Space 1999

The weekend back in the mid to late 1970's was a different thing from what it is today not least with most shops being shut on Sunday's and football normally only on Saturday or Sunday.

One show I loved to watch with my younger brother was Space 1999, a Sci-Fi adventure series which was set on Moonbase Alpha and starred Martin Landau and Barbara Bain.
It was the last of Sylvia and Gerry Anderson's productions from the legendary stable that included Fireball XL5 and Thunderbirds but this human cast one went out on a bang to great acclaim.

As with anything big and in Britain, there was the annual with pictures, quizzes and new fiction stories that came out for Christmas and ended in most boys and girls presents sacks.

Of the many tie products this model of the Eagle with the cargo pod was really good and are highly collectible today.

You could get figurines to collect too such as Commander Koening.

Many of us did, playing out our own adventures with "the cast" with friends having fun.

The show remains a strong memory with me.

Birthday edition

It was recently my birthday so apart from having a number of cards I had some money to put toward the upcoming 1965 Beatles Capitol Albums box set as ever since I was a teen, they've been my favourite group and this set has the albums I had back then that I can get from the local HMV branch and for some more blank minidiscs for my recorder.

I bought my last one, a Sharp MDT 270H two years ago from Richer Sounds here in Stoke on Trent because it was a portable recorder that did MDLP (MiniDisc Long Play) which a few of my discs were recorded with on my second home deck I bought in July of 1999 and unlike a Sony HiMD portable I have, this at least has manual record level settings for both digital and analogue line level sources.

Birthdays with me are more like children's birthdays with little really adult in them with the same sorts of presents I had back then but could this return...

Issues from my past

A Collection of Great Dance Songs

I've always liked The Pink Floyd and that is one reason why I decided to post this album on my blog(s) as I bought this in 1981 from W H Smiths as it has a selection of the songs featured on their albums which are really best listened to in their entirety.

One thing about it is it has a new recording of Money which was issued as a single originally in 1973 on it and the other is there's a special edit of Another Brick In The Wall Part II from the massive selling The Wall album which was a number one single here.

The arrangement of Wish You Were Here is a special edit for this album  so actually it both summarizes their output and at the same time gives you something different.

Also printed to my Friends Reunited Blog

Playing with your inner sissy

In the earliest permeations of this blog it didn't take long to just come out and say images like this  really brought the submissive side of me out, imagining her as a would be female dominant with all that leather and implements for really pushing any and all the components of my sissy side out.

It wouldn't take so long before forms of sissiness such as sissy maid, sissy schoolgurl, bimbo etc would start given the right encouragement to emerge from that side as much as the little side is usually out because it's really about the inner conflict and need to be the whole you this whole thing is about.

You push the buttons, we just feel better for letting it out.

A child like me

Past glimpses

Trying to be helpful but not being attentive school life for me was like this. Teachers did punish us but we preferred it know what would happen if they were not in control of us and we learned to respect adult authority.

We wore uniform at school with something fairly similar at social events with our families too and being boys we wore shorts which at the time were short with about four inch inside leg at the most but as your mate did too we just got on with it.

You were a boy and so you played footie disabled or not school break times, at cubs and on the streets with your mates cos we knew we were boys and that was it. The end.

It wasn't that I may not and did not wish to wear skirts at the time, I did, but that was how I wanted to project myself as that boy because just liking to wear skirts and play some games and do more girly things didn't just mean I wasn't a boy but I couldn't be a girl either.

I quite liked being that child but as me, a very feminine mixture.

Being me

 Parts of the past are always going to be uncomfortable, not following any "approved" script, trope and may be a bit removed from where you are now even if in some ways you'd of never of got there otherwise.

Anything around gender expression, by which I mean how you may express your sense of gender by how your dress has the complication you may well be deviating from a path established for you.

In my era especially it was unheard of for a boy to ask for or even be asked how and what he'd like to wear.

He was dressed in what his family thought was most suited to him and that was that so if like me you did wish to explore other more feminine presentations this did involve raiding female members closets and any clothes for donation for suitable  things.

Wearing someone else's underwear without permission is shameful but we were not offered the chance to try any on and have them bought for us to wear and look after.

We could be and I was caught out where outcomes could vary from a severe scolding to acceptance of variance which in time occurred with me.

I learned and she learned to accept my feminine boyhood buying underwear for me.

I feel boys like that are best supported to explore what makes them the most happiest and comfortable being themselves be they more "girly" all the time or a mixture of traditional boys and girls styles.

The more I think about it, the more I feel at least for someone like me formal adulthood as a status was a mistake because I don't have what it needs to handle it, I mean I scarcely coped with adolescence requiring sheltering from some everyday teen situations as I just couldn't 'read' them and look after myself.

I felt very much like a fish out of water then and it certainly hasn't improved in years either.

I so want it revoking and a parent figure looking after me instead.