Winter arrives

 It may of technically of fell just after Christmas but this year we did have a White Christmas.

I love playing in the snow as many did around here making snowmen and tossing snowballs in snowball rights together and there's no reason not to wear skirts whilst doing so as winter play matters for adult little gurls like me too.

Of course I can do a spot of colouring later on with a warm drink from gifts like this colouring book.

It's great to be a sissy gurl.

Christmas 2020

It's nearly another year in the history of this blog and as today is Christmas day like last year we have an entry on the blog ready cooked like our turkey is ready for lunch with my parents and my presents are with them.

The one thing is they are all connected very much to my little side, the side that remains very much a little sissy gurl and to be truthful Christmas for me is a little sissy gurl affair - mine.

They have been opened across the morning and I've just got around to posting a bit about them as with the present pandemic we're not expecting any visitors for drinks and snacks.

That means I can be as feminine as I like wearing a grey skirt, blue sweater and white pereline socks.

This year I had the vintage Legoland set 653 which makes an ambulance helicopter to go with new and old lego sets I've had for the last two Christmas's.

As well, I had the vintage Legoland 691 rescue helicopter kit both of which were issued in 1974 and were things I would of had then and indeed I did have lego then bought me. Unexpectedly I got this monster type 10717 set of mainly bricks from Daddy with 1,500 pieces inside which will add a lot more to my legos.

Back in 1974 I did have an Action Man, actually I had a handful of action men with many accessories such as uniforms, vehicles, weaponry and equipment that I loved to play with and I have talked about on the blog a few times.

The Dandy is no longer published today weekly as it was when I was first young but D C Thomson do publish a Summer Special and a Annual with some newly drawn stories from the cartoon strips I loved as a boy. 

A child's Christmas is what it is I will be having with everything adult removed from the presents and expectations, dressed as such watching children's cartoons.

These two helicopters expand the playability of my lego by adding kits that I can play with from my own era.

They were sadly casualties of casting away to relatives children when my parents felt at fifteen I no longer wanted them which wasn't true cos I was still playing with them.

Recently a limited edition range of new "classic" Action Man figures were issued and this year for christmas I actually have a new one to treasure.

Rupert the Bear is celebrating his 100th birthday this year so I had a most useful calendar, The 100th anniversary Rupert annual with classic stories from Nutwood to read across the year.

This years annual which I had is shown with Desperate Dan carrying the weight of the Dandy.

In with the annuals was this retrospective look at the cartoon art of Dudley D Watkins who worked on various cartoon strips in The Beano and Dandy featuring whole original strips, some I had as a child.

The Classic series restores many of the best cartoon strips of those comics to circulation in themed collection.

Annuals were always a big thing with me and apart from the Dandy's I also had the Beano's but the modern Beano is of necessity different to suit today's children and that world so I didn't have this years but the Christmas 68 page Special edition which is enough to give me that feel of Christmas in Beanotown on top of the regular comic I get.

With the Beano, outside of the original annuals of the period I was first young, they take me back me to those days for being clearly set in the era so to read this years is to feel I was reading those comics and annuals all over again.

I did get this 1977 edition which I'm sure I had at the time, just into my teens, that'll take me back into that time when I played Mull Of Kintyre all Christmas.

Scouting is covered on another blog in much more detail but this year I did have a most useful hardback book.

Let's say Scouting and all it means has been at the core of much of my life this year and it'll be of great use to me.

Finally I did a record that only recently was issued which contains many of the hits I can remember from original childhood Christmas's including Merry Xmas Everybody, the number 1 Christmas hit of 1973

A Selection Box, not quite the classic packaging but pretty much the sort of thing I had back then. 

 

Where we are at

 

Things are different from the days this blog had started with greater acceptance of gender variation as it effects us personally from our interests, personality and way we present even if a good number hold against reality that their son or daughter will be the gender stereotype they were brought up with.

The reality has always been I am not  nor am I in anyway almost fashionable transgender because I love my actual sex identity but more my gender side goes against certain cultural norms that in general has more issues with for bring male than a good many women and girls have (not saying they don't get negative attention sometimes).

