Summer and the adult little gurl

It's difficult sometimes when you do seem to lack role models as a adult little gurl and you may well of had little or no time as a "girl" to go by.

 The world of imaginary play is one that I do enter which might be playing dolly or stuffy tea parties or other sorts of adventures.

Another is reading which is why their are posts about books on this blog.

I honestly feel coming from this as a sissy with an adult little gurl side wearing skirts and tops more suited to actual girls really is more what it is we are looking for and does help mentally to make us look more like a feminine child which when we were actual children is what we so long for whatever we got from the boyhood that was pushed on us.

Let summer be a season of soft, pleated and frilled attire.

The move away from the desk top begins

This week I got the laptop that I'd been saving up a few months for as again most of you know my desktop computer is really quiet old and was struggling not so much with self contained programs but with running media rich websites through browsers, lacking short term RAM memory and a hard drive smaller than many peoples USB flashdrives! 

It also  - hurrah! - has built in WiFi connection so I can use it anywhere.

My first move was to remove Compaq's boring grown up business background with one of boys playing on  it because this machine belongs to a little boy closely followed by setting up a few nicely set out Favourites with my sites minus some of the rubbish the old computer had acquired over the years with dead or paused sites.

I so hate having to sit in one tiny room to post away especially on warm days.

For the more computer minded it has 4GBs of RAM meaning when the antivirus is running, it doesn't stumble on the programs running and a big 500GB hard drive for music and photos.

Because it uses Windows 7 Home Edition for Europe it has a browser ballot so I elected to return to my old favourite Firefox as I find it easier to customize plus has some very good extensions and so for the curse of Adobe's lousy buggy Flash plugin hasn't stricken it which I'd rather do without ideally but a number of gaming and video streaming sites  do require it.

I bought a new multi machine license for the cd to digital music ripping program dbPoweramp I use because it was nearly 4 years old (you can convert to practically any know file type by adding the relevant plug in) and the new program gets cover art which is ideal for players that have colour screens as you copy it. 

Actually the multi upgrade license was cheaper than buying the program outright for one!

 The only thing I need to install is my all new image editing program from Serif Photoplus X5.

While I'm at it, I just changed my google account email for this site as I realized - my brain could be better - it was linked to an ISP that I'll soon be free from and in the new blogger interface this is much easier than it used to be.

David Bowie: Ziggy Stardust

A few weeks and forty odd years ago an album was issued that became in many respects bigger than the artists own profile dominating the popular music scene for 1972/3.

It's an album almost  every student of any generation feels they have to heard never mind own regardless of what format may be prevalent at the time and it was a major musical and social influence either on me at that time.

Ziggy Stardust is a character - a singer in a rock band - and through him we see his raise to fame and tellingly his burn out that mirrors all too sadly what actually happens in real life. 

Everybody wants a piece of his pie from the management team, record label  even ultimately, the fans themselves and the artist struggles to "Hang on to yourself" to quote the title of one of the songs featured.

If the Monkees were a made for TV fabrication of a rock group based upon the Beatles, here was in many ways a more credible fabrication for the modern era -  a complete fabrication from individuals persona onward.

Any person going down down Heddon Street, London would see the buildings in the cover shot although the trash can and K West sign are long gone.

The first single off the album was Starman and I recall the first time I heard that on the radio well being aware from the billboards and older friends of this Bowie character. 

What got to me about was -and still is - is the sense of detachment, alienation even of the lead character in the lyrics and the unamerican style of singing.

I first had the album on RCA 8 track tape although my brother had the lp and have been through cassette and cd versions.

This album has been re-issued numerous times and unfortunately like most of David Bowie's back catalogue their is no such thing as a really good cd version although on the advice of a friend of mine, I got the original RCA cds from the mid 1980's which were more listenable than either the thin sounding EMI (US: Ryko) titles from 1990/91 with bonus tracks or Peter Mew's bloated and highly compressed versions from 1999 on EMI (US: Virgin).

In 1990 a boxed edition was issued by EMI with a  72 page booklet with the regular cd
recognizing it's iconic status and this June  two new editions came out.

The cd version is just a straight re-issue of the 11 track album in a card digpack cover which I can't say I really like as packaging preferring Mini Lp style i we're having paper based.

While there is a little compression on it compared to the 1984 RCA, the tonality is spot on and let's be honest here the analogue to digital conversion technology has come an awful lot in 28 years (I can hear the convertors' sound on many older cds) so for the first time ever there is a pretty acceptable in print cd even though I won't be tossing out the RCA.

Secondly and even better news is that there was a new lp lovingly mastered by Ray Staff who used to work at Porky's mastering that many of us feel surpasses the original UK orange RCA lp when it comes to sound quality and dead quiet surfaces. 

It comes with a audio dvd that will play on a computer or Blue-ray player capable of 96khz/24Bit resolution (most do) offering  both stereo and 5.1 surround sound mixes with bonus tracks which will sound smoother than the regular cd.

Recommended.

The Uniform Debate

 

To me this whole what uniform should you wear debate is really stupid cos in reality there are two uniforms in the traditional system and all people like need to be able to do is to make a consistent choice so our peers know what to expect.

The modern girls uniform has enough variation within it taking in girls cut trousers as well as skirts and shorts that for us given we just don't like trousers then the only need select between shorts which for biological form reasons need to be boys or skirts.

I can do either without any dysphoria as for us we're not transsexual and is more about our freedom to express our femininity as sissy gurls which is gender expression although I feel it is better to spend our time "out" skirted not least in school for a term to enable your form to adjust from "You what" to just "so what" and accepting you as the feminine gurl you are.

Thoughts on the Queens Diamond Jubilee

As I usually say there's a purpose however  hard to spot at the start behind my use of images as strangely enough I do think carefully about which to select.

As I'd hope all of us in the Commonwealth would know, we're marking the Diamond Jubilee of Her Majesty's reign, an uninterrupted 60 years of public service to us, her subjects these last four days.

These things to me are a link not just the chronological past of my life but also to my sense of being a little as I was brought up with in this system, following all the tours of the Queen, making scrapbooks up, watching the various Royal weddings, waving our nations flag and even being introduced to various royals myself from an early age. 

It's something I'm very comfortable with and as you can see in this picture, these children in the UK are too having waited literally hours to see the Queen. 

If you've ever had the pleasure to talk with her one thing you'll know is she takes great interest in where she goes as for that matter do other members of the royal family. 

I spent must of been ten minutes talking to one Princess about the life cycle of snails in my early teens! 

As Paul McCartney remarked yesterday, they're good people at heart AND do have a sense of humour.

So it's no surprise I've been glued to the tv, making a small digital scrape album of anniversary images I like and enjoying some colouring

One of the memorable events of the Diamond Jubilee was the Thames pageant on Sunday 9th which, notwithstanding the awful weather, continues pretty much to plan bar the air flypast and here's one image I like from it for anyone that missed the tv and newspaper coverage.

I quite like boats having sailed in my youth and this was a great colourful spectacular two years in the planning showing the man powered boats making their way down the Thames.