Moving on

Sometimes on this blog I feel I get stuck in a rut we need to move a little out of and perhaps talk a little more around.

For most of us, we progress as our ages get older as much as I feel being grown up somewhat overrated and often cuts outs things that have good reason to remain in your life such as your interests and yes how you might present.

Our formative influences include our parents, the wider family, peers and school with our parents and the wider family being the biggest one as from the moment we were born, they dressed us, as we got older that changed but for most people, in your teens your peers and "fashion" count for more as you establish more of your own sense of self.

There tends to be a "battle of wills" and for most, you win but usually with some concessions to your parents concerns.

It's different for anyone who is transexual or like me, a sissy cos in most situations your parents will deny it, certainly won't do anything sensible like channel  that more like that our your peers which for many us of who were "assigned" as male they'd of developed a whole look so by the time comes they're ready to leave school they resemble more a "Young Woman".

We never did and I know speaking personally a part of my problem lies in just not developing a sense of being feminine sissy me that was closer to that of girls who were growing up when all I saw was the more obvious schoolgirl and my obsession with trying be more like her.

Really what I needed was assistance with learning to dress outside of a school context as a growing up gurl who might go parties, visit the cinema with friends as a confident young thing and that's where having some support from Mums, sisters and the like would of helped as they'd us develop that sense of older gurl that corresponded to older girl, more like an adult.

I need to learn to get that right as much as it's appropriate at other times to dress more like a schoolgirl and still at others as gurl with a sexual side when I feel that way.

There are many looks and really I need to widen them from now on for every situation and role.

Going forward

The last few days frankly haven't been great ones with me, not least with a three day mega migraine period that really scrambled my brain but sometimes it is worth asking a few basic questions of yourself as this sissy.

You can do all of this in a number of ways and the only golden rules are wearing lingerie that is feminine all the time as after all females have and use so many different modes of dressing depending on what they are really trying to achieve.

I've always had two sides, one a work in progress which is a more full on grown up sissy side that has sexual elements  and another separate side which is really regressing back into various points in my childhood but being dressed and doing the sorts of things more like a girl would do rather than what we were coerced into.

Part of this age regression is a coping mechanism being literally the child-like with vulnerabilities me working within what I can actually cope with rather than pushing so hard at appearing to act more grown up and sophisticated I am left to cope with what I can't with no support and guidance and part is coping with how the nervous breakdown affected me.  

I am wearing more child-like attire privately such as school uniform as it helps to lift me more into that headspace and less likely to be 'read' as a fully grown up sissy and in that regressed role nothing like that ever happens.

We have tidied this blog up as it was rather messy and a spanking might well of been justified for leaving it like so but the main emphasis remains on that little sissy side  here and rather more on my interests 

I am and remain a little sissy gurl who likes to wear skirts and dresses and has a dominant feminine side not transgendered but also sharing the odd mainly masculine trait, happy to be so but when the adult sissy wishes to come out then she can.

Thoughts while away

 Well we are away this week so no live posts having a more little time of it with friends for the fun of it, just like Summer Camps always were so we're really reflecting a bit on things here on the blog and in real life.

Whatever the dinosaurs say if I bloody well want to wear a skirt cos I feel myself in it I darn well will and that doesn't mean I stop being a gurl

I'm just a feminine sissy who is wired a bit different compared to most and I certainly don't want to be a girl or regular boy just the "sissy gurl" self I am.

If I want to wear more feminine  flowery shorts that so I can cos you're still that Sissy  and no boy would EVER want to be seen wearing them!

Although this blog and much of me is that more younger take on being sissy, perhaps reflecting the real life turbulence of those years it doesn't mean I can't present more as a young adult sissy gurl would, more kittenish than really provocative.

One doesn't negate the other however some peoples narratives and that run.

Interuptions

I was reading on site about the second time a Sissy in their late teens got rumbled by Mum where hur stash of clothes and other accessories tm was found in the wardrobe of the guest rooms when this room seldom gets used.