In connection with that I did under go an online  test just for curiosity's sake and this is how it worked out

Certificate: Test results Sissy Proficiency Test

You have quite a high score! On some questions your answers scored nearly "100% sissy" male. For some other questions, the answers you provided made you appear to be either offended, uninterested and/or unable to live your dreams. Of course, the options above mean different things to different people. It might be that you would like to be more of a sissy, but home/work life prohibits or inhibits your ability to enjoy absolute and full sissy life. Either way, you are more than half-way to being a sissy! You have three choices: (a) work harder at becoming a perfect sissy; (b) stay as you are and just have fun, or (c) convince yourself that you are actually a red-blooded male... and good luck! Whatever you decide... be safe, have fun, and enjoy life!
 
Take this quiz: Sissy Proficiency Test

While I don't associate myself as with some aspects of online sissy culture  it did comfirm my feminine side and that going forward it is really best to work with that.

Having been back and forth over the years as there is no great combination of terms that both command wide acceptance and adequately define the sense in which I am not either male or female by gender even though I accept my male sex, I am now prepared to accept Sissy Gurl as main  gender idenitity.

Stripped down, its obvious I'm a Sissy Gurl.

Going back with events

 

While with other events in country in this last few days have taken us back us back a few decades or so and give us reason to look ahead to changes, this week I'm going back to twenty ten.

I was rather experimenting with looks beyond that had initially inspired me such as more formal office wear or the stuff of my schooldays, the blessed school uniform.

Things more Goth or Emo were more it so I had short  net like skirts, tops and over the knee ringer type socks although I did experiment also with wearing stockings with them.

Ditto lace up canvas shoes or heels although I tend to be rather wobbly on the feet with limited control of their movement.

It was a bit before the tartan micro skirts started to come in and with the netting underneath could give you a far bit of modesty although obviously you do mind how you sit.

Choices

December means Christmas of course with all the preparations that come with it which is big if like age dysphoric me you view this from a child-like prospective.

Winnie The Pooh was a childhood like and to have a pinafore dress or dungarees with them on is not just cute but a step back to the childhood we'd of wanted, just being us. 

As far back as the late 1990's we still read and used paper based catalogues to order from or make notes for in store shopping.

I mentioned about the Giroscope purchase that never quite happened a while back but that had a backstory to it too because it was upon finding that tartan skirt originally bought in the very late 1970's by Mum one day when no one was in the house that I did start to wear it carefully folding and putting back in the chest it lived in.

This I am sure is a thing many feminine boys go through, helping ourselves without permission to other peoples things cos we "need" to wear it then being oversized "borrowers".

To me it is the only source of shame we can have because of our inability to ask them for the very garments or even be given them if they were only go to go to a collection.

Going back, this is a twenty inch length ladies kilt skirt I bought this year in the Dress Gordon tartan very much in that mode so it's just above the knee with me with the knife pleats at the back, designed to fit on your actual waist, above the naval.

It's just the thing for when I want to look smart with either long socks or white tights.

Crackerjack returns

Covid had many effects on things in our lives but Series One in the revamped Crackerjack! was a victim of it with filming delayed for what would be a second series following its widespread praise in being just sufficiently updated for today's children but keeping the core of what the show great as children are children what era you're in.

Series two resumes on Friday December 11th at 6pm on CBBC with the Christmas special which was really funny with Naga Munchetty and Charlie Stayt from BBC's breakfast time taking part in the show presented by Sam Nixon and Mark Rhodes.

I laughed my socks off as Naga got the gunge and remembered quite a bit of the Crackajack players story on on  the "Watch it" section which is a test of observation and recall.

Naturally I watched this show from a young boy and so I remember Ed 'Stewpot' Stewart who also presented Junior Choice on Radio One at the time.

That's so nineteen seventies!

Mr. Leo Sayer on the show in the mid nineteen seventies.

A photo for an anniversary show in the eighties

Here in the UK we love a Annual, a yearly round up of a show, magazine or series and during that era you may well of had one with your selection box and toys.

The Nineteen Eighties when I was getting out of official childhood but still was in nearly every way saw me watching the show just the same as I had ten years before and so Stu Francis is a face I fondly remember presenting it.

Ooo I could just crush a grape!

All that AND "Wee Jimmy" from tv's The Crankies, it was a riot and a possible influence in remaining looking as a little boy.

As with Blue Peter there has been "behind the scenes" books published over the years.

The next edition in series 2 of the remake will be screened in the new year.

