Falling in October

October is Fall as the American's call it as we step out of late summer with its sun kissed memories of having a kickabout during playtimes ready to embrace Winter and that comes with it.

You're never to old for a teddy bear!

If you are age dysphoric as I am you'd never want to do grown up gender presentations because everything around how that looks and how you see yourself as that child is so at odds it utterly freaks you out.

That is why as age dysphoria meets gender fluid feminine boy "Jane Boy" me I wear the sorts of things that are within that for children around my developmental age such as school skirts and pinafore dresses.

Christopher Whitehead looked pretty much as I'd of love to had at thirteen and both of us looked good in skirts, not trying to "be" girls just boys that like to wear skirts too.

As just about every British person knows the underwear we wear at school is different to what we might were elsewhere even to the point at one time the School Prospectus specified what you were to come to school in.

That doesn't mean "at home" a feminine boy like me cannot wear anything beyond either plain cotton knickers or Gym Knickers which despite plain jane looks are very comfortable.

Recently I bought these satin Ivy floral knickers in white silk with white lace along the waist and legs.

I also bought these and both have a plain white rear  and are extremely comfortable having a good wide crotch area to take my boy bits.

As I have I am sure mentioned before the best thing sissies like me is where you can wear smoothest feminine but not sissy style effeminate pretty knickers you can for the buzz under your skirts and dresses to give you a totally different feel than boys cotton Y Fronts.

Life's a compromise at times but you might well embrace your feminine loves when and where you can as part of the one whole you.

Move forward as you even in winter

It's a cold start to the week here not least for temperatures being minus 4 degrees c here as I sit typing this  so I thought we'd start with something rather more basic this week as eclectic as this blog is.

That moment we suddenly realize we are different than our peers whither or not it happened at some stage in your childhood or later on in life such as at college or university is life changing but often we feel lost, unsure of how now to proceed.

Being so used to an idea about how we'd just get up one morning and dress to spend that day counted as a male, there is that hesitancy as you go to pick up those boxers and to start pulling up your trousers you never experienced before that epiphany.

For me, the honest answer is I had not when as a child I realized really I was more of a gurl but went to try skirts on and found it just felt fantastic and that question needs answering I feel for most sissies.

We need to say from that moment we realize we are no longer men or boys onwards we will commit to exploring who we are and seriously explore not just in furtive few minutes but for hours at a time wearing a dress or skirt and our underwear.

 

You need to throw out those boxers and get into panties even on those days you may for now at least have to go out in men's trousers, exploring which cuts and fabric you prefer.

On a cold day like today where you'd be an idiot to wear a thin floaty skirt on the streets you can wear a pretty pair of panties under fleecy trousers and a bra too under a top and sweater and add some girlie thick long socks, perhaps with a pretty motif.

Just go ahead and declare you inner femininity as a sissy even where the short pretty dresses and skirts aren't the best choices for the weather and keep all else feminine as that'll give you that feeling you have started to move on, your world is now different.

As much as I love and you love the skirted look, we can take a leaf out of girls books and wear whatever best suits our needs and still keep who we are.

It's simply that where we can, skirts and dresses are so much more fun, more liberating even.

YOU ARE A SISSY IN ALL WEATHERS

Reflections

The new reality isn't really all that new but just the outward manifestation of the reality within, that did not and could not move on which is really what being age dysphoric means in practical terms when you are (being) allowed to be just you.

It was never really about changing sex but more about just letting my more feminine side out, being that little child all over again but this time allowed to wear dresses, soft frilly knickers and girls socks with pretty bows without a care in the world.

Learning to feel alive as you just run with how you felt on the day so if did want to wear a t shirt and shorts that was okay too as it for many children today in a way it was never like for us ridiculed or even beaten up for daring to be just ourselves.

I learned to let it all out.

Miss Shao and our panties

A Favourite of MacGyver's from the anime Mamotte Shugogetten that's always a thing I'm aware of when the wind gets up!

"Sissification" isn't and never was what this blog about but sometimes the art produced under that influence does reflect some important parts of presentation as it applies to feminine boys.

The direction is more "being a girl" but it's really to do with with fully expressing your feminine side within what kind of an outfit you are going to be presenting in and a party dress with puffed shoulders with lace trimmings as the girl is saying demands the softest frilliest of pretty knickers underneath it.

Feminine boys (not just "sissies" like me) need to embrace being "PANTY BOYS", choosing the right pair the outfit rather just grabbing any old pair of pants.

Some may think there are disadvantages to being one but consider the following:

Boys will miss out on having a thick elastic band from boxer shorts around their waist all day.

They’ll have to look in their panty drawers to select a pair that’s suitable for the rest of the outfit they’re wearing, rather than blindly grabbing another pair of tighty whities every day.

Some of the girls at school might think it’s odd, but who cares what they think?

Boys can easily get an erection by having all of that soft and silky fabric down there.

Some girls might get confused about your sexual orientation, but that would be their mistake and not yours.

