What it is

 

What this whole thing, this whole blog was about really is finding the real you from all the attempts at gender, age and other social conformities I and countless others were and have been subjected to from the moment we emerged from the womb.

For some it is relatively simple - they just were boys or girls who became men and women within the mainstream of what socially at least it meant.

With me it was more complex liking my physical boyish body but loving to wear clothes associated with girls and even to share in their interests when that of boys around me did not because of being so very feminine.

It takes extra layers on for not wanting nor feeling like a man but just as much not being a woman either because I never felt an adult or even really an older child most of the time being pretty much a child for life mentally at least.

The gain of the last few years has been being that sissy gurl adult but child in his dress or short trousers playing with his dollies, reading comics, letting the grown up world go by.