To me the easier thing is get the point you manage your own room and Mum agrees to ask first before entering it. I mean respect of privacy really ought to be a given at that age.

Sadly some Mums and Dad's too think they can "barge in" whenever they like as you're "under their roof" in which instance a situation like that can easily happen and whatever your folks own views, you should be able to dress as you're comfortable in your own space.

Other rooms in the house and situations like coming down for evening meals can be more awkward as they just say "We're not comfortable seeing you like that" and in practice unless you can stopover with a mate or have Uni accommodation there's little you can do about that.

Feminine May

May, that month that forms the bridgehead between the awakening of Spring and the glorious sun of Summer moves forward with its calendar comprising of two bank holidays and for many of us the memories of learning to dance the maypole gracefully weaving a plait with the girls who seemed more co-ordinated than we did. 

 Twenty-ten is shaping up to be quite a year as we work on my feminine presentation such as wearing these La Senza satin high cut knickers with fully elasticated legs.

The rear is sculptured to present my bottom in a feminine way complete with a frilly lace skirt across the cheeks while the overall impression is that of more mature sophistication

It's not even just all that but wearing short pretty skirts with netting like this Hell Bunny goth one as I let my feminine side right out more like a teen would.

Here it is with hold up stockings with pretty bows

I was encouraged to try wear it with stocking and suspenders to take me completely out of my comfort zone so I could see what I could be like.

Easter Sissy

Well spring continues onward toward Bunny Time which brings back strong memories of childhood so it's no surprise in my world what matters outside of the Spiritual side of Easter.

Easter is a part of my Sissy Life especially in the more Little side of that loving a Easter party with frilly dresses, games and fun, fun, fun.

England's finest chocolate people strike again with this pretty decorated Egg which you might of thought was it except this also came:

Yes it's that cat again in her own exclusive design so you can tell I love Hello Kitty although I really really wasn't expecting it so thank you to the person who knows who they are for it as it's mooch appreciated.

I don't eat loads of chocolate but i just adore Easter Eggs and I feel small doing so.

Happy Easter folks!

Be the doll!

A few well-being issues today, scratch that, since the weekend so it's gonna be short and sweet.

I like playing although there are times when other events do rather take over that you can do little about, they may be craft kits, lego, which in it's original form was only limited by your own imagination rather than the vast amounts of movie and tv tie-in sets they've issued over the last fifteen or so years.

There are those things we hug and involve in stories we act out such as our teddy bears, hello kitties and dolls.

Dolls do matter for gurls, as it's often our springboard to seeing what who looks may be like and where we might wear them as soft pastel outfits wouldn't do for fetching the coal in or doing a bit of gardening as much as we might feel like a million dollars dressed like that.

We may experiment with hair fashions too and a vast array of accessories but you know where it ends up for many of us?

Before you know it, we work on becoming the doll and didn't we just want that from our drab pasts, a total change so let's make 2026, the hear of being the dolly we love, upping our femming!

Changes beneath the surface

When this blog split off from the other the expectations were that that one would just hang around as record of the past  and this would be directed primarily at the younger more Little Gurl end but the what happened with the other was over time it became a way of working through the more adult side.

That said, ultimately there is only one you so some elements cross over and one concerns presentation which started on that other side as a way of exploring how to raise my expression of sissiness in less overtly "adult" ways and migrated over.

These days I wear camisoles and Baby Dolls all the time as the material feels soft, it does better support my breast tissue which can be tender when the straps are suitably adjusted without the fiddling of bra fastenings.

It just feels better wearing them.

Similarly while at one time I'd of been in cotton regular  high cut knickers today I wear more satins and more frilly ones .

These include soft frilly lined and gathered bloomers that few girls would wear but I just love fitting snugly and together the look is very feminine but free from anything overly fetishized going well with satin dresses.

Falling in October

October is Fall as the American's call it as we step out of late summer with its sun kissed memories of having a kickabout during playtimes ready to embrace Winter and that comes with it.