You would have to keep them hidden while you’re changing into your workout clothes in the school gymnasium.

Wearing panties can become addictive, so you would need some extra cash to keep your collection growing.

If you’re still living at home, you may need a safe hiding place for them.

If you end up loving panties like many boys and men do, you might eventually decide to wear more than panties (and maybe much more) which would cost some extra money for an entirely new wardrobe.

In truth, none of these are really disadvantages that would stand in the way of your enjoying panties if you really love wearing them.

You're a panty boy so just do it!

Underwear a la mode

Underwear is a key difference in how I present as that varies as my gender fluidity moves across and to a point across the resulting presentation.

Traditionally a boy like me only had one form which for good measure was set for you but frankly what would a sissy want with tighty whities?

Because I am a feminine boy, I do wear usually with skirts and dresses soft smooth girls underwear with lace.

I find them comfortable so long as you check there is enough room for your boy bits and as you pull up your skirt and pull down your knickers that lack of a fly is of no consequence but that soft luxury feel is just what I want when I'm like that.

If I'm in school uniform skirts and dresses then usually I wear gym knickers which do provide surprisingly lots of support in a brief based design and are quite comfortable.

At one time silk panties were hard to find but since the economic opening of China they have become easier and far more affordable

Pretty panties like these that have more space down below are highly appropriate and every sissy needs some pink panties to be put into

Having a more grown up side Big Gurl more scrunchie panties are also appropriate while in that headspace when I want to fly with my sexual side

Reflections on the early years of Sissification

This week we are going back in a lot of ways to the time around a few years into this blog where I was exploring more around myself during a period where things were less buttoned up online so people like Mistress916 would be on experience project the no longer with us open house of discussing anything, Miss D was on Blogger talking about and inspiring sissies as was Miss Cassie to do so with lots of others quite publicly.

While for a variety of reasons these sites were to go an in an age where courting the likes of Apple to carry Apps and where people like PayPal have issues with who and what you wish to do transitions with even if they're legal, the legacy of those days lives on and through some of us.

One thing they had us doing was experimenting with different looks requiring us to write in and post photographs of ourselves for critical and analytical comments and further suggestions to mine while getting us to open up about how we felt about that person in the picture and what that revealed of our real true nature.

In the spirit of this, I'm putting a picture of Tammy the sissy gurl  up as as Mistress916 always said a sissy should not be be a wasted thing because they are a thing of beauty.

Here I am in some blue satin frilly panties looking the part with hur sissy stick just detectable for other sissies and mistresses who may view the blog.

I am sure Miss D would be proud of the sissy gurl I became when I first encountered and corresponded with Her when just over six years ago I agreed to work with her exploring my sissieness as a dominant with her in charge.

With love from Tammy.

The battle to be Frilly but Sissy

Sometimes it has seemed a battle of the wills between one group of people who saw me as a transsexual and another lot who rigidly thought I ought to be more of a boy when really all I am is a sissy gurl.

All I ever wanted to do was express my feminine side as the occasion took me it might be a pair of shorts but worn more girlie or on a good many more something like a skirt and a dress and all with frilly panties, girlies knee socks or tights on while playing with girls.

Had that of happened during childhood it might of gone a bit more like this...

The gender pronoun confusion is telling in that but I'm a hur, a gurl not a Her or a Girl and a long way removed socially from a boy whatever the physical sex might be.

All I want when I'm with Littles is to be who I am.

Tammy the Sissy Gurl

Frilly panties for the feminine gurl

They caused great controversy when mentioned on some sites  which aren't really what being a feminine boy is about but at least talk about the odd thing of interest.

While having an aversion to a forest of lace and details, feminine boys like me like soft comfortable knickers that have a little lace detail and elasticated legs.

These were made by a U.S. concern Manties advertised as "panties for men" and that does translate into having a bit more room around the crotch to allow for our boy parts compared to cuts for girls who are very different in that respect.

To me they just the ticket, frilly panties for feminine boys that fit properly that make me pretty.

Those in some "sissy" communities disagree because they want to wear women's panties by design even though they seldom fit right for biological derived anatomical  reasons and the fact they are designed for men automatically invalidates them.

It's a difference between us and them  I suspect.

Sissy time away

 With going away time is short but that act of packing your case brings things into mind as you have to choose what actually matters to you and much of that centres around the clothes that I'm taking away with me.

I'd love a whole day devoted to wearing pretty dresses, deportment and feminine arts.

You can't go away with taking undies with you but this sissy belongs in silky panties like "french knickers and even if I have to go a few places drab, wearing them would just remind me of who I am.

Childhood fantasies included make overs by Mum while doing stereotypically girls things with her like cooking, cleaning or trying on clothes in the women's and girls department.

Spending time experimenting with looks was always a thing with me and apretty baby doll with matching frilly panties is so sissy it IS me!

Of course one thing leads to another and been taught to apply my own make up just dressed in a bra and panties really would seal my fate.