Rituals in your life

When you talk about this Trans Age thing it may not be obvious that actually it's about the whole life not just say wanting to play with your toy cars, dollies or have a kiddie meal at McDonalds.

It includes stuff like Sunday night bathtime rituals as you were told to take one ready for school (if you were at day school) or having to get one if you boarded and then change into your pj's for cocoa before being told to go to bed at nine or even earlier.

For some of us it may be more rituals with a hint of sissification of a nonsexual sort brought in that we get off on as much as we fidget and protest.

That's the thing, you had all this controlling structure that freed you to just be that gurl and without it I'm just as likely to get self absorbed in something not to take a bath or fix a meal

Those rituals may start at the smallest of things as now you're ONLY to wear panties as you're revealed for who you are  and possibly by command which you now have learned to obey as a proper sissy gurl,

And you're called a Gurl from now on aren't you Good Gurl?

You love it as much as it reminds you painfully of your new reality.

Thoughts on Littles Meet Summer 2023

 Last week I was away after a period of time where upon being seriously ill with convulsions I had found it impossible to get back in to organized meets because in effect those present booked themselves in for next time so all the places were taken up.

The basic aim is to have several days of more child-like playful activity which on this occasion  involved doing jigsaws, cake baking and decorating, a painting session, music quiz and sports apart from weather permitting going out enjoying nature .

The group were a mixed group of trans, cis and sissies who are all "adult little girls" even if some may have "adult" sides and whose littles side varied from pre-school with diapers to teenaged.

Some are very overtly "girlie" others less so.

Personally I can move from Tom Boyish to more Little Sissy Schoolgurl so boys shorts but girls tops and cute socks may feature almost as much as frilly socks and shortish skirts and like I mentioned a couple of times before I'm trying to refine a style that works for me.

Given I was being picked up I thought about something that would be me without causing major issues with people in the community who don't know my sissy side.

This kind of look, a mini kilt-skirt with plain white tights with frilly silk knickers underneath and girls tops that shows my knees and legs off is white I came up with while on the painting day, I went for a school jumper and skirt with knee socks that had pussy bows.

Apart from walking up to the car, I walked about a museum site, eating lunch by a river, bought an ice cream in a shop surrounded by others enjoying just being out - out being a little sissy gurl.

It just felt right. I am a Gurl.

This might just be the Me I can pull off.

An Easter to remember

 

Last weekend I was away at an Easter Party, the first as Tammy I had attended as the only events remotely connected to easter I ever did was a couple of picnics in the the Twenty-Tens in southern England inside a public park so you had to tone down your presentation.

This was at a private fairly secluded house so no such concerns so having got their I changed little mode over that approximating a school girl but with frilly underwear and white pereline socks with Hello Kitty slipper socks over them.

That was the skirt I chose, a step away from the grey or black traditional ones but one not uncommon in some schools.

We chatted for a bit until everyone was here at which point we'd all gathered for beefburgers of which I had mine just with fried onions not caring for "plastic cheese" or sauces.

You could make Easter Bunny masks or have your face painted bunny style before it was time for some bunny themed games, not a million miles removed from the sorts of games we had at junior school such as archery which I was rubbish at, the Egg and Spoon race which I was okay at if not super fast and Tin Can Alley.

Party food was fun being a buffet of whatever we bought so loads of pork pie, sausage roll, pizza, a home made trifle and cake before we had a Easter Quiz where you had to say if a fact about it was true or false.

We chatted the next morning tired from being up until two in the morning  before having a two course meal out before saying our goodbyes and making our way back home.

Being able to be with a group of people not role playing a girl but being a little sissy gurl comfortable as her own self, feminine but not pretending to be anything else just doing littles things like playing and being at a child's party was so much fun.

Actually being little together

 

As I lie here typing this out, I'm thinking over a few things I read at the Reddit I mentioned on the other blog and what could be described as role playing within a thread.

What this thread was about were chat rooms often used by gaming people and also age regressors  amongst others for in real time conversation around various things between people who do know at least of each other.

I must say on the outset I generally don't do them as most of people involved are in the Americas and the time zone difference for something that doesn't get going until at least mid afternoon over there is such I'd be in bed or heading there in UK time having been up from around seven PM UK time which is a good while.

