Doing the Little Sissy Schoolgurl thing

The World of the School for Adult School Boys and Girls too I might add is not one some are familiar with so perhaps it is hardly surprising that ill informed comments abound when it come to light in the popular press one is operating in town or city.

The School offers a place for adult littles to be returned to the classroom experience of their actual youth such as the coat hooks in the cloakroom not not a million miles removed from those in my first school which I remember quite vividly and obviously uniforms.

The area around presentation in so far as it goes with me could be either way although it must be said most who run such places are very much traditionalist only bending for "special gurls" which isn't really inline with education in the last twenty or so years.

Back then I didn't have this option which I do love  but it would need to be as a little sissy gurl with all the names and pronouns and not some pretend girl thing.

This "boy" in strict uniform, being more strict than my actual junior school but he attends and needs to wear at least a kind of uniform that marks him out as a "boy" and from that point takes away most adult presumptions so he's very much back to being a school boy in class under a teacher.

One way you can tell is the cut of his shorts are quite short, clearly  to make him look more juvenile. 

If I was to present in shorts, then they'd need to be at least this length if not a tadge shorter approximating those i did wear back then

The more usual approach is a traditional more Prep school uniform such as the above which may well include a cap or for gurls straw hat which as state school junior I didn't have and there is old school revolving chalkboard in which the teacher for the day would put his or her work on.

The "Boys" or "Girls" normally would sit at a desk again most likely to be wooden one, taking work down into their exercise book to do or into a jotter again as anybody educated in the 60's, 70's and 80's would recall.

Miss or Mr would be just that, no "Lindsey is my Teacher" stuff as old school manners and formality is in and enforced.

Elton John: Rocket Man

Getting set for Christmas now so here's a small piece of value coming to you shortly, to paraphrase an old Jefferson Airplane song!

Like a good many people, my interest in Elton John came about in the early 1970's where I owned the UK lp versions of both his Greatest Hits albums, borrowing other titles periodically from the library.

In the intervening years I slowly built up a collection of what I consider to be albums from his classic period plus a few from the early 1980's on compact disc being a mixture of early 80's American MCA discs and a few European DJM issues of the same era as the "Classic Sound" titles issued in 1996 that  to me sounded too loud and bright plus the MCA issue of Greatest Hits II with the song, Levon, a fine track included.

Recently I acquired a few specialty releases that sound amazing that I wish to talk about.

This disc issued in 1994 by the now defunct DCC label followed the US MCA edition track order but added Candle In The Wind which featured on the UK version at the end, has a great selection of Elton's earliest songs in possible their best sounding versions. Bennie And The Jets sounds just like you're in a concert.

Volume II was to been issued by DCC but an eleventh hour licensing issue between Dick James Music and MCA  put an end to that after the test discs were made, which was a great shame.

Issued at the beginning of this year by Audio Fidelity, this edition of Rock Of The Westies originally released November 1975 and  the Home of Island Girl, Grow Some Funk Of Your Own and Dan Dare, is the best version on cd of this title with a wide dynamic range.

Strangely enough this disc originally in late 1989 by Mobile Sound Labs Inc of Illinois was the first edition with the whole double album on a single cd.  

In the opinion of many it remains the best sounding version on cd and being the home of Candle In The Wind, Saturday Night's Alright For Fighting, and Bennie and The Jets plus many other memorable songs. 

My copy is a slightly later US pressed UDII one.

In 1983 this compilation one of three with the title Love Songs  was issued with a cd issued very shortly afterward in those halcyon cd days by Rocket Records in the UK.

As the title suggests this is a collection of love songs drawn from the  Rocket era catalogue so it takes in the albums from 1976's Blue Moves up to 1982's Jump Up and is a very good summary of this era although it misses of  Part Time Love originally on the 1978 A Single Man album for we get most of the 45's and choice album cuts. 

Although this is an early regular cd, it seems some effort was taken to find good sounding analogue tapes leaving it with a lush presence in the midband, great for making the most of Elton's vocals.

I've transferred these discs to my iTunes library for portable listening.

Moving ahead through cubbing

As time went on my balancing of feminine and masculine  things started to move through to other areas of being me.

We talked at the very beginning around not being immersed in the World of boys and  how rough play which lies at the core of boyhood play was discouraged even though when I did breakaway and  allowed boys to play very physically with me and I even played like that with them, I really liked it.

That was another sign that at the core I had aggression even if I could do more gentle play such as playing house or with dollies which I longed to do but that era was hard on you if you did as a more feminine gurl who the world thought was a boy.

Another area of that passivity was discouraging exploration as even though there was no reason for me not to had been enrolled into Cubs and actually I helped my brothers in their scouting behind the scenes, my parents did not enrol me.

While obviously one could not join junior scouting officially today, I decided to follow the spirit, principals and the sorts of activities I would of done back then so I started to learn many of the skills through practise that as that sissy gurl back then I'd of learned and to go out being physical, exploring the natural world around me.