Detail added Dec 12 2020.

Underwear a la mode

Underwear is a key difference in how I present as that varies as my gender fluidity moves across and to a point across the resulting presentation.

Traditionally a boy like me only had one form which for good measure was set for you but frankly what would a sissy want with tighty whities?

Because I am a feminine boy, I do wear usually with skirts and dresses soft smooth girls underwear with lace.

I find them comfortable so long as you check there is enough room for your boy bits and as you pull up your skirt and pull down your knickers that lack of a fly is of no consequence but that soft luxury feel is just what I want when I'm like that.

If I'm in school uniform skirts and dresses then usually I wear gym knickers which do provide surprisingly lots of support in a brief based design and are quite comfortable.

At one time silk panties were hard to find but since the economic opening of China they have become easier and far more affordable

Pretty panties like these that have more space down below are highly appropriate and every sissy needs some pink panties to be put into

Having a more grown up side Big Gurl more scrunchie panties are also appropriate while in that headspace when I want to fly with my sexual side

Trans age rant

 

Ever notice how people react with a disgusting and unwarranted amount of vitriol towards those who "don't act their age"?

Seriously, what is it about being immature that causes such nastiness in people? As long as your so-called immaturity isn't hurting anyone, why do they care? 

Everyone knows to be kind and understanding towards people with disabilities, mental illness, and so on, but have they ever stopped to think that maybe immature people can't help it either? 

So WHAT if I become obsessive over celebrities and fictional characters? So WHAT if you deem me to be "too old" for that kind of stuff? 

Why do you have to treat me like human garbage just because my interest and personality is that of a person younger than the number of years I've been alive?

It may be true for people whose current bone age up to thirty to be given some latitude having interests in Fandoms, celebrities and perhaps following some interests from their teens but my generation was pushed onto serious topics, having plushies ripped from you, prized toys prized out of your hands, discouraged from having posters.

You had to read "grown up" books which was a bloody laugh when I didn't have the reading comprehension to do so, wanting to dress as a character in film or book was called "Silly" and childish.

Just goes to show how horribly most people treat those who buck the status quo.

It gets so bad for some of us that we’re called pxdos and people say that we “act that way” to attract kids somehow. I had a disrupted childhood and have always had a fixation on toys and arts and crafts and cute things. I experience involuntary age regression and am autistic and I’m tired of being seen as cringe, creepy and even predatorial. It hurts so much. I’m just a big kid trying to relax.

That's the thing. They assume that about us, and then all rational conversation shuts down–like they don't even want to hear anything further. 

Like, how fucked up in the head do you have to be that your mind automatically goes there when you hear about trans-age people? To me it sounds like THEY'RE the ones with the problem, not us. And besides, how could we be (those people) when we are kids ourselves??? As kids (with the exception of maybe the teenagers among us), it's not even possible for us to experience sexual attraction of any kind!!! We are literally CHILDREN! Stop trying to steal our innocence and turn us into monsters.

Kawaii overload!

 

An overload of cuteness is something I am prone to having a long term addiction to all things Sanriotown for a long time, from tote bags to all manner of things

I quite love sugary sweet pink in tops, short kittenish skirts and accessories so if it was given its fullmost expression then you'd need to wear sunglasses all year round and not just on summer days either.

I was also into Care Bears, probably cos the message resonated strongly with me liking cartoons a lot.

I mean I seldom watch adult tv these days as little really interests me unless say it's arts or history based with nothing changing much over the years.

The clock has stopped.

Switch off and sit on the floor reading your comics

There is more to this life than merely uniforms and attire and I said the other day no it's nowt to do with "humiliations"

It is more about being in the headspace of and positioned socially as that little that you feel most comfortable as cos in the inside that is, that was always you as much as people tried pushing you to faked adolescence and adulthood because that suited their ideas of what you were and should be.

l am reading comics much more now than I did because really that is much better for my mental well-being as a actual child on the inside who struggles to cope with the adult world and even couldn't keep up with early adolescent peers.

These are aimed nominally at seven to fourteen year olds established in 2012 with lots of weekly series that mix comic strips with older illustrated text stories in the manner comics in the earlier part of the last century did.

