Birthday

 

Well, it comes around every twelve months with its complications like the ungurly presents some do insist on presenting you with but it is actually here although last years was all messed up and with visitors you might be a bit constrained about how you want to dress on what is your birthday.

Whatever the challenges you may face, a sissies birthday is always better with suitably sissy presents like soft frilly knickers with lace trimming and you'll almost certainly find a way of putting them on YOUR day won't you, sissy?

 

While I don't know about any other presents and they can always be added as an update I do the know the Super Audio cd of Genesis's Selling England By The Pound by Analogue Productions as part of the Atlantic 75 years anniversary delayed from last November is here.

Given the record version was acclaimed, I'm looking forward to spinning this disc

There will be a fuller write up around the 2004-2005 installment of Now Millennium but this gathering of notable tracks from those two years will help bringing back the sounds of that era coupled with a book about the artists and times.

I'm sure there will be some money to put towards a few other purchases looking towards Easter and Summer get together and unlike last year we'll have a small meal together at a local pub, something we always did when Mom was alive and something that didn't happen last time as that's been booked.

It's MY birthday and going forward the only thing that matters is being true to my own sissy self and it begins by acknowledging it today.

A birthday for one

 

It is very much that time of the year again whatever else is going on the world that causes a birth date to go around after three hundred and  sixty-five days but in reality I am and feel no more older than I did decades ago even if what we use may be different.

A few things remain messed up after these last two year like ones family and any kind of going out is likely to be later on in the week as work continues on refitting one place we like to go.

Anyway given how this thing is with me it was entirely fitting that one neighbour bought me a bar of chocolate cos I really don't have any inclination toward anything specifically adult or interests even.

One thing I did get which goes back a few years for inspiration was a very special four cd and dvd set of the classic Elton John album Goodbye Yellow Brick Road that came out in 2014 which probably contains the highest amount per album of his best ever work including beyond the title track to take in Saturday Night's Alright For Fighting, Bennie and the Jets and Candle In The Wind.

I was a bit strapped for cash in that period so I bought a two cd "deluxe edition" that had the whole album plus on a second disc some remakes of the songs by today's artists such as The Band Perry and a selection from a live recording made at the Hammersmith Odeon in December of 1973 that was broadcast on the radio.

Really it was this set I wanted which give you alternative mixes and non album tracks used on the singles, the whole concert in its two halves and a dvd with surround sound mixes couples with a 100 page book.

I was very fortunate to have it bought for me from a store that still had a copy in.

 Similarly my original Blu Ray of this anime tended to make some funny noises while it played due to some fault in how the film was written onto the disc so the blu ray player can play it so I got a much recent copy that also includes the dvd which didn't have this issue included.

 There are other ways that past in the present in me shows.

The boy then had his records and this year is little different for having a few although three are to replace the records I had in a box set I was bought way back in 1978 being replacement  copies for the originals in my 1978 Beatles Singles Collection box set that miraculously still survives even if some of the things I had around that era do not.

The strength of that set always was hearing a set of world changing singles, then the pre-eminent type of records for teens as they were compiled and to which I have a strong emotional connection.

When the video was a thing I bought these, the first two feature films by the Beatles on stereo VHS tape and later on got the dvd replacements.

My parents bought me the fiftieth anniversary Blu ray editions with remastered  sound and image quality from the original film negatives to upgrade them  with .

There was a thing very much before BBS and Wikipedia that schoolgirls and boys used to look up facts and figures and find out about things they could join outside of the Encyclopaedia's your school or municipal library held.

Pears did a cut down version a mini Encyclopaedia in one volume and from that the even slimmer Junior Pear's which I had in 1978 which just had key facts and figures coupled with topics of interest which you could use as an aid to researching a topic.

That institution folded in 2017/18 but I had the 1994 34th Edition of the Junior Pears one this year because they still are of use helping to reduce time searching online for things.

I also had some money, white chocolate plus stocking filler things such as underwear and new socks.

Thoughts on getting along

 

Really the simplest of looks can be the most effective such as a plain tank top with a white blouse a little above the knee tartan pleated skirt and plain thick grey socks.

I am a feminine little sissy gurl who belongs in skirts.

I wasn't too great this week with a migraine which isn't too uncommon sadly.

It wouldn't be me in the midst of all that to be thinking of other things, I mean it's so funny but sometimes I'm more together when it comes to thinking ideas up when I'm  like that than any other time.

One is how many times we hear of people who do something a little outside of the mainstream such as follow a dress style and wear it, have aspects of our lives that others may not be so keen on such as your gender identity, sexuality and being a little and so on who struggle to have people they feel they can be open with as friends. And this in age of forums, emails and social media.

Sometimes it may be that the individual has difficulties forming and holding down personal relationships which may not be helped if others are way too quick to judge elementary mistakes but life if you appear not to be able to learn from them can be hard.

Sometimes groups have very much a "My way is the only highway" approach, setting very exacting positions people are at least to go along with if not openly endorse which at times is so ironical being in mind the reason for  existence of some groups is the very excludedness those people felt from others they project themselves.

To  me it seems in order to progress we need to be open to difference, able to tolerate difference and understand  the expression of differing views often leads to more informed thoughts and decisions.

