Neverland ranch that became his base and to which he sought to share with others in ways that from an 'adult' prospective may have seemed naive and at best easily misunderstood and ultimately caused him more harm.

The same naivety I feel lay behind the row about the initial lyrics for some of the songs on his Dangerous album of 1991 where he was trying to cop a pose without considering it's impact on the wider audience (and his was a much wider one that any Hip-hop artist). He just didn't see the problem with certain words.

He was a at times flawed adult little boy.

This said I feel in the time since his death many have gotten over the 'Wacko Jacko' tag applied since the mid '90's and have rediscovered his very real abilities.
In some respects he never really 'grew up' being a kid-adult not having anything that resembled a regular childhood and suffered from a abusive father.

Recommended listening:
Jackson Five GOLD UK Motown and Soulsation (1995) US Motown box set - The band he was big part of in the beginning.
M Jackson Anthology Motown (1995) - a condensed history of Michael at Motown that sounds marvellous.
Off The Wall (1979) - The solo album that set the standard
Thriller - One of the of not THE biggest selling album in History it broke new ground mixing rock with Funk.
Bad - The last really innovative album by him.

Interests and Influences

 

Anime and manga drawing styles do influence me beyong just reading NEO magazine for upcoming shows and J Pop infomation.

Maico is Japan's newest radio DJ. When she is not working she must stave off assassins, crazed fans and a couple of office workers as well. She believes she was created just to be the perfect DJ. 

Maico's name stands for Multi-Artificial Intelligence Computer because she is 100% android, not a robot as the director always refers to her as. One would think that an android used for a radio show would look boxy or metallic, but Maico is certainly not robotic looking, in fact, she looks like a normal, pink-haired girl. 

When I was living in the Greater London Area, I used to travel out a lot across and just beyond the City and on one Saturday morning in the spring I was in the Covent Garden area, a favourite part of central London of mine where I came by this:

Aww she's cute, very fluffy and and a hand puppet being made by hand and I just had to have her, walking across the area clutching her tightly afterward. This was well before I had any idea of what being a little even was!!!

Well I used to take her to work - as this is the internet and a public site I won't say where - but the job was super important for children's welfare over here and every lunch time I'd put on an impromptu puppet show. 

We called it Peaches the Panda show and it was ever so funny. At all other times she was on my desk and I'd start playing with her as people drifted about the office.

Shortly afterward I got another fluffy thing but this was more a Plushie I named Spikey cos he's an Hedgehog.

I found them a few days ago as I was sorting out my closet so I give them a bit of clean and fluffing up and their back out on display.

The Second Time Around

And it is in more ways than one!

The soul music group Shalamar formed in 1976 from three dancers who appeared on the US black music show Soul Train were a passion of mine in the late 70's, early 80's being one of the acts that were the link between the seventies Soul (think Ojays' and solo Smokey Robinson) and the Funk that became prevailed as the main genre of black music in the 80's.

Sufficient I feel to say I bought the 45's usually as imports cos they were cheaper and many of their albums that were very satisfying in themselves having ballads as well as uptempo stompers you can dance to.

Of the albums of these that held and still hold great interest for me they are Big Fun issued fall 1979, Three For Love issued January 1981, Friends Early summer '82 and The Look issued May of 1983 and the last album by the classic original line of Jody Watley, Howard Hewitt and Jeffrey Daniels.

Jeffery pioneered the 'Moonwalk' first shown on BBC UK tv's Top Of The Pops in 1982 and was begged by Michael Jackson no less for the secret of them moves!

The records remain in my collection but like many acts it took a while before anything outside of a compilation got issued in the cd era.

That takes us back to the title of this post because in so far as the UK was concerned for a brief point Friends and The Look were issued around 1983/4 when the label was being handled by Warner (WEA) as straight cd issues - no bonus tracks - but had been out of print for a long while. These issues commend a very high price on the collectors market.

In 1996 Sequel Records part of the big re-issue group Castle Copyrights issued all four of these albums on cd, with Big Fun and Three For Love being issued for the very first time with bonus tracks.

It wasn't long however before this set of re-issues themselves were deleted and following the formation of Sanctuary Records from Castle Copyrights and the issuing of new compilations including the nice various artists Soul Classic Soul and Solar Classic Disco two cd sets in late 1999, attention again was placed on revitalizing the Shalamar catalogue.