You're never to old for a teddy bear!

If you are age dysphoric as I am you'd never want to do grown up gender presentations because everything around how that looks and how you see yourself as that child is so at odds it utterly freaks you out.

That is why as age dysphoria meets gender fluid feminine boy "Jane Boy" me I wear the sorts of things that are within that for children around my developmental age such as school skirts and pinafore dresses.

Christopher Whitehead looked pretty much as I'd of love to had at thirteen and both of us looked good in skirts, not trying to "be" girls just boys that like to wear skirts too.

As just about every British person knows the underwear we wear at school is different to what we might were elsewhere even to the point at one time the School Prospectus specified what you were to come to school in.

That doesn't mean "at home" a feminine boy like me cannot wear anything beyond either plain cotton knickers or Gym Knickers which despite plain jane looks are very comfortable.

Recently I bought these satin Ivy floral knickers in white silk with white lace along the waist and legs.

I also bought these and both have a plain white rear  and are extremely comfortable having a good wide crotch area to take my boy bits.

As I have I am sure mentioned before the best thing sissies like me is where you can wear smoothest feminine but not sissy style effeminate pretty knickers you can for the buzz under your skirts and dresses to give you a totally different feel than boys cotton Y Fronts.

Life's a compromise at times but you might well embrace your feminine loves when and where you can as part of the one whole you.

The great legs debate

 

Well it has been a hot Bank Holiday here so we're reducing the layers and taking in cool drinks while sorting through a few old things as we start the process of leaving Summer and heading in Autumn with all that brings.

Socks can be contentious with one group of boy arguing over wither or not they "should" wear white socks which in as far school uniform goes was yes a minority thing for boys in school but did happen for things like Maypole dancing and some Scout groups had white socks and garters.

With us it's really around type of sock, ankle, mid calf or just over the knee, patterned or plain and then if we have straight elastic tops, lacy tops and bows.

Then there's the white tights thing which we see more of in upper juniors and senior school plus with more formal occasions with skirts and dresses.

You don't have to go all frilly, all of the time as a sissy gurl, we're just all gurl all of the time so we can mix and match looks to suit what we're doing and the kind of image we are portraying.

Summer away together

Today I thought I'd  like to take look back to when I was I was away with friends and I saw this group of trees.

 It just appealed to me greatly so grabbed my camera  and took this picture in the early morning of it while other folks were doing other things like getting up.
Nature has always held a fascination for me, not least in my childhood being surrounded by countryside.

 

It isn't just flowers that interest me, even leaf structures do too.

It also was a time when I played on a tricycle presenting as very much my sissy gurl self in hur gingham dress and pretty bows letting that little side out.

Just letting it all out

So it is a new month as we continue exploring this thing commenting as much as Christine may not be super keen on it at DD or on SK joining in on things.

It's also going to be warm ol' week too so layers will be off including layers of petticoats and out with gingham sissy dresses which I do really love as intentionally short as they are as just enjoy that whole "playful" thing. 

Colour balance was an issue with the camera but that I feel is so much the textbook classic sissy me that at times I fought but now understand really is both IN and OF me really as much as you might not wear it at outdoor event in spaces shared with the muggles.

But at a sissy meet it would just be so so right.

Working on presentation

Not much left of the old year now with halloween and that gone and temperatures dropping a little which you notice if you are out a fair bit as I am, working on my fitness which has never been exactly great

Somethings don't change though

Feminine sissy gurls really need to embrace soft satin knickers with lace which need not be particularly wide to really take us out of cotton "y front" briefs and everything associated with them especially when we are in skirts and dresses.

Ideally they should be binned.

These are some I wear that also come with a small pretty bow on the waist band.

Age Dysphoria works its way into things with me such as presenting more as junior child than any adult so things that fit into it are clip on ties if dressing more as them at a social function or as a school child is a part of it.

