Going beyond

Not quite autumn, but that time of year where people prepare to return to school or university and I tended to dread it, not the work so much as just having to step back into the gender policed world where the slightest deviation and you're in for a hard time.

It was around then I had these fantasies of being away somewhere where I could be more me and even be supported for exploring more of that.

It could of course end up different but then what would happen if say you wanted to work or return to education.

Would they accept you? 

The other side is what I tend to call the more grown up side, teh bit that's nearer how your sister or cousin was at 16 or 17 going out to a club or on a date rather than how she looked at school.

You know, becoming more like a woman.

What I would of given for the chance to explore more of that in my late teens rather than being stuffed into silly business suits trying to be a "gentleman" that I don't feel at all.

I'm more middle grid to tell you the truth, sexy but classy not likely to be misunderstood but clearly a adult sissy in control of hur life.