That time of year

As you read this it will be the August bank holiday which tends to mark the return of school over here and as it happens also is being marked by family fun days this weekend in churches and public houses where I live.

 Not unsurprisingly in the local newspapers and some national media too we are seeing the various promotions for such things around uniforms, where in the UK the majority of schools have one, stationery and equipment.

This is a good example of the sort of advertising we have, here for the Matalan discount store with photogenic models and needless to say the cardigans, socks setc are all available from the store too.

Many of us know our sock draws intimately when I noticed a few of mine were rather bobbled and even had worn bits around the heels and that  so I needed to replace several pairs.

Being taken out to the local uniform shop in the last ten day or so of August is a ritual many of us remember well, being told we'll 'grow into' our clothes as you feel a bit like a scarecrow with everything being a bit big and baggy on you.

This lovely Panda Plush pencil case is a good example of the variety a regular stationery store such as W H Smiths over here stocks and yes things like Football one exist for boys too

 A decent geometry set helps for math and science and this is an example from W H Smith although you'd need to add a compass a 2hb pencil and rubber to it plus some decent colouring pencils and ballpoint/fountain pen with ink.

Personally I'm with fountain pens as a good broad nib often improves the flow of the least good handwriting which even if this an age when digital often prevails, still is worth cultivating.

Restful notes

 

I was away earlier in the month with friends for a few day.

With some concerns, I did pack the 'big camera' and a couple of Zoom lenses with me carefully sandwiched between the clothes because one thing that crosses both sides of me is photography in a more high school plus level and 'picture taking' on the other and a camera that affords more control and range within the focal lengths allows for more creative pictures apart from higher optical quality.

That meant I was able to take pictures like this with the advantages of image stabilization where I normally struggle with 'long lenses' and even against the light that I feel show the kind of tranquil feeling I had while out exploring on foot.

Deliberately using a longer focal length and a wider aperture just softens the background sufficient while leaving enough information for you to take in.

Here, we saw an influx of various Butterflies, such as about seven on one bunch of lilacs locally when I was out walking earlier on in the week and it has kept up like that to the point I counted a good number only last night in our front garden.

The combination of warm and rain has also lead to the blackberry bushes here growing to the point they are intruding on the pavements, well covered in fruit.

How it is

 For me even pretending to be a grown up is just utterly futile cos it ain't even in me so it's best to just go and play having fun just like I did the first time I was this old.

Another side effect of it was you couldn't get away from the consequences of your actions having a traditional spanking from grown ups but you felt more comfortable knowing so.

Blow conventions: I'm still a kid.

On gender fluidity

Melodie was a person who I followed at Experience Project but left shortly before it closed and recently at one site she posted this:

I also support the allowance and teaching of gender fluidity.  like as girls are taught it is okay for them to wear  boys articles of clothing the same should be for boys to wear articles of girls clothing.  Clothing is only used to hide our nakedness, nothing else..

Boys should be able to wear skirts and dresses as freely as girls can wear boys denim pants and flannel shirts..  Moms can start off slowly with skirts or skorts to get their sons accustomed to them then later introduce them to dresses.  Boys and men too used to wear dresses (TUNICS) and skirts, look at the paintings from the early greeks and romans.

BY today's standards a tunic or dress would be  appropriate.  I agree that boys would need to be taught how to wear them the same as girls so as not to expose themselves.  My mom taught me how to wear dresses so I would not expose my panties to others, to keep my knees together and so forth.  If there are any mothers and fathers here on this forum think about exposing your sons to gender fluidity.  It will bring about a more equal society.

Gender fluidity is a thing I know because it is what I have and do believe a fair few other boys have too and that can run into gender variant by present standards presentation and it is time we were able to just be us.

The Feminine Boy thing that I identify with is not about "being a girl", transitionally socially of not medically as a female nor is about being a male submissive with tropes around being "made to be a girl" which is kink based

It is simply about being who you are as physically a boy but whose gender expression, identity and presentation is where ever that personally takes you.

With me it is clear there is a lot of little sissy gurl in my gender based identity and it's stupid to think of denying it for a "right on" take or a quiet life.

It's just me.

Thoughts on being away Summer 2019

Well, we're back after last weeks adventures and this week I'm writing my reflections of that.

As you'll know I've had a good number of things on my mind for most of the year so far in which have made my conditions somewhat worse than usual so going away as the processes around those things resolve themselves was really more about resetting myself.

One good thing about where we were was that I could just go off into a massive garden to think and immerse myself in watching and listen to the birds, enjoying the plants with many fascinating insects, just getting into that frame of mind.

Sometimes I find the preoccupation with news, reports from various groups on topics just overwhelms me to the point I sense my heart sinking every time I hear the letterbox open so just being totally away from it helped.

The other was just playing and colouring in where I made up the colour scheme rather than slavishly following the original ones that help lift my mind toward both a sense of imagination and also the possible rather than being stuck in a cycle of negativity.

I also did go for walks which lead to me interacting with strangers, exploring the area and just feeling more at ease with myself and the wider world.

Upon my return I felt fresher and a beige envelope showed my ESA money  for not being able to work was going to continue which draws a line under much of what had taken its toll on me.