Going forward

The last few days frankly haven't been great ones with me, not least with a three day mega migraine period that really scrambled my brain but sometimes it is worth asking a few basic questions of yourself as this sissy.

You can do all of this in a number of ways and the only golden rules are wearing lingerie that is feminine all the time as after all females have and use so many different modes of dressing depending on what they are really trying to achieve.

I've always had two sides, one a work in progress which is a more full on grown up sissy side that has sexual elements  and another separate side which is really regressing back into various points in my childhood but being dressed and doing the sorts of things more like a girl would do rather than what we were coerced into.

Part of this age regression is a coping mechanism being literally the child-like with vulnerabilities me working within what I can actually cope with rather than pushing so hard at appearing to act more grown up and sophisticated I am left to cope with what I can't with no support and guidance and part is coping with how the nervous breakdown affected me.  

I am wearing more child-like attire privately such as school uniform as it helps to lift me more into that headspace and less likely to be 'read' as a fully grown up sissy and in that regressed role nothing like that ever happens.

We have tidied this blog up as it was rather messy and a spanking might well of been justified for leaving it like so but the main emphasis remains on that little sissy side  here and rather more on my interests 

I am and remain a little sissy gurl who likes to wear skirts and dresses and has a dominant feminine side not transgendered but also sharing the odd mainly masculine trait, happy to be so but when the adult sissy wishes to come out then she can.

The mature Tammy is real.

This life precedes the blog which itself has been going for large chunk of time I really began to explore more how being a Sissy really is from the inside for me, Tammy in all its various elements because we are more than sum of all our parts as much as we are not just one.

Because one may be the dominant form at that moment and for me it is more the Little Sissy Gurl does not mean I  don't have a more adolescent or even young adult set set of needs that, in an appropriate setting will come out.

We have always seen ourselves as been feminine so in time worked on our presentations, expanded our range of interests as we rejected the stereotypes we were pushed into when people thought we were boys but in reality were were more like girls but different.

We found girls who were interested in what made us different , who saw how we hated how we were so spent time working on our appearances, applying perfume and make up enjoying it, nay just letting them fem us up.

In the beginning it was more about getting that mismatch between how society saw us, how in heads we saw ourselves and how we acted socially bright more into line so we felt good about ourselves so we had a look and knew how to act as that gurl in girl spaces.

We increasingly took our clues from girls as we grew up or at least as much as some of us could as they grew up from playing with our dollies to exploring dressing ourselves up but as you get to that stage growing up there's a component of you that comes out that connects with all of that.

Tammy was and is no different as indeed are most girls who move into womanhood.

At first it seems so repulsive, that being that playful little gurl playing with hur dollies, colouring, hugging hur teddy enjoying physical games has now moved into having sexual desires that you feel the need to satisfy.

You dress sexually, you wear make up to attract real boys and men have sex with you because you want what you never could give a girl but as a sissy gurl your gender was ALWAYS connected to your sexuality as it would emerge.

Like most girls, sissy gurl you also wanted to let him take you panties down and take their advances.

You tried to deny it, even stopped for periods being that gurl but you really couldn't be anything else.

Thing is you have choices about when and on any one day if you want to act on those sexual desires so as more common I'm being more my non sexual little self I can enjoy that without feeling unclean or people taking advantage of being that way.

When I don't or my head is more in adult mode I can be as sexually playful as I feel, craving sexual relief just like all the other "sissy sluts". Miss D was correct to identify that two years ago.

If you're in a relationship and that includes more adult thoughts, there is nothing wrong or shameful in dreaming about sex and what you can offer to meet your own needs.

After all many a woman balances being a worker, a housekeeper, a mother with keeping her man happy enjoying great sex.

As a gurl, so can Tammy and like Girls too on hur terms

Tammy is a Sissy Slut and there's nothing wrong with it.

Unwrapping

 A second month into this relationship with my Mistress and we are really going for it or more accurately sissy is being strongly encouraged to explore things well outside of my experience.

Assignments are being set, sissy has to complete and provide full evidence she has completed it and then gets constructive criticism for and may be set a supplement assignment 

The top is one i've had for a while and the skirt was one i got the other week raising the hemline to just thirteen inches which somehow feels appropriate just covering up the panties and the neon stockings i had on (the stocking tops are just covered by the lower frill) and making the most of my legs. What says Miss D? Heels were worn i can reassure everyone but as i run out of focal length in this box room, i thought it best to get the picture without any distortion.

Response:

Miss D  9 February 2010 at 14:48

Here's what you do for your next pose sissygurl belinda - especially for your short - short slut skirt. Find a chair, sit in it, cross your legs - and let your skirt ride up over your thighs and expose your stocking tops and give us a little peek at your panties. You need to sit at a slight angle to the camera - not straight on.

And another good thing for you to try is to properly stuff your bra - try different sizes of breasts to help you decide which size is just right for you and then, add a little more...

Don't be afraid to take several shots from slightly different angles.. All it takes is a little patience and you'll end up with quite a hot picture that screams "slut!"...

I do like the outfit - it suits sissygurl belinda. I think you have found the proper you. How does that make you feel sissygurl belinda - that you might be best suited to being a shameless slut?

Miss D