Christmas Day thoughts

So it is Christmas Day today something that brings back the good memories of long gone Aunts, school friends and those parts of the season you loved and the bits that really irritated you, such as the presents you could never really get into as they laboured under the assumption you were a boy and, if that was bad enough, in later life a Man for cryin' out loud.

Just imagine what might of happened had your parents and wider family had the courage to if said "we don't know what they really feel they but we'll respect their wishes and let them explore how they see themselves, play with all our children as they are.

No "You boys do that", "Oh girlies, you can help with dinner or play with your dollies together".

In so many ways that would of been the bestest Christmas present for Tammy, being hurself, exploring it all, deciding for hurself what to keep and what to reject.

In someways then this more regressed more little sissy gurl Tammy side is both a continuation of that process and the necessary re-immersion into gurlhood needed to come out as you for having had similar experiences to that of bio-girls.

It's also being majorly little Christmas for me is a more child-like experience of girls presents, other things like books about music I like, a few records by artists I like wrapped around the sweetness of hugs, kisses and cute cards.

You can't be "big" without having a "little".

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Pre Christmas Edition

There was some fun and game elsewhere in the last few week but we are just getting on with things as time goes marching by and into the magical season of Christmas with a week to go by the time you read this and having recovered, if that's the right word from spending time with little sissies and others at the weekend.

Christmas is a time for littles and children really, where the magic is really for real as things just come out of the blue taking you very much by surprise and where all being what you wished for will become become tree.

In times past we always had a tree, in my heart of hearts I'd dearly love to have one but that would mean lots of moving things, decorating that creates issues for those who help look after me although a half the battle back then was the cats trying to climb the thing!

I'd loved to had been that sissy on the right just skipping along in ones tutu in the snow happy, glad to be the little sissy gurl I was surrounded by girls who just accepted that was my place in the scheme of things and it would be great if a machine could just make that so?

Wishing every Sissy Gurl a very happy christmas and a frilly new year!

Love, Tammy.

Stuff that just like happened

 

It's difficult trying to be productive and that not least as with having to replace two computers I have a few issues to resolve along the way like a bit of the bank of images I built up for the next few months of the blog went as one machine just died from the hard drive up and I failed to back those images up and the chromebook that works with issues only has one USB socket and the mouse has to go there as the trackball is broken so it can be used with it.

What that of course means I can't put a spare USB memory stick in to copy over the files and maybe transfer them to both machines which is pretty annoying actually so I'm going to have to wait until a USB hub comes and hope that will cure that bottleneck.

We are making some progress on the christmas front with some cards organized ready to write and all being well I should be at an informal pre-christmas party the weekend before Christmas so I'll have to sort my party dress out.

I think we'll pause just after then as things will be a bit busy and resume just after Christmas.

Taking things a bit further

 While the week has been challenging not least for having some responsibilities to fulfill and also having some difficulties with the impact of the last weeks exceptionally hot weather with really took the stuffing out of me I did feel I was getting somewhere in this battle to be me.

The life you lead is dictated by what you do and the feel of bra straps drawn tightly makes a gurl, a gurl in just the same way that for girls from around eleven you begin to get accustomed to co-ordinating it with your tops and fastening it tightly

Inevitably even in those early budding days, your look alters being more recognizably feminine which is why sissikins needs to wear  pink bra with her pink satin panties from now on.

While time has been limited I have got myself established at two social blogging sites restoring a sissy inspirational tumblr where the original one got axed in copyright strike in late January 2016 although you do have to be mindful of what you post since the late 2018 rule changes and redirected another more "adult site" to cover a bit more of what cannot be posted at Tumblr. 

Embracing your objectified status for you

Reeducation for the Sissy Gurl starts with changing an attitude set you were originally conditioned to  as much as they didn't really sit with you.

You just thought you just did things and all that mattered was what you wore didn't get in the way of that plus no one ever passed a judgement upon how you dressed unless you had holes in what you had on.

Gurl life was and is nothing like that and isn't it just a shock sissykins?

People were looking at you, boys, eyeing you up, other girls being competitive checking you didn't look like you were gonna get their boy or think you were a floozie on their patch or complementing you if not copy catting your looks. 

People see you as an object and not just about what you can do and grade you.

You soon need to learn to work out what the rules are for where and who you were going with and when to really push the buttons of boys to get what you deep down want.

That's why sissikins has put on course of colouring in pretty girl outfits to learn to enjoy using being an object to get what you want on your own terms knowing the game going forward for you as a gurl is never going going to be the same.

Get to grips with what you really like for when you want that beyond catching the train or bus to work

Handing it all back

 

I found over time I just lost any vestige of being an adult increasingly taking a younger role in adult company feeling comfortable with that and that in strange way publicly tearing up my adult status meant I forged a new and lower status.

Sissikins got to wear sheer pink panties with a pretty bow on the to push hur sissification even more forward.

The status of adulthood was never a thing I wanted simply because I hadn't the means of using it to make a life I felt happy with nor did I 'get' what it was about because all I wanted was the life of a sissy gurl.

I saw my reflection in the window the other day, a person with a patterned bobble hat, blue short coat, grey skirt with grey bowed socks walking down the road.

I saw ME in the reflection.

By losing all airs of adulthood I gained what I wanted: The Status of a Little

It is all I am.

Now Yearbook 1977

 Did say the other week new music releases were coming think and fast but this one slots in well with the overall theme of this blog well being more than a list all  your purchases and in run post because it takes me right back to my childhood, just a teen, in a radically changing musical environment. 

There is a cheap folded wrap around version but I opted for the book form editions as it gives you short entries about each featured track and even a little about the years main events which is why I buy these editions.

