Big Gurl presentations for sissy

However you wrap your head around it from the more adult side of being a sissy gurl you can't, I certainly can't, deny I get something from being made radically female as a host of mainly male stereotypes evaporates.

Grown up female lingerie has certainly changed over the decades but for me beyond that of the more little sissy gurl me, I like the more classic forties and fifties fuller sort that has an air of mystery around it.

For me silky french knickers do it, clearly adult but modest, enticing but not "in your face" with lashings of lace.

A matching camisole makes for a smart sexy look befitting of  an adult gurl.

A matching pair of red bra and french knickers has its place in the adult sissy life such as the bedroom or a date maybe.

Everything that and pretty outfit can offer would be wasted if you did not attend to your make up so you really looked the part and when that's a part of you, why not?

The kickabout difference

The usual transgender narrative never applied as much as people tried to fix it to me because I definitely had an still have a more dominant feminine side that could slot into the very binary world I grew up in fairly well not having any dysphoria around my body nor what we wore.

The problem was more around other peoples attitudes.

I am physically disabled but played football as hard as it was for me to stay upright, concentrate on the action and generally get stuck in in all weather.

I got the hang of it even if my football boots needed another lad to fasten them for me and they developed a respect for me for having the guts and determination to just do it.

It didn't alter the fact I would want to play netball with the girls or that after a hard game I really needed some girls TLC for my injured feminine side rather than the gruff stoic stuff you got in the changing rooms.

It was the reverse of some of the girls who wanted a game at playtime but they boys wouldn't let them and other girls called them names.

I learned we actually had more in common as I got older.

It's why I see myself more as a little sissy gurl or a jane gurl than a transgirl.

Team Games III

Here go in the last of the current Team Sports series looking at the the time sports I loved  from Junior and High school.
Field Hockey

We're on the case of the ball!

Fielding, what you need to be good at.

My brother got sent off for hitting an opponent with his hockey stick on the field!

Overall view as the match is well underway. 

Girls playing the game and yes I'd sooner play in a games skirt or skort as a feminine gurl with them.

It's no wonder I've always followed the NHL don'tcha think?

The duality of gender in me

Having written a bit of an introduction last month which given the sluggish nature of the internet around here I thought I would write something about the duality of being as it affects how I am.

This is a fairly straightforward gender typical set of presentations of the sort I was used to in infants and juniors many moons ago.

Girls wore skirts (or dresses) and boys like me wore short trousers which back then believe me were short and at our school it was a fairly simple uniform with no caps and blazers and we did were dress shirts (or blouses for girls) rather than polo tops.

That presentation is fairly free of gender stereotypes other than the whole skirts/short trousers thing where girls in time become able to wear trousers and parental ("he's big boy now") pressure pushed older boys also into (long) trousers.

To be honest I had no big issue with with wearing short trousers and still do but I positively hate wearing long ones and did like to wear skirts too.

That was an issue then and even for a number today with fairly gender neutral uniforms that still is an issue.

Why not make skirts or skorts an option for both boys and girls?

As someone who is very much mentally a child the way I present is more in line with actual children, never "sexy" or "edgy"

All of that is gender presentation, the way you express it through dress but you may express it through play but how that balance between my masculine core and the feminine side alters in real time affecting how I see and feel things too.

It's not like you have a switch between the two but they move and blend making me, well me.

I'm just a sissy gurl really not a transgender.

Secrets

To say Enid Blyton wasn't an influence on me would be to miss something that overlapped the other big thing in my life boarding school life as I read one while at the other and a good number of her novels I read were about communities of children in boarding school like me, living in the country or as this series starts with children running way from uncaring and abusive even by the standards of the time adults who were responsible for them, making a new life with amazing resourcefulness.

 I did eventually get the Secret Island in hardback which isn't really an adventure book in the way all the others are but more an account of their lives giving you the background to the adventures to unfold as we learn about Jack, Peggy, Mike and Nora.

The Secret of Spiggy Holes is the first adventure proper  introducing us to important people such as Prince Paul of Baronia. 

As with the first one it took ages to find a serviceable hardback and like the other, it didn't come with the full colour dust jacket although the images in both are replicated as frontalis so it's just an irritant not to have the actual jacket.

This is a more modern edition, the 1991 omnibus published by Mulberry of the last three novels, the Secret Mountain, Secret of Killimooin and Secret of Moon Castle being held captive in the Secret Mountain, travelling the the Killimooin Forrest where they feel a ferocious band of robbers  hangs out and exploring Moon Castle looking for ghosts at the end of night.

Rugrats

One of the first shows I watched when I had Sky Television was Rugrats which was a cartoon versioned depiction of the world of the Infant/Toddler on Nickelodeon which at the time was just single channel.

It was interesting to watch for the explorations of those infants characters passivity to dominance from extroverted to very introverted and how the group interacted with Angelica often getting the upper hand.

I bought several dvd's including the full length animations for home watching as like a good number of us, we are watching very much from a more child-like mindset, seeing parts of ourselves reflected in it.

The Definitive Drifters

Some sounds it has to be said do take me back in time not least for much of that time I was glued pretty much to the radio listening to 'oldies' shows and then there  are some acts I recall as both oldies at the time but contemporary too and the Drifters are one. 

Let's say I've always been a fan of Ben E King's singing  and of such songs as Save The Last Dance For Me, Up On The Roof, Under The Boardwalk which was covered by both the Stones and the Undertones and Saturday Night At The Movies to the point of borrowing various hit compilations.

Equally for me I have childhood memories that included new songs recorded for the UK market such as Kissin' In The Back Row  Of The Movies, Like Sister and Brother, There Goes My First Love and You're Than a Number In My Little Red Book still very much the same sound but with more a poppy production that I loved to bits as new songs.

That was why I bought this 2 cd compilation because it's two thirds the classic late fifties and sixties classics very well mastered and a third those UK seventies 45's all one one album in chronological order too.