The essence of this persons comment was because there's not a good popular age dysphoric one they'd used a an age regression one only to find much of the conversation to be around school and work with little about and involving play which it was they were looking for.

I kind of get that, actually it's a pet peeve of mine from experiences that while you understand that to do things like get a meal organized and that if you're physically staying together matters, all too often play doesn't seem to break out even afterwards.

People might be offloading their frustrations but really they're not letting out the little boy or girl in them and they felt they could not "play" with others or talk about their special interests .

They had tried to find one which did but that one didn't have anyone interested in things like colouring or watching cartoons such as Paw Patrol seeing to deal with more older boy/girl regression.

I get that frustration as when I'm not out say walking or visiting places I too like to play things more aimed at younger children not least as role playing games are too taxing given my memory and related learning disabilities.

Is it beyond of the remit of people to fix this?

Past childhood into new adult-childhood

There are lots of different ways in which the way we express our little selves of which one of the more obvious is how outside of our adult lives we elect to present ourselves through what we wear.

Whatever it may be, it is always to drawn a line under what may be classed as being seen as an adult (although of course that doesn't alter The Law) and to resemble outwardly our little selves.

To varying degrees what it is inwardly our sense of littleness which for a few such myself is always there and so is involuntary and permanent would show just on its own whatever we we be wearing but we feel more at one with it more when we resemble our little selves physically.

There is I feel an issue at heart of littles communities  that really causes much heartache and that is the extent that many seem to locked in the cultural norms of the seventies and sixties where boys only do certain things and dress one way and ditto girls and this can apply even to those who see themselves as transgender.

I was more with the Free To Be Me ideals where we looked beyond a persons sex and said you can do and wear what you wish regardless of your sex even if you may thing you're in the wrong body.

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Some still say in effect girls can only be littles if in skirts and dresses and boys can only be one in short trousers or those awful longs even if today's boys and girls may dress very differently and have more mixed interests.

As a feminine sissy gurl I have the right to wear a dress and be that gurl and girls who prefer to wear shorts when playing shouldn't be told they cannot be near people at events if they wear shorts cos they're not girls and the people associate shorts with boys.

It's easy to understand a boy who was ill treated perhaps in them for wishing to wear a skirt may have certain associations but what right does that give them to prevent another being themselves not least if they were bullied by girls in dresses and pereline socks?

Peoples behaviour has nothing to with what they wear while in it, the attitude is in their minds not their clothes and surely we need to stop treating people badly just because they wear one sort of attire.

Sometimes people argue about  you can have parts in your Little Space that are not of the era you were brought up in as if they are not emotionally an authentic part of you so that if say you were brought up in say the nineteen fifties, you cannot have plushies or have say books from other eras.

In my regressed world you can add some things into it so say teddy bears can be complemented by say a dinosaur Plushie because it's function and utility to is the same, you play with it, it comforts you as hold and hug it as the inner child you are.

In much the same way to read say the books of Jacqueline Wilson is a part of understanding a part of contemporary childhood with the objects and experiences our age in it, that can aid me understand more of this age I'm travelling through as the hybrid adult-child I am

Taking advantage of the opportunity

 

Sissies like me may be an anomaly but it is our individual traits that makes us the person we are, that we are selves and not just a uniform mass, as if we'd been all cloned. 

It may be lockdown but that's a good time to read about female movements some of our closest friends belong to and why it mattered to them at that time as much as I was more for Cubs.

It's also a time to read the girls comics I never got around to because of the gender bias and even bullying that happened when I grew up because I wanted to read them too being drawn to them.

There's no reason why I shouldn't use this period to have a better childhood if it helps and I think it will.

The needs of littles III

The other week I was mulling over some of things that did crop up at ASB.org, not that sadly that site lasted long, and that generally I tended to talk more in and around the role of age regression within being an adult schoolboy as from my vantage point being one comes from being in the headspace of being a adult little, legally an adult emotionally and psychologically very much a child of your own childhood era.