As one of the core parts of regression in its very early days was that, finding and secretly wearing my younger brothers uniform as he'd left by that point it made more sense and I also established a uniform.

The awkwardness of the gender gap within the scouting movement then and some present issues aside such as longing for a more feminine style of uniform at least in the form I can relive is something I can change to get the best balance for a gurl who wanted and loved the scouting ethos.

This helped a lot in both shifting the negativity I had toward myself moving from being very risk averse to learning to work with risk handling it to take care of myself and to let my sense of adventure out.

By engaging with that it I was on the way to becoming a confident thoughtful feminine gurl who accepted their more sissy traits. 

Advent 2013

As we're slowly getting toward Christmas and slowly being the operative word  having been without the internet for over 48 hours (rant) my mind drifts back to how we always used to count it down.

That's right the Advent Calendar, and that's mine for this year, ready to be put up on living room wall and being with milk chocolate, also consumed!

Guessed you'd of thought it just had to feature that cat!!!

I'm so into kawaii!

Maintaining The Connection

You have things for such a while they become very much a part of your life to the point you could not bear to be without them.

For instance, I had the same mobile phone a Nokia 3410 for over ten years, two employers and a good many vacations after getting tired of relying on callboxes to phone friends from and the lines that would form from each in a Summer's evening when away.

Well, the battery started to lose its ability to store the power that would not of been bad other than Nokia seemingly no longer make the battery having discontinued the phone itself  and the third party makers in China replacement models are of so-so quality at best.

I'm currently with Vodafone whose network has a very good reliable coverage, something in this area can't be relied upon by others such as Orange, and didn't feel like having to change my mobile phone number but needed a replacement, not least for when I'm out on daytrips and the like quickly.

Because of my hands I do need something fairly robust and with my co-ordination I'm prone to falling over so models with thin glass screens aren't so good. 

As I don't need the Internet, I bought this, the Samsung E1200 which could be had for little more than the cost of a replacement battery which is simple to use with a very tactile keypad and very long battery life not just when making calls but also when in standby.

It was sold as unlocked to any one network and comes without your providers SIM card so you have to physically remove it  from your old phone to the new one, where after a moment it works like a treat.

The phone holds it charge well which will be useful for things like being away on hols or littles gatherings as not having to pack a charger does save space.

Needless to say it has had a Hello Kitty sticker applied to the back and a protective HK phone sock is coming to keep it in!

Being out and Winter hillwalking tips

 

For me Scouting and the Outdoor Life is a big part of the whole littles experience because it was that as hard and physically demanding as it was that I both enjoyed and taught me real resilience.

Some of kindest things people did for me back the was to make things harder for me by having to follow what every other child did and learn to pick myself up and carry on rather than protecting me from consequences.

I played games, camped, went hiking in forests and learned to love nature. 

Much of this is coming back into my LSG life now.

*Some winter hillwalking tips learned from experience

1. Have a permit and permission - check your route for this in advance

2. Know people’s experience, ability and limits to make it achievable

We're all different when it comes to experience, stamina and abilities and those of us with disabilities need to have then taken into account.

3. Follow any provided kit lists

Guidance on what you need is often available and in brownies and girl guides you'll be given it

4. Check the weather before you go

5. Wear bright colours to be visible

Dark colours merge at a distance into the landscape so if your jacket isn't bright do wear reflective material on you such as rucksacks so you can be spotted.

6. Clothing to keep you warm and the importance of layers

There are three layers, base, intermediate such as a fleece and outer such as rainproof jacket and keep extras on you.

7. Know your gear and its limitations so you use the most appropriate for the conditions.

Not all outdoor gear is made for every task

8. Start earlier in the morning to get home when it’s light

9. Take a paper map and compass, then practice reading it mobile phone signals can go apart from finding your battery is flat.

10. Tell someone where you’re going and how long you expect to be

11. Stay hydrated and take emergency rations

Because you expect to be out a few hours doesn't mean you shouldn't allow for any kind of emergency and all of this will fit in your rucksack.

12. Light up the way and keep a torch or in some situations a headlamp on you

13. Go with someone else or a group

Apart from the company extra bods are a back up for advance or even getting help in an emergency

14. Always know what to do in an emergency on any hillwalking activity

Basking in the glow of reality

It's been a funny month with the weather although I went out quite a bit exploring and taking a few pictures for posterity and since this blog has started I have made a few entries over the year about how being a feminine gurl on the inside shows in how I dress and my interests. 

Here in the Autumn with the soft warm glow I'm out in a garden dressed in a junior school jumper under which there is a polo shirt, gym knickers, white girls over the knee socks and pleated grey junior school skirt and finally slip on shoes.

I'm still working through the legacy issues as they affect scouting and me not least for Cubbery being the route I could of taken back then but longing for something a bit less masculine in it's form not least uniform as I just feel some much better in skirts.

I feel every inch a jane girl now.