Last weekend something happened to me that I never expected.
Well I was staying with a friend and when we got talking I mentioned about this and how I found it so helpful and it happened this person does spank other people who are happy with it.
I asked them if they’d be prepared to discipline spank me when they felt I was in need of it as one of my problems is trying to deal with me by rapid scolding with lots of words just doesn’t work for me and I sometimes I really get things wrong when I’m with them.
Much to my surprise they agreed to and knowing me in my little side seldom in anything other than my school uniform for a good period of time, I trust them. Well, having had breakfast something happened or rather it didn’t as one of things is I’m meant to help out when I’m with them and I didn’t get started helping with washing up
After making a start on helping with a stern prompt, I was called back by them who was sat on an open armed chair, standing to the side of them as I was to put my arms around them at which point I was told to bend over their knee as they showed me the wooden paddle.
Having been helped in position, I feel the hand on my back as my dress is lifted,and their hands gently warming up my bottom as I’m laying there unable to do anything as my knickers are adjusted to expose my now bared bottom.
Without warning I feel the first stroke land, I scream, squirm and sob as with every stroke I feel the force of the paddle coming down. I do the spanky dance without realizing it, legs dancing off the floor but I am reduced to the powerlessness of a child having to take his spanking and the ever hotter feel of my bottom burning as it turns a deep shade of red but it never stops until she’s done with me.
Eventually and equally without prior notice it stops and I am told to stand up where with no thought, I just put my arms around them thanking them for spanking me and agreeing my bottom needed it while I feel at that moment just like a real child punished by an aunt.
A new bond is formed between ‘child’ and grown up friend as immediately afterward we just get back to everything cos I’ve been forgiven, this is the past but I know it’ll happen again if I mess up.
Everything just felt natural, unforced coming into place and really this was one of the best experiences when it comes to disciplining me in a way that is effective without confusing me.
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It's also very obvious the thing that has to change their behaviour now more than ever before is me as reflecting on mentoring and the role of spanking within it. I also know what a good paddling feels like!!!
I suppose the first thing I would say is not being aware how many swats I was going to get was different, finding myself focused exclusively on the lesson my bottom was being taught, with no possibility of gritting through it. Emotionally, I found myself letting out ows freely, acknowledging my feelings where in most other types of discipline I shut them down which one reason spanking works well with me. I process it emotionally so much better.
Another thing that came from this was it has been decided I shall be caned which was never a part originally of this in extreme cases for extra deterrence which wasn't a million miles removed from what I had in upper juniors and high school.
Submitting my younger self to the authority of a grown up felt very comfortable, even in a way protected although from now on I’m to be spanked very much when they feel I require it without exception.
Sometimes people might say “aren’t you embarrassed by it”? My honest answer to that would be no because in most sorts of relationships there are common understandings if not rules about how things are done and things happen to those in them if they are not respected.
Often there are consequences such as not being invited to things again, being pushed out of a group, the only real difference here is it’s pretty much a child like consequence to which the offence that caused it is forgiven afterward.
I’d rather take a spanking and in time change my behaviour than be just cast out and too many folk cast me out in the past rather than teach me the rules in the first place.
Equally it doesn’t matter to me a sizable chunk of my friends know I’m held to account and that I am spanked because it’s like during your childhood -it’s a common playground currency – and they accept it’s better to learn from it, deal with situations better and be a bit more mature. With me we know it’s impossible to do fully adult for medical reasons but it’s not quite rocket science to help me act more like a responsible child instead is it?
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