One piece of the jigsaw puzzle is how psychologically you get to being in that frame of mind and what it is that is in there and one topic that often raised its head was spanking which usually is seen as both sexual or kink centric but for some goes back into their childhood emotions and so forms a part of being in a psychological state of being a "little boy" or "little girl" again

The Benefits of Getting Spanked by Rodney Calmes

Many people believe that if someone likes to get spanked, it is all sexual. That is not the case all the time. Even though getting spanked has some sexual effects or enhances sexual arousal, there are many non-sexual benefits from getting spanked. What can spankings do for you?

1. Getting spanked relieves stress.

2. Getting spanked is calming.

3. Getting spanked generates endorphins and puts you in a euphoric state.

4. Getting spanked generates adrenaline and gives an adrenaline rush, especially if you are anticipating getting a very harsh one.

5. Getting spanked lifts moods. Russian psychiatrists have found success in treating depression with bare butt whippings.

6. The marks left from getting spanked is like an art of its own.

7. For some, it can restore feelings of youth.

Don’t be ashamed of getting spanked, enjoy it! For those who never tried it in your adult years, give it a try. You never know, you may like it.

There have been times when personally I have struggled with spanking as an element of being that adult little not least in website and on social media it's tended to dominate all discussion to the exclusion of look at the how and why we feel still "little children" even though the law says we're adults.

That text emboldened however did set out clearly a lot of the elements for and of what I get from being spanked in an adult little sissy gurl context starting from the very child-like, child-minded side of me needing discipline, direction and correction as I have little 'native' adult or even older child sense of self including self discipline.

The whole context of being subject to spanking, being 'made' to take it at the will of a 'adult authority figure' and the emotional outcome from given a good spanking restores a strong sense of being that little, of being young.

Spanking given some of my issues  around relating to people, understanding appropriate boundaries forms stronger bonds with me especially between myself and adults. I am wired very much toward physicality helps with bonding.

While it is entirely understandable a adult little who was abused in actual childhood would not and may even be could never accept the role of spanking within such relationships or through other outlets such as age play schools and the like, for me it's a core part, the mirror image of how it was to me as a boy back then.

As a sissy gurl I want dominants to spank my bottom.

Little problems

One of the more frustrating things out there is the preoccupation within the littles community with little girls to the exclusion of us, sissies, the traditional rough and tough as much as the more delicate who like it as it was when you didn't feel you had to bend your gender to fit in even if like me you enjoyed wearing skirts and dresses too.

Because I colour in Disney Princesses and have girls colouring books doesn't make me a girl because I am a Feminine little sissy.

I accept my sissy gurl side.

For us there isn't because we are very happy to be our gender as it is to the point it needs no qualification nor that we have any real privilege just on account of it we are are sex because that's our anatomy which doesn't mean we can't be loved and adored for what we are 

The Journey Together

I wasn't too good over the last two days although I got up okay and that.

Shortly afterwards I felt a migraine coming rather quickly so I quickly got my tablets out, filled  a jug full of water with glass, closed the curtains and went bed.

It wouldn't be me in the midst of all that to be thinking of other things, I mean it's so funny but sometimes I'm more together when it comes to thinking ideas up when I'm  like that than any other time.

One is how many times we hear of people who do something a little outside of the mainstream such as follow a dress style and wear it, have aspects of our lives that others may not be so keen on such as your gender expression, sexuality and being a little and so on who struggle to have people they feel they can be open with as friends. And this in age of forums, emails and social media.

Sometimes it may be that the individual has difficulties forming and holding down personal relationships which may not be helped if others are way too quick to judge elementary mistakes but life if you appear not to be able to learn from them can be hard.

Sometimes groups have very much a "My way is the only highway" approach, setting very exacting positions people are at least to go along with if not openly endorse which at times is so ironical being in mind the reason for  existence of some groups is the very excludedness those people felt from others they project themselves.

To  me it seems in order to progress we need to be open to difference, able to tolerate difference and understand  the expression of differing views often leads to more informed thoughts and decisions.

If we find understanding something hard - and it genuinely can be -  we need to be prepared to  work with someone who will explain it and engage with them changing what we are doing if it isn't helping us.

We also need to learn to hold hands more with the people who can helps us explore and grow as people which may include learning more about some of things that unite us but may not be part of other peoples lives.

If you're a little/middle you need to find those spaces you can let this side of you out openly without the distractions of regular adult stuff going on.

