Real values

 

The world of being a little especially for feminine sissy gurls such as myself is all the more better for having influences that are very much for children in them because they align to our inner selves even if like with me it's different from the herd.

The values of love, caring, friendship and meaningful relationships that transcend temporary things such as wanting to share a toy or play with someone it encourages help move us on to be the very best gurl we can. 

Beethoven and his opera

We last touched this series in May so we're probably overdue an entry here.

Proms season returned late July after last years were very much affected by Covid-19 to the point of not just performers socially distancing but even with no actual audience present which wasn't really the coming together to enjoy the music we so love.

Thursday August 19th saw a performance of many operatic arias and overtures some of which I was familiar with such as Bizet's Carmen and others less so.

One I have more recently getting familiar with is Beethoven's Fidelio which compositionally is flawed - a chunk of spoken dialogue that's dry being one  but has some great 'songs'.

Just in time I bought this recent recording that plays in regular stereo cd and in stereo or multichannel super audio cd for better sound which was a lot better engineered than a performace I tried first that helped appreciate it.

Summertime thoughts

Last month was memorable for being the first time since February 2020 I was able to be away with friends for a few days just being the Little I am sometimes in short trousers which given it was a wet and stormy day we went to the sea was a better idea  and sometimes in my grey school skirt.

That duality was always a part of me, never Grown Up and having no wish to change sex, just being a little different and fluid when it comes to gender roles and presentation.

Later on this month D C Thompson publish this years Annuals, well when I was originally young they were called books for the Beano and Dandy publications we grew up on and to which remain in our child-like christmas stockings.

I am fairly sure arrangements will be made for them to be in mine in a few months time but here's one from 1958, before I first entered the world but still fairly recognizable because it wasn't until 1974 that Biffo the Bear was replaced from the front cover on the weekly comic to that of Dennis the Menace and that pecking order shows on the annuals when they don't go for a group cover.

Dennis and Minnie The Minx's, my heroine of that comic plot to cause Biffo to mess up his juggling was rumbled and are posed about to be punished. 

Being spanked on your shorts or skirt is so relatable!

Joining the club

 

Togetherness is being taken on an adventure in life by your best friend apprehensive even fearful as you learn to let it all out away from the ever critical eyes of Mums and Girls, bonding for life, stepping out as nothing less than that little sissy gurl with the mixture of what is seen as both masculine and feminine.

You now feel proud of what you really are for stepping out and ditching alternative explanations, labels and communities and just accepting your own sense of gender variance, you know deep down you're not a girl although you are uber feminine and you don't feel masculine even though you're happy to play with the boys in somethings.

I was not ill or deluded for having the feelings I have but it was more that society took issue with its social construct of what to be physically be male is and how that didn't apply to me and countless other by traditional standards to be gender variant.

That invalidated me and only lead to others to feel the only way I could be me was to be transsexual but given my feelings about not really into wanting to be an adult female and that I was effeminate by female standards I was never going to be socially female by gender.

In the end I'm just someone born with a male body for sure but dripping with little sissy gurl ways who is happy to be one of the Gurls, the playmate of real girls enjoying that life.

I was was never going to be a boy and could never play a girl 24/7 as she wasn't in me.

Tammy was always a Little Sissy Gurl.