The Family

Fathers are very important in children's lives although many seem more devoted to their offices than their own families sadly not being helped by high property prices and a the long hours culture that squeezes family time.

I believe girls are best encouraged into exploring their own sense of femininity, dressing in skirts and dresses more than is now the case, learning how to be mother and an an adult female as much as I am for equality in education and vocational opportunities for all rather than pushing being masculine on her.

It's important to that his space as a apprentice man is respected as he learns what it means to be male, to look after himself, be a father, and rise children.

What I'd of given to had been able to of worn a pink dress like the girl in this delightful illustration as a young sissy so openly you can't begin to imagine.

How people get it wrong

 I was not so well this week with a sore throat and muzzy pretty much migraine head so I had to rest a good deal.

Somebody suggested in view of my issues with Tumblr and more specifically with certain communities and age dysphoric me I might go to a "adult" tumblr equivalent but that ignores my need for under 13 child friendly content which a place full of adult kink would have and a picture like this would be banned there even though its perfectly safe cos they think that's putting kid in kink, which is wrong but actually  being Age Dysphoric certainly isn't a kink.

It's being literally a child in an adults body where we do look at other kids shown as they would in catalogue and official toy products or I may want to have pictures of childhood because shock horror I'm still going through and living as that.

I am Brownie in spirit, I play and read comics and dress more as a child up to and including wearing school type attire as one and not for kinky age play role playing so really that would be like sending a ten year old to a sex shop to play.

I think it only goes to show how muddled up some groan ups are about adult children like me.

A time for play?

 

Really this hasn't been the greatest of weeks but the crazy thing is when I'm like this I have the most vivid colour rich ideas running through my head.

What I need is really this, being taken away to just play with thinks like a dolls house, model farm, a sand tray or toy car circuit being dressed as the most juvenile girls attire, spoken down to and lead into playing  utterly free from any adult or even adolescence pretensions, losing myself utterly in the moment.

These were the things we played with as children both at home, school and at Child Guidance cos I had a lot of issues even then.

That's more what I need.

Some thoughts about me and this blog

 Somethings do not remain the same either because they move away from you or you yourself on this road start to move on in your understanding of how this life and the stuff around you talk about changes.

Thus this blog has had a few changes although thanks to changes in the years with bloggers Theme Designer some elements of the graphic design can't be altered without remove much of what does work and much of that reflects the way I see myself.

I dislike with a passion alphabet soups of acronyms and frequent changes of terminology but as I will explain Age Dysphoric and Age Dysphoria are better descriptors for what I am and what I feel and so a few bits of this blog have been rewritten to use those more accurate terms.

Being so-called "Normal" or at least masking it was heavily pushed by 'professionals', school and at the time embarrassed parents as they were into the Medical Model of Disability seeing me not just physically but developmentally in need of 'fixing' but my true nature always would surface apart from the vulnerabilities of having a child-like outlook in a hands off adult environment never quite seeing what was going on until it was too late.

It dawned on me that actually I could never be "normal" and it was more important to learn to accept me as I was, no longer feeling ashamed of being an 'eternal child' only dealing with anything adult that I could manage for myself, accepting my limits.

Rather than masking in effect that "eternal child" I accepted it working as best I could on being independent as that child of adult legal age and recognizing that societies problems with being who I am are theirs and certainly not mine.

I'd say embrace yourself as you are and work on being the best you you can be.

That just as much applies to my whole feminine boy side too, it's very much a part of me, it does show in how I present  and a few of my interests .

Sometimes you do encounter people who feel you need to be fixed, advocating programs to eliminate this whole side of you because this difference can cause issues but really that cannot change you and effectively are saying the only cure for other people to intimidating and bullying you  is you to become them.

I personally don't subscribe to the view that any one person is an expert in this life, never mind its leader so take a more allowing an individual to explore for themselves finding what works for how age dysphoria affects them rather than pushing an one size fits all agenda.

The eternal things

 To-day it is that still I'm sadly not to good here.

While I'm like this, I'm just thinking about what I feel is a part of all of this which isn't all how you might dress or what plushies and that you have but is really about something that soon goes missing.

It's really what I call authentic actions, acting on what it is that we are about such as the feelings and emotions we have for each other which might be to ask how someone is, being prepared to just listen and comfort them.

It is to share the fun you could have by doing things with others, co-operating such as playing games, to help less well off children through gifting things that you know they'd just love to have the opportunity to have.

It is to be of service to others in whatever way you can rather than waiting for others to do it, being prepared to make an offer first.

It's also holding on to a sense of innocence and being helpful not holding cynical and suspicious thoughts about others and their motives that you share space with.