Creating Little Headspace

I'm a little late starting this entry cos I've been Poorly over the last few days but I had noticed a few people talking about Headspace which I know I had talked about in February.

For some it begins and ends with just 'the play' for others it may extend into dressing more like the age of the 'child within' while do so with say dresses that wouldn't be far removed  from that of a young girl at a party or play clothes like dungarees or for some school wear.

Being a little sissy gurl I can wear short trousers and for sorts of playing they may be less revealing but gurls like me belong in the dresses associated with girls such as a traditional pinafore dress or gymslip.

I think the first thing I will say is this space is very much as you, yourself make it and you do need bring something to being in it even if you may be fortunate to have either a Caregiver do things with you or you go to any number of littles activities where organizers do lay on activities because you're the one  'doing' them to getting into that sense of being more child-like.

Because anyone for a host of reasons isn't able  - and I do understand - to get out either as much as they like or at all due to lack or disabilities perhaps doesn't mean you are unable to  but you'll need to create them where you are.

The second thing is, to do this we need to remove as much 'groan up' mental background noise as we can, not just technology (sometimes  super intrusive) but also anything that distract us from playing in the way as kids we did.

If you can add a few touches like cute 'throws' (aka Covers) over furniture, I'd suggest bringing out the one thing you loved from your childhood first and putting it in your room unless you're fortunate to have a already set up play space.

It may be a favourite plushie, a teddy or doll you hugged, talked to and created adventures with. I can't speak for you but you may of played at being a Vet, a Doctor or an Astronaut with them but we're going back in time and buried away are just the memories you need to get back to where you were.

Some people like something a little less imagination centred but fun nonetheless such as watching a Disney movie or cartoon series that they find takes them back.

The other approach may appeal to those of us who like difficulties aside to do art to draw, colour or paint but allowing our 'inner child' to tell us and in way do the activity that relates to their interest and age range which is something personally I feel matters for your own well-being.

Some find littles role playing games and sites helpful in getting into that 'role' opening up your inner child's thoughts and expressing them with others.

The important thing here is you do create that space to go back, enjoying the experience.

Headspace in the LSG World

This week I've been thinking a bit more about Headspace.

What is Headspace?

Headspace to me means the vantage point my mind looks upon everything around of it and relates to it in real time, being a felt, experienced and physical thing I interact with that ties in your sense of you in time and space.

People can have differing senses of head space not least of you're a Middle or Little because you may have, depending on your own development a more adult sense of what you do and how you'd see your role as well as a younger one where in effect you go back to those things and ways of looking at life that you may recall from your childhood.

The way people may move from one to another depends on the individual and their circumstances such as you may have a triggering thing such as a particularly activity that from the second you start to interact with it, you subconsciously move to that side of you.

For example I used to find being in schools often brought out the more Junior side of me so much so if I was left their for long enough on my own I'd 'drop' into being that child or playing with say toy cars just does.

It may be also that how you are attired does and with me putting on my school clothes like what I'm wearing right now typing this 'throws the switch'.

I think one thing a good number of us find useful is where we can meet up because it enables us to interactive not just with our own person sense of being a Middle or Little in such a headspace but also with others as if we were over at other folks houses playing which I think is something many of us did as children and it's that kind of feeling we're recreating.

When looking at recreating there is a question to be asked about the extent to which it is or can be complete replication simply because the nature being a child and the 'play' has itself changed over the decades.

The modern child has electronic play devices and quite often access to say a Tablet Computer which may be used to play games on or join sites like Club Penguin or use to write or draw things on. A computer may be part of your Little/Middle headspace.

How much of that we may do when we're together is something that we'll need to work through in the same way thoughtful parents do with their own children and for similar reasons because it is easy-too easy perhaps-to have a situation where we're all huddled together but staring into our own screens so while individually we're having fun the one thing we aren't doing is interacting with each other. That is a genuine concern.

The other area with that and the all pervasive Smartphone is handling Adult related things such as any requirements an individual may have to check emails and the like from 'work' which whatever your personal thoughts on the rights and wrongs of  (and I think it has for some gotten too intrusive in folks free time) such things are part of their working conditions they are expected to comply with when outside work such as at such meets.