If we find understanding something hard - and it genuinely can be -  we need to be prepared to  work with someone who will explain it and engage with them changing what we are doing if it isn't helping us.

We also need to learn to hold hands more with the people who can helps us explore and grow as people which may include learning more about some of things that unite us but may not be part of other peoples lives.

If you're a little/middle you need to find those spaces you can let this side of you out openly without the distractions of regular adult stuff going on.

Birthday:

I went out for midday lunch with family to celebrate to a local public house that does home made cooking with big chunky carrots and home prepared roast potatoes so I opted for a Turkey roast with cranberry sauce. Apple sauce never did that much for me to be honest.

I followed that up with home made Apple Pie and vanilla ice cream which was really scrumptious having lots of flavour and texture. I don't like mushy apple flavoured filling in fruit pies.

I had birthday wishes from the site that's the home of 'George' and the Famous Five and other Enid Blyton favourites and some forums including GT, the IK chat room and the classical music thread of a music site who put up with my regressive side pretty well.

That ties into having by way of presents four classical music discs one of which will be featured in a review next week, some money and a W H Smiths voucher I used toward this book when I went into town on Thursday. 

Just being younger than my years me

As we enter a new month and approach a significant date I thought I'd post something around what it means to me.

This time of year reminds me so much of the largely unchanged way that I am no different in many ways around the ages of these children and even the fuzzy warm lack of focus of it might as well be a metaphor for both how I am and the prism I see things through.

Any of them could of been me and I could been in it as a little gurl in a school skirt and certain respects more mentally sharper and alert too.

Our world compared to todays was a good deal simpler for just reading, playing and watching tv more often than not together and communication was mainly face to face by phone with parental approval so we'd sure know about it if anyone had been mean.

We read comics, often joining fan clubs whose paraphernalia come through the mail and talked about them during school recess  and in many ways that remains what I loved and within reason love to do even now cos in my head I'm still the same.

 In the recent snowy weather my first instinct remains to gather up snow to have snowball fights and to make snowmen. This year even the outdoor model railway village got snowed in!!!

 I'm in so many ways the same as I was when I was legally younger.

The mix and match day

Mixing and matching the two sides of me is a balancing act because I am one biological sex and just one person in that body as much as I'm gender fluid and alternate between masculine and feminine interests and sometimes time gender presentation.

Yes really, as hard as it may seem to some I never really get any older because I've never really stopped feeling ten with the same birthday wishes whatever it may say on my birth certificate and as for feeling old, well I've had aches and pains in childhood so to me even that don't age me either. I still feel animated when I wake up on the day!!!

Barbie was my heroine as a sissy gurl for having so many pretty clothes, looking beautiful but having an exciting life with a career of her very own.

 As you can see Cuddles the Tatty Teddy is here in all it's super huggableness.

Also here and I did mention it while I was away last month I think, is the 1960 Disney movie version of Pollyanna with Hayley Mills and coming soon will be The Parent Trap and That Darn Cat! in the same series on Region 2 dvd.

In what is the month of my birth we should give thanks for being stabilized more than I was able to mix feminine interests when dressed as a little in their I'm in a junior girls  pinafore dress as much as engaging with masculine ones when in short trousers

They are two sides of one sissy gurl.

This sissy gurls birthday

Hello everyone.
Last week I had a birthday but the funny thing about birthdays and me is I never really get any older and I'd like to thank everyone for their super birthday wishes.

 

Mummy bought her little these really super flowers as I love flowers a lot.

I had quite a few birthday cards too like this one from mommy plus a 'Gothic' Hello Kitty card from a friend too

I had a few presents of one one I liked was these delicious milk chocolates by Thorntons who make some of the nicest chocolates in England, a book voucher and some money although I don't know what I'm going to buy with it yet.

Some old habits may bemuse but for this sissy gurl being in your party dress and recieving special playful birthday spanking really would be a brilliant thing to amuse!

Reuniformed for a Magical Day

 

We'll begin with something that may seem trivial but is kind of important.

The naturalness of feminine boys like me wearing skirts is obvious from both an aesthetic point of view we look good in skirts and also the practical fitting in well in a school uniform setting where they are hard wearing.

Today was my birthday although in truth I don't get any older really, it's just a continuous loop.

I had a new fluffy goose filled pillow and a Hello Kitty duvet and pillow cover to further transform my sleeping experience because I find it so much more relaxing in a little feminine boy headspace surround by plushies, teddy bears and HK posters whenever I sleep complete with HK sleeping attire on or need to rest during the day in uniform being poorly.

I have to say a day after having both rested and slept since petting it on, I feel more restful confirming that surrounded in this headspace I do feel smaller, having looked from the corner of too I see a little girl in her element and for me this feeling is priceless.

Also I had a Disney colouring book as thanks to the Christmas colouring a number of us did I re-connected to colouring even though I can only do a little a day with my condition, I found it relaxing, being able to switch off from groan up stuff.

I also had some reading books by Jacqueline Wilson sho I think is wonderful and these were, 'The worst thing about my sister','The Worry Website' and 'Midnight' plus the dvd of Tangled.

In this returned to the past life skirts feature so Tammy wore their grey skirt and long socks as the little sissy gurl they are.