In 2002 the entire Shalamar album catalogue was re-issued from 1977's Uptown Festival to 1990's Wake Up with new liner notes featuring interviews with Jeffery and Howard and lots of chart related facts.

It was and is a great idea but this set of issues have some flaws for the serious fan.
The first thing is like many contemporary albums an attempt was made to make everything sound loud so the quiet ballad You Can Count On Me has the same average level as a track like Dead Giveaway on the 2002 The Look cd which it never did on vinyl.

They also seem to attempted to remove any hiss and pops from the original tapes - I'm not sure these tapes are the actual 'master tapes' so much as copies of - and this has left the high notes sounding brittle and liking any sense of space around instruments or vocals.

You can hear a filter on the high notes on the intro of You Can Count On Me being lifted electronically on the louder passages which is distracting.

On the 2 albums on one cd issue of Big Fun and Three for Love I was taken aback to see they had shortened several tracks for 12 seconds or sometimes longer compared with the 1996 cd and original vinyl albums and used much shorter edits of Right In The Socket and Full Of Fire with the first song losing over two minutes!

To give you an idea how this impacts on it if you took the two albums minus any bonus tracks, the 1996 issues would run for 80:56 minutes and the 2002 a mere 74:50.

Nowhere in the notes of the 2002 cd does it mention this just proudly informing you of the bonus of The Second Time Around (edit) which was the 45 version (the lp version runs for 7:06) which how they got it all onto one cd!!! In so far as the first two albums go there are more bonus tracks - the edited singles versions - on the 1996 versions too.


Now my original 1996 Three For Love cd got lost in a move several years back and so I ordered up a complete set of the four 1996 cds used and was taken aback by the differences.
Now for The Second Time Around, I'm reunited with the cds that sound really like the vinyl albums I love.
Deja vu!

London American label Year By Year series

In 2009 Ace Records a leading UK based speciality cd re-issue label commenced its new project the London American year by year series. 

The London American label was an imprint of UK Decca Records that licensed recordings from the very many independent companies in the States and promoted them for the UK market at a time when very few US companies had UK operations of their own and the global multi-market companies we have today just didn't exist. 

London American had many deals with companies such s United Artists, Liberty, Big Top, Chess and Cadence that were the home to many of the stars of the late 1950's and early 60's such as the Everly Bros, Bobby Vee, Del Shannon, Chuck Berry and Johnny and the Hurricanes who were really popular some more popular than back home in the States. 

So a series like this is really valuable for giving you a taste of what the music of this era the one before the Beatles was really like and what is more they have deliberately gone for the previously unissued on cd tracks. 

As a really good move they have also got access to the UK Decca tape vaults where the tapes used to manufacture the original 45's were stored and used them so we have the original monaural sound those who bought and collected the 45's expect which has been expertly re-mastered. 

To date three titles have been issued 1960, 1961 and 1962 which came out last week landing in my mailbox on Monday. 

Hear we go again rewinding to the past with this the latest instalment of ACE's London American year By Year series. 28 tracks some hits some misses that haven't been re-issued on cd from 1958 from the original UK masters. 

Artists featured are Duane Eddy, The Mills Bros, Jerry Lee Lewis, Pat Boone, Chuck Berry, The Drifters and Eddie Cochrane with his Summertime Blues. What's great about the series is there's very little duplication with other ACE London American compilations

School Uniform and skirt length

This time of year certain British stores tend to be busy such as BHS, Marks and Spencer, John Lewis and that very British institution, the school uniform shop  because after next week Autumn term starts at most schools and this brings with it last minute uniform replacements and checking everything fits.

We always had are skirt lengths measured so they were not too short as that would break school rules and reflect badly upon our folks. It may of seemed awkward but I'm they cared to ensure we were decent and properly presentable.

Boys do look pretty good in kilts as the boys in this co-ed school in Scotland who have the kilt as part of the school uniform.

Perhaps this should be an option elsewhere in the UK?

The Tubes and cd updates

Finally I got two albums by the theatrical art-rock group The Tubes on cd, mainly The Completion Backward Principal and Outside/Inside from 1981&1983 respectively that were re-issued by BGO Records over here many years ago (1991 I think).

They feature the hits 'Talk To You Later' and 'She's A Beauty' which was a top 10 hit in the States which I remember buying the domestic 45 of.