They are more like end of year pop annuals with hits and much talked about tracks included better for being centred around when it charted and in 1977 many of our favourites from the last four to five years lost momentum as the New Wave such as Elvis Costello, Jam and Stranglers crashed in but it wasa  year with very broad tastes which suited me fine.

Kicking off Disc 1 with a timeless anthem from Queen with ‘We Are The Champions’ as the "old wave" rose to the challenge of the new and followed by the huge instrumental rock of ‘Fanfare For The Common Man’ by Emerson, Lake and Palmer. The song that would open ‘Live Aid’ years later is next up from Status Quo with their signature ‘Rockin’ All Over The World’, and 1977 saw ‘Way Down’ from Elvis Presley go to #1 in the wake of his death. Classic pop-rock from 10CC with ‘Good Morning Judge’ is followed by a trio of ballads from Electric Light Orchestra with ‘Telephone Line’, Leo Sayer with his trans-Atlantic chart topper ‘When I Need You’, and David Soul actor in tv's Starsky and Hutch with another UK and US #1 ‘Don’t Give Up On Us’. Hot Chocolate enjoyed their first #1 with ‘So You Win Again’ and is followed by a superb run of dance-pop from Candi Staton, Patsy Gallant, Donna Summer, Boney M. and The Rah Band. More pop-rock from Suzi Quatro, Smokie and a hit from the soundtrack of the tv series ‘Rock Follies’ lead toward the emotionally charged closing tracks on the first disc – from Elkie Brooks with ‘Pearl’s A Singer’, Liverpool Express and ‘Every Man Must Have A Dream’, and the #1 ‘Don’t Cry For Me Argentina’ from the concept album for the upcoming musical ‘Evita’ by Julie Covington along with Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice.

Disc 2 opens with an amazing run of punk and new wave classics: The Stranglers with ‘No More Heroes’, Ramones with ‘Sheena Is A Punk Rocker’, The Clash with their debut ‘White Riot’, and The Jam with their first Top 20 hit ‘All Around The World’. The Boomtown Rats debuted with ‘Lookin’ After No.1’ and defining hits are featured from Jonathan Richman & The Modern Lovers, Mink DeVille and Elvis Costello with the peerless ‘Watching The Detectives’. A genre defying hit from the Tom Robinson Band leads into a sequence of hits that includes singer-songwriters Paul Simon, Boz Scaggs and Bryan Ferry, rock smashes from Boston and Santana, and to close the disc softer rock from Thin Lizzy and beautiful ballads from Racing Cars with ‘They Shoot Horses Don’t They’, and Yes with ‘Wonderous Stories’, where prog actually charted on the singles chart!

The charts in 1977 were fantastically diverse, and one of the biggest genres of hits was Disco and it is that that owns  Disc 3.

Arguably one of pop music’s defining moments came in 1977 with Donna Summer’s #1 ‘I Feel Love’ with it’s production showcasing the role of the synthesiser. European disco smashes found huge success: Baccara topped the charts with ‘Yes Sir, I Can Boogie’, along-side massive tracks from Belle Epoque and the debut ‘Daddy Cool’ for Boney M. – who a year later would become the biggest selling singles act of 1978. Meco re-worked the ‘Star Wars’ theme into a US disco chart topper, and The Trammps, Heatwave, The Emotions, Rose Royce, Thelma Houston and chart newcomers Chic all feature here in a stellar run of floor-filling hits. Marvin Gaye had a massive track with ‘Got To Give It Up – Pt.1’ and Gladys Knight & The Pips continued their run of hits with ‘Baby, Don’t Change Your Mind’. The disc finishes with 3 of 1977’s greatest soul tracks: Deniece Williams took ‘Free’ to #1, and the Commodores released an all-time classic, with ‘Easy’ from the album known as Zoom in the uk, featuring Lionel Richie on vocals, whilst Detroit R&B vocal group The Floaters scored their only UK hit in style with ‘Float On’ reaching #1 in August.

The final disc opens with 1977’s biggest seller – the first single to sell over two million copies, all time personal favourite – and the years’ Christmas #1, ‘Mull Of Kintyre’ from Paul McCartney & Wings. Two more #1s follow: Manhattan Transfer with ‘Chanson D’Amour’, and the second chart-topper in the year for David Soul with ‘Silver Lady’. Olivia Newton-John’s ‘Sam’ continues the run of ‘easy-listening’ pop that also includes #1 ‘Angelo’ from Brotherhood Of Man’, sublime tracks, ‘The Things We Do For Love’, from 10CC, ‘Oh Lori’ from Alessi Brothers, and the Boz Scaggs penned ‘We’re All Alone’ by Rita Coolidge, plus pop gems from Carole Bayer Sager and Meri Wilson all feature. Kenny Rogers hit #1 with ‘Lucille’, Billy Ocean enjoyed his second #2 smash with ‘Red Light Spells Danger’, while The Dooleys and Andrew Gold made their chart debuts.

Rock ‘n’ roll was enjoying a revival and two contemporary groups both enjoyed massive success - Showaddywaddy continued their run of hits with ‘Dancin’ Party’, and Darts arrived with a medley of ‘Daddy Cool’ and ‘The Girl Can’t Help It’….and the collection finishes with two instrumental hits, ‘Portsmouth’ from Mike Oldfield reached #3 in the first week of the year, whilst unexpectedly ‘The Floral Dance’ became a massive seller for the Brighouse & Rastrick Brass Band, spending the last four weeks of 1977 at #2 behind ‘Mull Of Kintyre’ which lead to the Terry Wogan version too.