That cuts across both traditional masculine gender presentation with shirts and grey school short trousers as much as pinafore dresses or skirts with blouses.

Being...you

It's a hot week following on from a rather hot weekend so I thought we'd look a bit at something we all struggle with which is self acceptance that goes beyond the battles many of us have had with parents, siblings, partners (for some) accepting us as we are.

Sometimes we cannot get one image out of our heads, the one we first saw being as most of us were raised as boys and so no matter what we may do when it comes to how we present such as our outfits, frilly, more school or office wear or whatever that one thought enters our heads when we look in the mirror.

If I were a betting type I'd lay a tenner on you like me looking as they do in the mirror thinking, whatever I do, I don't look the gurl I feel oblivious to the manner self image issues girls face when they feel they're unfeminine share much in common with what we battle with.

It's more about how we project our feminine side outside, with how we walk, how we relate to others and having a sense of confidence in us being us, not anyone else that makes it possible for others to see us as us no matter what outfit we're wearing whither or not we get complements for our looks or not.

Being is just going "out there" and just being our authentic selves and how we present is part of that not the main thing.

Redefining a part of a Little Gurls uniform

Last week was a bit of a tonic given some of the things I was dealing with but it does start a bit of this weeks blog off for the way in which some of those I know and one person in particular who does host events which are much appreciated have a very old school view on how "girls" (or Gurls for that matter) should dress.

Some of this does come from their own recollection of how girls dressed for school a good number of decades ago when parents and especially schools had very prescriptive requirements about uniform items even going so far as to specify your underwear!

In her world girls only wear gym knickers and p.e skirts for games and only play traditional girls games such as hockey, netball and rounders although some girls did play cricket but today things are different.

My local combined infant & junior school sets shorts (never skirts) as a requirement for games and many girls play football as the women's game has become very popular.

I've always enjoyed following and playing football too so in looking at what a little sissy gurl "should" wear I have arrived at the conclusion there is no reason why I shouldn't wear girls football shorts cut very differently than the long legged boys ones.

Thus I bought these in a suitable size as the side hip panels are elasticated as is the gusset for a snug more girlie fit and they are noticeably shorter more like those boys and men wore from the 60's to 1994 but with a more rounded off cut featuring modern less itchy material.

Sissies like me *should* wear girls shorts more and leave boys behind as part of our feminization.

Twenty Twenty Four little review

 

Twenty Twenty Four,eh? 

Does anyone know where it really went and indeed where as we go through the outro into Twenty Twenty Five where we'll end up?

This blog has being going, like ages sometimes going more down one set of interests and then the other  but one thing was we achieved a good number of posts, all original, made over a variety of different computers from the legend that was "Treacle, the slowest thing out there in the west to the death of the old Windows laptop to the adoption of using Chromebooks to do most things including blog posts on.

One arrival late last year was this Lenevo Thinkpad 280 which had better processors and more ram for dealing with social media and BIG photo galleries apart from online in browser games which has helped matters somewhat not least for having easier to read keys.

I tend to use Windows for certain things such as running photo programs and cross posting so a solution was needed as much as for more everyday stuff I'm quite happy to use a Chromebook

Some sad trends continued such as the declined usage of one "little girls" site, sad cos I struggle with few very long continuous threads rather than themed threads on a layer of sub forums and some Tumblrs dropping off as trying to find tumblrs that are around littles fashion, age regression and really SFW can be hard going. 

I do use Sissy Kiss that has its uses although it lacks some of more discussion  and Daily Diapers that has some but suffers from a few vicious purist Little Girl warriors that although there's a sissy sub forum try to drive us away while Sissy School tends to be more "Big" Gurl by topics.

I'm working through developing looks that I feel comfortable in a variety of settings as some which may be fine for others just don't it for me or are unpractical when it comes to either putting on, fastening  or being carried in the case across railway platforms before taking lifts.

Some of my older ankle socks were showing some signs of wear and tear so I did have for Christmas three of these of cotton calf length socks that will work with most things apart from just below the knee with patterns for a more sophisticated look while being close to the appeal of pelerine school type socks.