Coming soon and not before time is a set of discs in the 1992 Rock and Roll Hits series from UK EMI's Music For Pleasure label featuring various classic jukeboxes on the front covers.
They compile may hits of the 'Rock and Roll era' from 1955 through 1963 from the Capitol/EMI, MCA and United Artists/Liberty stable taking in Buddy Holly, Gene Vincent, Bobby Vee, Eddie Cochrane and the Crickets amongst many.

I bought two back then but they soon went out of print and want to complete the set.

The little side of Sissification

When people think about being a sissy and how you may be encouraged to explore more of it, it is usually the more Adult forms that feature but with me for most of the time it is more of younger and less overtly adult thing.

It's really rather more an exploration of the more little more child-like feminine side of me that was often hidden in the past and has more to do with the idea of being given a fresh start to have a Mummy like figure who'd encourage more exploring that side often in more little girl frilly attire.

You're with her for that period and she's determined you will use that time to step out of your comfort zone and try this out even if a mild spanking may be in the offing if you aren't prepared to give it a go as after all you made it plain you did feel that way.

It would be a big pity not to.

While there is much wrong with this caption, the pronouns, the mean language the girls use, the hint you might be gay the right things are you do want to play with girls in games that no boy ever would, go making daisy chains and being expected to look after your pretty dress.

It was always more like the childhood I wanted and I do recreate remaining in many ways that child - that GURL, dammit - and that's what the little side of this more about for me.

Funimation SAVE releases

Driving me pretty much to the poor house are Funimation's budget 'SAVE' line in anime dvd's which came out a few months ago.
In essence they are reprints of older titles often keeping the packaging from the previous edition all at a cheap price generally under USD $30 even for a complete series which may have up to 26 episodes.
The one above "The Galaxy railways" is an adventure series set in as the would suggest on the Galaxy Railways with a team of crack railway security people, the SDF, and is really good.
Surprisingly this title has never been issued in the UK.

This one - Aquarion - has and was last out in the UK late in 2009 but the US Funimation box set is cheaper and a good deal neater. As I was a bit short of funds at the time I missed out on getting it but as a Mecha series goes this is great and it is really well drawn.

Keep Fit and Time To Swing

As a child like most we had PE (Physical Exercise) which was never the most popular thing on the subject list. 

Most of time it would involve things such as doing press ups and generally strengthening our muscles and improving the range of movements we could do using our joints

Sometimes I just miss that PE master or Miss pushing me on!

This said I do exercise a bit even now having back problems and issues with posture generally to help my condition

Getting back into the swing of outdoor exercise such as walking and bit of basic mat PE style exercise indoors like press ups to keep my muscles working something like that with my disabilities it's very good idea to do - and we have rain for much of the week!

So guess what it does? yes, buckets down. Grrr!

Never mind I have a new pair of exercise shorts to wear ready for when the downpours and strong winds stop.

This was my life, a life I loved as much as disliked the difficulties and prejudice of I endured in my youth.

To me the park was this magical place, a place that had things but you added to that from what was within you, your imagination, and boy did I have an imagination!

We created and played games there carefully observing the rules and for the most part at least always looked out in case someone felt uncomfortable in the game we were playing.

If I was feeling a bit low, then another would swing me having talked me on to getting on that swing and it wasn't too long before my face was dressed with a smile as I just loved that rocking back and forth motion. 

To be honest I'd just love to be swung right now if the truth be known.

There was a slide probably made from aluminum or steel that you had to climb several steps to place yourself with your bottom on the edge and start that gushing great sliding motion down to the very end. Whee! I just loved it!!!

New Skirt

It's been just over four years and three months since I started this blog talking about a load of things such as myself, my interests such as music and likes in a way I had not anticipated nor perhaps you might of been expecting.

There aren't many age regressed or still a child feminine boys blogs out there.

Going forward, this new skirt is increasingly more where I'm headed at least in so far as more formalish presentations go with a nod toward office or even more college/school style as I like easy to look after on or just above the knee skirts with tights, not being given to baring huge amounts of skin.
Generally I prefer flat shoes as I can't easily walk and so need all the stability and grip I can get.

The Adventurous Four

I don't know about you but adventure stories have always had an appeal and two wonderful books in the series The Adventurous Four set off the Scottish West coast where four children with the oldest Andy aged 14 who's acquired already a good knowledge of the sea, islands and sea life is  helping his Dad,  encounter Nazi's thieves and gunrunners.

