Getting away kind off we hope

 

It's the crazy start to the week that after recovering ought to be fun for just being able to do stuff that we'd planned to last year but then with all that crazy zombie stuff around covered didn't happen and couldn't of been pencilled into until about two month ago.

But then we have the will he/she be available to drive your train and the the whole thing around part of the return involving a rail replacement bus and a biggish wait for the actual train coming in and that which really messes my head up to be honest.

It isn't that you don't wish to see people you haven't seen for well a long time, it's just every step is more unstable today than how it was in 2019.

I'd sooner have the rigidity of school where everything has a time and place that you just obey to all this.

Fingers crossed.

Meanwhile autumn is moving along so I was about in the last few weeks exploring as you do.

We are in throws of The Fall here which is one reason I have been about a fair bit of late determined to enjoy the last of warm low sun and that free spectacle in your local parks, playgrounds and woods which as damaged in parts as this area has been for being on fringe of a City Region we are fortunate to possess.

The glow of the forever changing colours of the leaves is vivid and yet a day or two later, you find them down on the grass in an expanse of golden brown carpet ever growing to the point eventually the trees will be denuded.

You might that is sad as it's usually followed by colder weather including snow but come the spring it all rejuvenates and that's what we look forward to.

Whatever happens in the awful adult news this week, just remember the good people have done and that the result of that good will triumph over all else.

Updates and restorations

Well not been a great week to be honest but were are doing something pretty important in a good way which is restoring a big chunk of the old Tumblr which was the first I made in July of 2013 when I was working through my sex identity issues.

It's important with such an enterprise to look at the likely reasons to as there is no point just bringing something back to have it go again and this time there will be more of an all girlie theme running through although technically I am an adult schoolgurl by being a adult little feminine gurl who is age dysphoric remaining ten years old as some associate that with sex and bdsm too.

As I have other dysphoric tumblrs there is no need to make it all me plus I have survived the madness of social media over reactions, just more a continuation of what would of been in the TSB had it not been terminated to keep it contemporary as the other issue is the last years posts never got a external back up so there are no posts from most of 2019 into 2020.

I also found that actually sitting crosslegged on the floor in a dress felt better putting me more in that littles mindset than setting in lounge chairs so we'll have to learn to sit on the floor more often!

This last eighteen or so months has had lots of challenges and "zombie crazyness" in it and just as in some ways thing were getting a bit better for being able to see each other, travel a bit more and generally have more of a life we seem stuck in a world wide problem getting things to where they need to be and facing a energy crisis.

While all of this is a bit of a worry and some it's better to focus on what we can do and that is meet each others needs as people rather than the things we can't change ourselves, reaching out to anyone who appears to be struggling.

If you can, try to get out a bit and stroll, enjoying your surroundings, noticing what is going on rather being glued to your smartphone or laptop and talk with people even if it might be a simple hello.

Play games or do things that leave you feeling happy, content and are fun, ideally with others where you can which for those of us who are Smol ought to be easy but sometimes isn't and let your little person out.

Our wellbeing matters.

When it comes to updates we are making good progress on them although it has been an uphill struggle with things in the wrong order and the like on this blog.

Investment

Covid or not, it is time to make those first footways along the path I have joined  and we start getting our Brownies badge.

That can be fastened to our tunic.

We got the pack we need to work through, learning about the history of Brownies, the role of the imps, the place the Toadstool plays in meeting and our promise which is a solemn thing we don't just learn parrot fashion but learn in our understanding of what it means in our everyday lives.

This is the modern version, inclusive of other faiths directly although back when I was officially younger we talked more of God.

Those values are really what I need and in time I would be able to show my abilities by gaining badges.

Actually being little together

 

As I lie here typing this out, I'm thinking over a few things I read at the Reddit I mentioned on the other blog and what could be described as role playing within a thread.

What this thread was about were chat rooms often used by gaming people and also age regressors  amongst others for in real time conversation around various things between people who do know at least of each other.

I must say on the outset I generally don't do them as most of people involved are in the Americas and the time zone difference for something that doesn't get going until at least mid afternoon over there is such I'd be in bed or heading there in UK time having been up from around seven PM UK time which is a good while.

The essence of this persons comment was because there's not a good popular age dysphoric one they'd used a an age regression one only to find much of the conversation to be around school and work with little about and involving play which it was they were looking for.

I kind of get that, actually it's a pet peeve of mine from experiences that while you understand that to do things like get a meal organized and that if you're physically staying together matters, all too often play doesn't seem to break out even afterwards.

People might be offloading their frustrations but really they're not letting out the little boy or girl in them and they felt they could not "play" with others or talk about their special interests .

They had tried to find one which did but that one didn't have anyone interested in things like colouring or watching cartoons such as Paw Patrol seeing to deal with more older boy/girl regression.

I get that frustration as when I'm not out say walking or visiting places I too like to play things more aimed at younger children not least as role playing games are too taxing given my memory and related learning disabilities.

Is it beyond of the remit of people to fix this?

We made it!

 

As people will know I haven't been too well over a few weeks which came in when I started a project concerning that part of Planet Social Media called Tumblr which has it's problems to the point much of what is on here presently couldn't be posted there between some people who feel they own everything regressive or age dysphoric so they 'police' you or who feel because it offends their minors even having a tumblr concerned with things such as past school lives with pictures of uniforms is enough to have your account reported on fake charges.

Thus after the last skirmish on baseless charges I remade the account before they shut it down started a more modern boys interests tumblr with toys and tv shows featuring more.

Shortly afterwards I decided to sort out a Community Age Regression blog started during that muddled up era converting it into a overtly feminine one, removing some stuff from communities that are more problematic and taking out stuff I've totally moving away from in some eight years.

You might well say what of the old TSB tumblrs and that was temporarily dumped to an account that has tons of issues having been hack to death by Tumblr in battles over content and that has preoccupied me since early August.

The period while I was away I did think about what to do about it cos clearly a blog which was mainly about vintage images of childhood such as school uniforms does attract both the wrong attention from kinksters who had plagued it from the very beginning and from those who then thought I was one and a threat to minors wellbeing.

I decided to remake it as a feminine sissy gurls own interests tumblr that might have the odd image per hundred of vintage school uniforms but mainly around having a feminine childhood, vintage childhood as I remembered it, plus modern childhood in the internet and smartphone world of today with the likes of tiktok and the old in the new of my current feminine little sissy gurl way.

It could carry some commentary that might explain the background for those born in Y2K of the pictures, tell of how what is shown was a part of my life and the sorts of values that were common through it without it falling foul of the inclusion police.

On Friday, we finished it and can now go forward with all new posts as part of a three tumblr group that covers most things and all underpinned by my belief in my very own identity.