Music has always played a part in my life which why it is on here and 2024 did see a few more records being added, some from the The Original Source series of Classical re-issues cut from the original four and eight track tapes directly rather than copies and selected reissues from people like Analogue Productions.

I did get a good number of the mono reissues of the Beatles American albums from 1964 and some books about them for Xmas.

The Now Yearbook series kept going although generally on record I haven't bothered with the post 1982 issues but we did continue with the 1970's issues with 1977 and I expect as we get into the the New Year there will be issues from 1970-72 and 1975-76 which I will be buying.

Part of is tactile and nostalgia based, handling and lowering the stylus brings back the memories of playing the compilations of the day the is the music itself which I love listening to.

We did get away rather more than the previous year sometimes for a weekend, other times for a good few days for clean non kink connected fun just being your younger self, playing games, going out places and given we look after our food connected needs, helping out.

Plans are afoot to go away for the first quarter of the year and tentative ideas are being mooted for weekends too which should be fun.

Comics play a part too from the Beano to modern offerings such the Phoenix with more modern characters as do colouring books when the hands are up to it, getting absorbed in something relaxing either at home or away.

Taking things a bit further

 While the week has been challenging not least for having some responsibilities to fulfill and also having some difficulties with the impact of the last weeks exceptionally hot weather with really took the stuffing out of me I did feel I was getting somewhere in this battle to be me.

The life you lead is dictated by what you do and the feel of bra straps drawn tightly makes a gurl, a gurl in just the same way that for girls from around eleven you begin to get accustomed to co-ordinating it with your tops and fastening it tightly

Inevitably even in those early budding days, your look alters being more recognizably feminine which is why sissikins needs to wear  pink bra with her pink satin panties from now on.

While time has been limited I have got myself established at two social blogging sites restoring a sissy inspirational tumblr where the original one got axed in copyright strike in late January 2016 although you do have to be mindful of what you post since the late 2018 rule changes and redirected another more "adult site" to cover a bit more of what cannot be posted at Tumblr. 

Handing it all back

 

I found over time I just lost any vestige of being an adult increasingly taking a younger role in adult company feeling comfortable with that and that in strange way publicly tearing up my adult status meant I forged a new and lower status.

Sissikins got to wear sheer pink panties with a pretty bow on the to push hur sissification even more forward.

The status of adulthood was never a thing I wanted simply because I hadn't the means of using it to make a life I felt happy with nor did I 'get' what it was about because all I wanted was the life of a sissy gurl.

I saw my reflection in the window the other day, a person with a patterned bobble hat, blue short coat, grey skirt with grey bowed socks walking down the road.

I saw ME in the reflection.

By losing all airs of adulthood I gained what I wanted: The Status of a Little

It is all I am.

The modern sissy 2

We last looked at this topic in August given the distance and for that matter the amount of discourse over the last eighteen years at last we've been going and for that matter the highs and lows emotionally I have felt since I first realized I didn't fit in  and wasn't transexual.

I was something else - Sissy - but every other person had there ideas on what made you it and even a very narrow road map to just coming out and being it because they missed off something essential, your own sense of self.

A good question to sit and ask yourself is just what does that dolly mean to you?

It might just be a character in your childhood imaginary play or perhaps the child-like play you wish to return to where they world won't judge you harshly for being able to play with dollies this time.

On the other hand do you just look at that and say "That's just how I wish to be", that is the you in your minds eye maybe wearing something similar yourself at say a dolly tea party?

If you do then some elements of being a "Little Girl" and the associated appearance really do belong in your life as much as a scaredy-cat afraid of stepping out of your comfort zone may try to kick in.

This is described as a "Sissy Dress" and indeed a dress worn by a sissy could be described as being a "sissy dress" but it has more in common with Little Girl dresses with just a bit of frilly lace rather than the satin petticoat festooned sort.