I feel it needs to be done in way that doesn't disturb the Middle/Little space of other people attending which may involve say the use of your own private space or a designated area and certainly the associate electrical gubbins like chargers need to out of peoples way when sitting or walking about.

For some of us, though this isn't necessarily the biggest threat to that very headspace at all and while I won't speak for everybody one reason I do like being in that Middle/Little space is to be free from adult level intrusions not least those I have functional difficulties with.

When we were younger the Grown Ups, knew it mattered that while the Big World went on around us, it was wrong for that to dominate Our World so some conversations and topics were 'not for young ones ears' because playing talking through our thoughts and ideas mattered more for us.

That's why it does matter to some of us the sense of leaving things like political, religious and 'adult matters' out of where we are playing, talking or even sleeping and it may be sensible to check with any Little or Middle if they wish to be involved in or ideally leave that to as something in another room people may do.

Personally I have no inclination at all to engage in discussion around those areas simply because it's not part of Middle me that comes to meets apart from experiences in other groups that had allowed it lead to enmities between folk whose reason for being together had had nothing to do with these topics.

To me then to the extent one cannot and would not want to restrict what people can talk about not least that of any groan ups/Caregivers present, there's something to be said for holding back it until after little bed time  or perhaps of having that in just one area of a meet you'd make a deliberate point  of entering.

That way it's managed but those of us who are either playing or just resting have our needs respected so we can enjoy ourselves in our younger headspace freely.

To conclude being in it to me is the mark of being a middle or little. It is us.

Little? More thoughts on it and Play

 There were a number of things I felt like posting around today, some which may have go to other spaces I share but you know what, I feel like putting it them here any how.

The first thing I'm gonna talk about is what we mean by being a little as this from time to time causes issues depending sometimes where folks arrived from and how wide your knowledge and involvement in that community is.

If anyone expect a single universal definition, sorry there's not one as some like to slice and dice everything up often to match a subcultures take.

My start point is it's about you as an individual first and foremost starting from how you see yourself as you navigate your way from upper juniors and through your teens to approaching what the law defines as 'adulthood'.

The majority of children going through what is called 'growing up' have what is best called an emotional  age that is within the average or norm for children within their year which means at a practical level they can both be educated broadly the same level while being able to play and socialize within that peer group feeling neither to young or too old as equals, free from inappropriate behaviour.

If that was you, you'd be content  being yourself, sharing the same interests as your peers but for anyone that isn't you start to find toward your mid teens your being left out, staying the same emotional age having no interest in maybe or even getting anything from what interests your peers.

In effect you are  in very real way emotionally much younger than your chronological years that brings with it both ostracization  and vulnerabilities that others are only too willing to exploit.

I first became aware of this  around the ages of nine and ten finding my peers had outgrown me with it increasing several fold by my mid teens to the point I had to be protected at school from unsolicited and misunderstood attention from my peers.

Had it of been in this decade, rather than trying to find things in the reference library I'd of no doubt of been looking stuff up online on various sites and that simply cos nothing was around in what was supposed to had been a safe space for me never mind having spaces I could just share the interests I did have.

I don't believe in the intervening years a mid to late teen child  who is that way is that much more different although the internet itself brings risks to your doorstop, something which is of real concern to those over 18 who find them 'reaching out'. In a very real way those teens need their own adult free space until they are of age and some solid professional guidance of the sort some of us back in the day didn't have.

Those of us who are over 18 obviously started from somewhere and instead of concerns about our school friends, it's more about employers, fellow students and what anyone you may be in a relationship with as to how much of that side of they can take as well as the adult sexual side.

How that little side comes out does vary and one point I want to get across here is unlike the image you may encounter online it is not and does not have to be all about diapers, sippy cups, all in one romper type suits and pacifiers although if that's you, terrific and as those of ya who have actually seen me over here know, I don't mind in the slightest.

You can be sporty, into uniforms, play school if you like (it's fun, trust me!) spend the hours colouring, watching show on CBBC or play snap, whatever makes you feel comfortable really cos it's just that-being in emotionally comfortable space, free from grown up worries and concerns.

To me that's what we have and had as Littles even if you have moved into relationships where that's accepted and anything 'adult' is understood and consented to.

