Coming out

 

Sex is quite straightforward being your physiological build and if you pulled down my panties you'd know that was male.

There is always more going on and that is socially and sexually people do vary a lot and that counts for much more in your lives so this merging of the terms sex and gender we have had over the last few decades really doesn't help.

Let's discuss that little fantasy, some planted at an impressionable age and some not that long ago tried to resurrect that somehow all of that didn't matter and I was an adult male socially because I'd been born male.

A childhood that included doing more girlie things, that included dressing more as a girl even if Ifelt I wasn't a girl any more than a boy, that included dressing more from the past as a younger child, never feeling grown up either.

I may of felt certain more sexual aspects of in print and online "sissy culture" were not me, being more regressively child-like but lots of the other bits did fit.

Little Sissy or LSG (Little Sissy Gurl) is in all honesty more of fit for me rather than being a more age appropriate FemBoy.

Pasts and the present

In a week when some actual children have been very concerned around their examinations, this week I'm looking rather more at things from my past and the present.

One thing I really enjoyed playing with was lego which you could make more or less anything from but many of the suggestions tended to be more around boys interests like making trucks and less social so this is more my kind of lego.

Another thing I was interested in was nature study and the sciences so one thing I did have was a microscope set although it looked deadly masculine to be honest so I'd of loved to had had this set which although being a serious piece of kit is much more appealing.

Something I'd of love to had had would of been craft sets to make pretty accessories like these charms with girls sharing and chatting away.

As a sissy gurl they're so me.

 Tin Tin as in The Adventures of  was something I followed reading the books and watching on tv at the time although his past has come under much scrutiny in recent years and it can't be denied some scenes do reflect the less than charitable views Belgium had toward Africans in their then colonies.

It's right to be aware of such things but can we say in fifty years time many of our attitudes might be seen in the same way we do now?

I feel it's better to acknowledge the past and learn from it rather than re-writing or airbrushing it as if it never happened.

It's also how I look at my life experiences.

We are a Child of xx Years

 

A person who can discuss current affairs, science while watching children's tv, reading a comic or magazine, enjoying playing a game or 'plays' with his toys is a...CHILD, specifically a GURL.

Because I have turned over 18 but still am the same does not make me an ADULT because I'm not acting as an adult because that is a status I am not living as.

Intellectual deficits do work in different ways meaning while I could do one thing, the more mundane adult roles may be beyond me. 

There is nothing wrong with adulthood but that is is a status that should be conferred who have achieved it in way that is marked in his community with the extra rights and responsibilities that come with it.

Those of us who haven't actually need to be treated as children by our communities cared for by the actual adults. 

Brownie and cub scouting Autumn 2020 style

 

Rovering, exploring call it what you want, it's all a part of scouting and so this week gone I was out exploring the woodlands near where I live

As we enter the wood from a residential area, you can see how denuded the top of the tree is looking very stark.

Further along though and you see the colourful tree canopies where often you can see and hear the local birds during the daytime.

Here you can see the interesting shapes of the branches as they throw out from the trunk and the glistening sun kissed foliage.

The thing I love most of all about the autumn is the riot of deep crisp colour and here you can see just how some of the foliage has changed to a copper colour.

It is just magical.

Something we see a lot of at this time of year is Acorns that are collected and stored by the resident squirrels which I have seen a fair bit of this year.

What it is

 

What this whole thing, this whole blog was about really is finding the real you from all the attempts at gender, age and other social conformities I and countless others were and have been subjected to from the moment we emerged from the womb.

For some it is relatively simple - they just were boys or girls who became men and women within the mainstream of what socially at least it meant.

With me it was more complex liking my physical boyish body but loving to wear clothes associated with girls and even to share in their interests when that of boys around me did not because of being so very feminine.

It takes extra layers on for not wanting nor feeling like a man but just as much not being a woman either because I never felt an adult or even really an older child most of the time being pretty much a child for life mentally at least.

The gain of the last few years has been being that sissy gurl adult but child in his dress or short trousers playing with his dollies, reading comics, letting the grown up world go by.

Equality for all

 A changed world is what strikes those of us brought up in the nineteen seventies and eighties where we are making some progress in the ability to present as you are in school or in scouting, girl, boy, non binary or transgendered.

Today, while inheritance doesn't have to, it remains more usual for a fathers business affairs to be taken over by a son and until the recent changes in succession laws, the first born male took over from the reigning monarch but families live on with their sons names.

Many of us would argue the advancement of equal opportunity employment, the ability of women to open and run bank accounts in their own right and of equal pay were right and proper in a society that values all.

Some trends in education, child care and the breakdown in traditional parenting however seem to disadvantage boys in particular and it seems to me be be just as right in its way for these to be addressed in order to raise a generation of boys to be the best men as it was to pave the way for girls having a bigger role and stake as women.

The same but different - being you

One reason I have to have a blog rather than a Tumblr is Tumblr doesn't just rightly clamp down on threats but also on anything that contradicts its right on "woke" culture even though it's supposed to be a social blogger tool for all regardless of views.

Being on there talking and sharing my childhood experiences helped me understand me and get to grips with who and what I was really about, having conversations with boys apart from the stuff at one site but because in part their opposition to anything that's not pro gender questioning and skewed towards modern feminism, they axed all my original accounts.

Well I'm post gender questioning  having moved on from gender questioning and now being seen as non binary with sissy gurl elements because we got to really what I was about.

My sex is male and socially I am a mixture of masculine and feminine gendered hetrosexual so you might think it was okay to be gender affirming as a boy but on there it wasn't at all.

That's the thing: While I respect the rights of others to be as they are because I share space with them doesn't mean I should not  act feminine or have to have anything to do with things that are 'girly' that I'm not hard wired to because I do have a feminine side as a sissy gurl

My own part boyish nature in all its forms should be accepted as part within my own sissy gurl gender identity rather than being denounced is best channelled in areas that benefit everyone and people should be appointed because of their ability not trying to mirror society demographics as good as having a mix can be.

Respecting those space also should include respecting my right as a Sissy Gurl to present in skirts and dresses as a matter of course, being accepted for what I truly am.

My wearing a skirt doesn't make me a girl either.

Spaces that have existed for male and females alone because they provide safe spots for free frank conversation should be respected  even if most things are co-ed.

There is merit in single sex youth movement units even if two of the opposite sex do share facilities and take part in exercises together because it helps develop each to their full potential learning from older members and leaders of their own gender not just skills but also how to be the best grown man and women they can.

We aren't all the same but are complementary and all sides deserve respect as the gender  that they are from the one they are not.