It's purposely a little short in length as little girl dresses are want to be but you could get a mini slip underneath to keep your pretty panties from showing if needed and have either frilly socks or tights  to it.

The fit ordering from chest size and allowing for the elasticated waist proved to be spot on with enough stretch to take a well stuffed bra if that's you.

I got it from Dee's Boutique and it's simple, unfussy, but effective and a a sensible starting point to little sissy dressing beyond pinafore dresses and school type attire in settings where every one is in you (and others) just being little sissies.

You wouldn't visit a stately home or historic building ordinarily like that but just like sissikins here it's time to just let it out in the right settings.

Why shouldn't I be a dolly too?

The Modern Sissy

The genius of this goes back to last week where we were away at a Littles meet where we'd only taken skirts with matching socks and tights and the BabyDoll nightdress and french knickers working through the last year and a bit of getting together a look for me that worked.

We've explored over the decades various ideas and takes around what being a Sissy Gurl is, how being "Little" fits into that and different presentations from the classic more adult sissy gurl to the more child-like little one and really the latter is the one that needs the attention.

You can just go with bigger versions of what actual girls wear which works fairly well around the Schoolgirl/gurl look but that's never all she is, she goes and hosts parties and visits places like the entertainment complex with bowling rings and a cinema.

What would the legally adult gurl would want to wear as school socks while "regulation" were never cool enough to wear at a party and where do we start getting a more sophisticated look?

Tights are an option, can be patterned but do get uncomfortable and aren't always the easiest of things to put on while stockings are basically inappropriate for children and for some of us difficult to put on and attach suspenders (garter straps).

For those of us who might like the elegance and sophistication of skin smoothing tights without the struggle to get them in your feet and the right the way up, socks with an more group up wide lace band going just over the knee would work well.

A sophisticated more grown up look for a gurl at a social occasion, easy to put on, hygienic and going well with smarter dresses and skirts. 

There are other things like for those more on classic Little Gurl princess with hur plushie that need not involve ankle socks or school pereline socks.

A rose woven pattern  with an elastic top helps to take that look and add a bit of elegance and sophistication to it.

These are what I really do like though.

I've always loved the look of stocking tops although I found tights easier (but not easy with my damaged hands) and the appeal of lace but these socks are really made for Cosplay wearing with Lolita dresses both as a social thing and also at Anime and Manga conventions role playing characters.

Now there are two styles these heart ones and some rose ones and both come in packs of two, one white which works well with dark dresses and skirts and the black that you'd use typically with white.

For me they replace stockings which is something on the more adult side mistresses had found worked well on me, making the most of my legs without both some of fetish connections that stockings today had rather than until the late 1960's women who were "old enough" just wore them and the issues of fastening (and getting them on neatly).

They work with all sorts of skirts and dresses in satin, wool and mixed fibres from the more modest satin dresses aimed for sissies to mid and mini skirts in polyester  or even leather

They can easily fit within a glamour sissy look

The week saw me have with the one exception of white gym knickers for underneath a skort I wore for sports as I feel gurls like me really are better wearing feminine sports gear wearing just satin relatively plain knickers.

I found in one sense having to wear them really made me feel so much more a gurl for having soft materials, lace trimming and pretty bows.

I think in the context we are talking about here rather than what you might wear re-enacting being a school girl in the past, wearing fairly traditional uniform including the "regulation" school socks and knickers, the adult but little gurl having a social life should wear such knickers as a matter of course as they are pretty and as that gurl, you want to be pretty.

Thus going forward Tammy, who as we all know is definitely a Sissy Gurl will now be wearing such panties coupled with socks such as those shown above when she is not "at school" Tm from now on.

This is a look that is "Sissy" but is Little occupying the sweet spot that takes in Little Girl princess and adds the glamour of satins, lace without getting into anything "adult" but clearly recognizable to gurls.

Tammy is a pretty Little Sissy Gurl and benefits from presenting in a manner that suits Little Sissies.

Good Gurl!