It's what makes being a little transcending of any other label regardless of any subdivision you may be such as little sissy gurl, furry or whatever.

Sometimes it seems some go to the aesthetics of being little, specifically LSG waxing lyrically around clothing but really it's not about that, it is how we act on our inner Little Sissy Gurl feelings such as playing on swings as much as with dollies or toy cars which many of did then.

When I'm well, I play with toy car, play with my dollies, go on swings and play ships inventing a whole story I act out or make things from lego.

The clothes don't make me LSG but are an expression of that so the me I see in the mirror resembles the me I am on the inside doing that playing. just being like ten to twelve year old little sissy all over again in a dress or skirt.

A reflective moment

Every day starts out pretty much as any other for most of us unless we're planning on going somewhere special we follow routines feeling confident that today will be like yesterday and no doubt tomorrow with a change here or there but otherwise of itself uneventful.

So it's hardly a surprise we become accustomed to the idea that everything will remain 'just so' which to be honest is one thing I sure loved when I was younger, the whole certainty with its sense of well-being from repeating that pattern week after week.

Every so often though, something comes along and knocks it over. You feel lost if not numb and bewildered too as it seemed to going along so well.

It is okay to feel that way, sad things happen, we hurt and a good number of us are hurting right now. 

I can't speak for all of you but things often seem to go in cycles and my last lot of cycles have seen me  do different things, learn and improve on skills that I've struggled with, form new and more helpful friendships and understand more about myself and others too.

All those things can and are helping me deal with this because they've given not only ears to listen and understand how I may feel but also the strength to carry on when I just feel like lying there crying (and I know that feeling so well).

You know, those we miss so much would never of wanted us to stay like that forever and you might imagine this friendly nudge coming out urging you on, reminding you can start again, even if we find it hard.

Personally, I feel it's helpful to think about those things that I have reason to be thankful for over the years from the situations that just appeared from nowhere and to which I had no real plan for. 

Just thinking about it, my life has changed quite a lot in the last ten years for the better and much of that isn't down to some super medical recovery on my part but more because I've been working on dealing with more how it's handed out to me, making the most of it smiling even through some of the Meh moments.

It is easy to get into a cycle of beating yourself up when things aren't going to plan, thinking we are useless (been there and done it) or feeling guilty over things that maybe we didn't have that much of a say over but I'm going to try to get on with life the best I can from now on.

That's a much of lesson from my childhood that I can use today and maybe it's of some use to you.

Feminine LSG playtime?

 

Rugged play was always my thing and to be honest in the littles world it's an element within the notion of being littles schools that appeals more to me than the obsession over certain other elements like having whole past uniforms rather than uniforms based on what we would of had and the whish of c.p.

For me the whole point of such an experience is to be entirely within the mindset of that feminine little sissy for me a ten year old Prep school  child not say doing his maths and english but also to have playtimes and bottles of milk with a straw.

It's about the games we'd play together, the camaraderie really. 

In other words it should feel like were are in that time and space all over again acting on the impulses of that ten year old in real time and less like we're playing at it while the grown ups apply the rules of the day to us as if it was back then and we were in their class just as incidents can and did happen.

Little time away

 I was away for a few days with some friends I only met face to face last year so here is a few notes about that.

I travelled to one friend who kindly gave me a lift with them to the property we would be staying in with extensive grounds.

One of my friends brought a train set which kind of puzzled me as a number were girls and train sets generally don't go together with them but it proved to be quite interesting in that it is a Fairy based set a bit like this with Fairies, Trees and a Station and the Engine and Coaches in painted in girlie colours rather than the more boy sort especially the hobby sort like those by Hornby and the like. 

The track was made from wood with grooves in that you pushed the train along by hand.

I found myself actually enjoying  playing with trains sat cross legged on the floor , making hooting noises and yes having the odd crash as that little sissy gurl!

Perhaps this was just what I needed to work through my emotions.

A member of our little group had been rather poorly for a period and on the Friday evening I heard noises. 

Waking up the next morning I like the rest of the girls found a present which when unwrapped turned out to be a Tatty Teddy blue nose friend with mine being a "Peanuts" model.