It wasn't when I was ten that all I read was comics, I read the Guardian and Observer newspapers for the headlines, filling in the gaps on John Craven's Newsround but the point was I just read what I needed to knew like things about the Royal Wedding, the Three Day Week and IRA Terrorism and then moved on to reading comics, playing with Action Man, lego, and toy cars if not playing in the street with other boys.

That balance is the best one for me and why it happens, you having caught up with what you need to know move on and take a total break in another world pf your own from all of that.

The boy in short trousers then knew what the little now needed which is why I'm doing it as the little sissy gurl in their dress open about your real gender today.

Just reading and playing in your pretty dress.

On what would of been

 

Halloween has just gone and of course tomorrow is Guy Fawkes night both of which are occasions where in more normal times you would socialize be it going around to a neighbours, in the past a All Saint's Day party with other children or a fireworks night.

Bad Boy covid's put a stop to that this year with all those poxey rules and that about where we can go as normally I'd be in dress as a sissy gurl at a littles party.

I don't know about Boys wearing dresses but as a sissy gurl I belong in dresses and frilly panties and that's definitely okay for me.

Coming out

 

Sex is quite straightforward being your physiological build and if you pulled down my panties you'd know that was male.

There is always more going on and that is socially and sexually people do vary a lot and that counts for much more in your lives so this merging of the terms sex and gender we have had over the last few decades really doesn't help.

Let's discuss that little fantasy, some planted at an impressionable age and some not that long ago tried to resurrect that somehow all of that didn't matter and I was an adult male socially because I'd been born male.

A childhood that included doing more girlie things, that included dressing more as a girl even if Ifelt I wasn't a girl any more than a boy, that included dressing more from the past as a younger child, never feeling grown up either.

I may of felt certain more sexual aspects of in print and online "sissy culture" were not me, being more regressively child-like but lots of the other bits did fit.

Little Sissy or LSG (Little Sissy Gurl) is in all honesty more of fit for me rather than being a more age appropriate FemBoy.

Pasts and the present

In a week when some actual children have been very concerned around their examinations, this week I'm looking rather more at things from my past and the present.

One thing I really enjoyed playing with was lego which you could make more or less anything from but many of the suggestions tended to be more around boys interests like making trucks and less social so this is more my kind of lego.

Another thing I was interested in was nature study and the sciences so one thing I did have was a microscope set although it looked deadly masculine to be honest so I'd of loved to had had this set which although being a serious piece of kit is much more appealing.

Something I'd of love to had had would of been craft sets to make pretty accessories like these charms with girls sharing and chatting away.

As a sissy gurl they're so me.

 Tin Tin as in The Adventures of  was something I followed reading the books and watching on tv at the time although his past has come under much scrutiny in recent years and it can't be denied some scenes do reflect the less than charitable views Belgium had toward Africans in their then colonies.

It's right to be aware of such things but can we say in fifty years time many of our attitudes might be seen in the same way we do now?

I feel it's better to acknowledge the past and learn from it rather than re-writing or airbrushing it as if it never happened.

It's also how I look at my life experiences.

We are a Child of xx Years

 

A person who can discuss current affairs, science while watching children's tv, reading a comic or magazine, enjoying playing a game or 'plays' with his toys is a...CHILD, specifically a GURL.

Because I have turned over 18 but still am the same does not make me an ADULT because I'm not acting as an adult because that is a status I am not living as.

Intellectual deficits do work in different ways meaning while I could do one thing, the more mundane adult roles may be beyond me. 

There is nothing wrong with adulthood but that is is a status that should be conferred who have achieved it in way that is marked in his community with the extra rights and responsibilities that come with it.

Those of us who haven't actually need to be treated as children by our communities cared for by the actual adults. 

Brownie and cub scouting Autumn 2020 style

 

Rovering, exploring call it what you want, it's all a part of scouting and so this week gone I was out exploring the woodlands near where I live

As we enter the wood from a residential area, you can see how denuded the top of the tree is looking very stark.

Further along though and you see the colourful tree canopies where often you can see and hear the local birds during the daytime.

Here you can see the interesting shapes of the branches as they throw out from the trunk and the glistening sun kissed foliage.

The thing I love most of all about the autumn is the riot of deep crisp colour and here you can see just how some of the foliage has changed to a copper colour.

It is just magical.

Something we see a lot of at this time of year is Acorns that are collected and stored by the resident squirrels which I have seen a fair bit of this year.