The series is very much set in Wartime arguably more so than any other of Enid Blyton's work and sees them taken prisoner by the Nazi's resolving to show them what Scots are made of.

These are my copies in the Deans Rewards series from 1973 where as with a few other series such as the Famous Five, the skirts and shorts worn by the children in the original  covers are replaced with Jeans although we all know children during the War never had Jeans!

Computing in 2010

It's July so I tend to spend as much time as I can outside rather than being chained to this big Tower PC trying to type out an entry over a flaky internet connection.

I've had this computer a bit, since around October of 2006 actually when the old one which was running Windows 98SE died and this runs the stable but cartoonish XP to which I now have a pink Hello Kitty keyboard, mouse and mouse mat.

This is my current computer wallpaper which is very cute and that I have that visible as my family come in the room this computer lives frequently shows just how much a sissy gurl I truly am and the extent that difference is acknowledged.

Of course my computer plays a part in this life not only by publishing this blog but in how Mistress cajoles, teases and dominates this sissy, exploring and pushing every button bring out and lock hur sissy nature. 

Lucky Star and Air

Well this is a provision entry title as I'm feeling a little tired this afternoon and I had an entry to prep up although as I say it'll take it's final form in a couple of days time so be sure to return!

I've been watching between work, reading blogs, websites and listening to more music the following two animes:-

I'll be finished watching this one by Saturday.

Issued by Bandai in the States in their budget Anime Legends series, it hasn't seen a R2 issue although Beez have expressed a bit of interest in putting it out.

It's in part a examination of high school recollections that must of us can easily identify with coupled with a great parody of the whole otaku take on life, that never ending dash to be be first with the new manga, collecting points at the store, cosplay, obsessing over RPG's that you play overnight when you're meant to be sleeping.

Much of that is shown through Konata the anime and video game obsessed character who is older than the other three schoolgirls who can put so much into that devising grand plans to get around the comic cons and yet completely mess up with exam revision and homework. 

On the other hand Kagami is the shy, more seriously mined who has a younger sister Tsukasa who is very much the sweet but ultimately air headed one. 

For moe appeal it's Miyuki, the cute bespectacled friend with an almost encyclopaedic memory for the key facts of all subjects

Heck every episode ends with the Lucky Channel segments of hyper presenters and the shows characters doing karaoke style singing to songs from tv shows and animes, all of which served with loads of side-splitting humour and uber-cuteness.

Here's Lucky Star's very own otaku herself, Konata.

I mean they even reference Haruhi for crying out loud!!!

Now this is the opposite and strongly recommended for Kanon and Clannad fans and is issued in Funimations S.A.V.E budget series.The story arcs revolve around Yukito Kunisaki and three girls all of whom are connected.

Air is the sad tale of Misuzu a child who is ill, desperately lonely and abandoned by her real Mum, She takes a shine to Yukito,a travelling children's entertainer with only the clothes on his back as possessions who lifts her spirits and we witness her aunt Haruko who in the end quite movingly makes that step from being an Aunt to being her Mum just as sadly she has only a couple of days left to live.

The day after being taken in by Misuzu and Haruko, Yukito meets a girl named Kano Kirishima and a stray dog named Potato; Kano and Misuzu go to the same high school. 

Later that day, Yukito meets a third girl named Minagi Tohno, Misuzu's classmate, and her friend Michiru.Kano and Minagi like Misuzu, both have strange personalities connected with mysterious pasts. 

Before long, a legend of "one thousand summers" begins to unfold where the mysteries of the past are framed primarily by the relationship between Yukito and Misuzu.

Misuzu's offer of food and shelter to the destitute and close to starving Yukito causes the lifes of both to change as they grow ever closer sharing dreams of a life lived beyond the clouds. 

It is obviously that what drives Yukito chasing the story of "The Girl in the Sky". Not knowing when or if he will find her he clings on for hope. His need to find her is so strong and the answers floating in the breeze unfold as the story progresses.

The story arc comes in three parts; Dream (episodes one through seven), Summer (episodes eight and nine), and Air (episodes ten through twelve), with the recap episode (episode thirteen) following. 

As ADV didn't licence the recap episode for North America originally this dvd misses it off but it's no great loss.

We see hope in the face of adversity, trust even when badly let down and preparedness to do your very best even if it may not be enough.

The dvd adds the Air in summer OVA's issued separately in Japan on disc three.