From Up On Poppy Hill

Today I talk about a dvd that was issued on September 23rd in the UK.

Called From Up On Poppy Hill, this anime stage play by Hayao Miyazaki and lovingly directed by his son, Goro, is a coming of age romance set in Yokohama, Japan in 1963, just 18 years after the end of World War Two and the establishment of modern day Japan.

Set in the ramshackle club house of their high school , it charts the romance of Umi and Shun as they join forces to save it from demolition for a new sports facility for the (then) upcoming 1964 Tokyo Olympics. 

The musical score is jazz based and features Sukiyaki the World conquering  1963 Japanese song that had a cover version by Kenny Ball's trad jazz  band in the UK.

The animation as is usually the case from this studio, Studio Ghilbi, is unapologetically old school cell drawn and all the better for it allowing you to concentrate on the story.
Strongly recommended. 

Revisiting and getting younger

We did make a bit of a reference to whole topic of games attire as some peoples idea of gender neutrality basically amounts to taking masculine stuff and adding "for girls too" which does nothing for us.

Jane Girls like me all feel better wearing traditional  wrap around games skirts loving the air and freedom of movement a skirt gives you.

I've gotten a new Green pleated school skirt and a matching netball skirt with the pleats at the side and rear plus matching gym knickers.

Earlier this month I was away visiting a favourite seaside resort Llandudno in North Wales where apart from just relaxing I found myself very much in the mindset of that young gurl interacting with all around hur.

I decided to go over to the Punch And Judy show that I loved as a ten year old and found myself being pulled back in with the children.

"Judy!' screamed all the children and me as Mr Punch pictured on the left of the puppet show goes to attack her baby as she lives it to get Mr Punch's dinner that comprised of Sausages. Mr Punch gets his just deserts later on in the performance for assaulting Judy and PC Plod. It's enough to say he won't repeat the offence again.

We all loved the performance of this traditional and decisively non politically correct seaside children's entertainment.

It's amazing just how much of a child I really am.

Age Fluidity

 

 The subject of ones age as a little came up at one site where it appeared the notion people having just single fixed age as a little appears to be doing the rounds.

Let me say from the outset, there is nothing at all wrong with having just a single little age say 10 years if this is the age you feel when you are in a little (or Middle) Headspace but this is by no means the only situation. 

For a good number of us, we do vary a little having a 'Upper age limit' which is as old as we can feel and a lower point we may regress further back to in certain situations, getting a little 'silly' at times. This is when you think about it, is little different to that of actual children who can go back a few years especially at periods of great stress. 

I would like anyone who does find their 'age' is fluid to understand this is quite normal and certainly doesn't make you less of a little.

Although I hover around the 10 to 12 bit most of the time I go go back to around 8 or 9 or even younger sometimes and my littlest little would really like to be dressed rather like this.

Putting me in younger girls skirt uniform or print dress makes more sense when we're clearly at our youngest.

A feminine schoolgurl.

Crossed wires and a gradual realization

Although we saw on the last entry that physically I was showing signs of maturing developing a personal sense of sexuality, it was also the case in good many other ways I hadn't and indeed a childhood accident at fourteen caused significant brain damage had pretty much locked me in at the upper juniors.

After passing some examinations I left school which was where a number of these issues started to take their toll not fitting in to systems that either worked with a disabilities but having regular development for Employment nor seeming on the surface to have the needs of someone less bright to be considered for specialist prevision such as Day Centres where activities such as arts and crafts and days out would be arranged.

Between the sheets and between the gaps I started to get to what we'd call today Age Regression although in an age where the modern internet hadn't yet been born and much confusion between infantilism and age regression existed even amongst professionals who deal with human behaviour and that was more a sissy gurl form.

As time went by, the modern internet emerged that was a breakthough where bulletin boards and websites devoted to being more like a child or dressing more like one formed.

Many though did not seem to cater to my needs as not being a pure crossdresser or a transexual  and those sissy sites I saw were more into the sissification trope of a boy dressed in a uber frilly satin form seemingly enjoying being humilated in lots of ways including sexually which for me wasn't what it was about as much as I am very much a sissy gurl.

It was not that my feminine side had gone to sleep not wishing to act on them or still wear a dress or skirt, I just didn't care for such extreme effeminate behaviour and sexualized lifestyle.

Sometimes you might of found a splinter group that appeared to bypass this mixing of past childhood with sexualization and I started to spend more time with them but they were more crossdressing being obessesed with changing their little girl dresses every half hour or so and soon things would be different.

Put into dresses and gym knickers, being inspected it seemed kind of okay at first as a vehicle for just being little with others but I began to question it when it was that a distantly anti male attitude would show as those who were Tg would drone on about being the female they wanted to be, wanting to be uber frilly girlies  or wanting surgery while all I could think about was just how much I actually loved being a sissy gurl but a non sexual one.

Then there was the shift in the Tg movement from being mainly around transexuality with acceptance of transvestism - altering gender by presentation on just a temporary basis - to being more around alternate gender forms and removing women and women's spaces for these.

Much of that made no sense to me as if you did feel you were female then you'd become one and from that point on function in society as one integrating into womanhood so going around removing girls and womens own spaces and even the word girls and women really pushed me to consider if just going along for the ride with them was the thing.

I decided to experiment a bit with them taking elements of how I originally saw age regression and me just to see how there version and how that might be really sat with me.