Apart from being a really lovely gesture, this plushie didn't just talk, it conversed to others in the series when correctly set up, in an awfully cute way, talking of  having adventures, playing together and being best friends.

To me it seemed to sum up the whole feel of being together as girls and boys sharing and playing together

I spent a bit of time talking about dollies as a few of us had brought our dolls or that bit of our collections we could carry in our cases with us, learning  about them and why they mattered to their owners.

Among the many games I played Scrabble, Frustration (and boy wasn't it just!), Pool (well kind of!) and Tetris which was fun although with my amazingly bad co-ordination and memory it's not my strong point.

One thing I did enjoy which takes me back a bit to actual childhood was playing with guns that fire plastic pellets out with some of the 'younger' ones because many of the girls I played with were tomboys and we did these things while the boys were well out of doors, in the woods.

Just being out as a sissy gurl in hur jumper and skirt for several days with other littles was just magical.

Reflections on 2011

The year 2011 was a big one for me and this blog because I came to embrace more and more of what being a feminine LSG really meant because the thing for me always was it was always on not being something you might do for a few hours, possible with other people meeting some place.

It's also how it is your responses to many things are essentially that of neither just a boy or a girl, which no amount of added sophistication within your life changes so the extent to which I may know about current affairs makes me no more an adult than a comprehensive knowledge of gaming makes a fourteen year old one and when I was fourteen I knew about current affairs but at least then I was treated as that fourteen year old albeit one who was mentally ten.

What this year has shown is the extent to which I need within the limits of working, I need to switch back meeting my little sissy gurl needs and break off from adulthood enjoying the freedom within new childhood to be me.

That to me isn't just about the material interests of this LSG but also about getting outdoors, making adventures where the adult side is pushed back to enable the littles side to go forward enjoying the day the way that I did back then.

It is also about fully embracing my feminine side and learning to enjoy presenting in uniform assigned traditionally to girls as the little sissy gurl I am.

Perhaps you should deliver a firm slap to my frilly pantied bottom and tell me to get on with playing with my dollies?

Tammy

This blog had a odd birth coming out of a school centred social media site blogging place before being dual posted to here before that site got messed up so some of posts originally were a bit more circumspect for potentially your old school mates seeing this side of you.

Tammy is the name I go by today as a little sissy gurl although I was assigned as a male and so had a school experience that a far as the sexist restrictions on sports, attire and subjects went was impacted by that given identity.

Going online then was a massive thing find sites and wasting hours exploring identities from more transgender sites aimed at the time towards "T Gurls" to sites aimed around other identities such as being an adult little and sissies which was where "Tammy" was born coming out as a mainly non sexual adult little sissy gurl.

"Gurl" because I do not see and feel myself to be be or approximating a Girl (or a Woman) being more feminine, even at times by female standards effeminate in social terms, have a submissive side while having no desire to aquire boobs and have female gender affirming surgery.

It would be very wrong then to see me as "a girl trapped in boys body" and treat me in terms of gender as a girl when elements are not the same as a girl and parts of presentation would never pass as a girl either socially.

Gurl approximates to and shows the inspiration but denotes it is NOT the same, we ARE different, a third gender and a Girl calls a person like me a Sissy Gurl or just "Sissy" because we are NOT the same and by doing so she makes it plain.

As that Sissy she stops any notion of me even thinking that STONE DEAD wherever in private or in public and that EVERYONE ELSE knows in earshot.

That Girl does care about my feelings which is why she cares to ensure the world knows the real me and that I'm a Sissy Gurl, as much as she may love me a person, a fellow human being.

More often than not I will be dressed in a more junior Girls way, oftened femmed up to the max, party dressed, school uniform or formal attire as I do behave and see things in a more child-like way, often playing rather than anything truly adult.

As that Little Sissy Gurl, being more girly than any girl of ten, the one thing that some may place in a "kink box" is as that LITTLE sissy gurl being spanked by a dominant female from an aunt, teacher, older sister angle for REAL CHILD CRIMES like swearing or spilling the orange all over the carpet making more work for people not anything more "Adult" sissy fetish stuff.

And all out of love for Tammy, that Little Sissy Gurl, never hate.

Tammy is proud to be a Little Sissy Gurl.