Ready for Christmas edition

 

It's December which with Christmas complicates posting but this year I thought I'd talk a little about the people who've given me the "real presents" a little like me needs.

The first thing is there's a person who I've only known for a few years and due to distance I only see from time to time who in their own way has been such a inspiration and source of reassurance at times even though they themselves have had their own difficulties some of which we do have in common.

They've encouraged me to be more open about myself, who I am, what interests me with other people, to feel comfortable doing arts stuff like drawing which I've always had hang ups with just for the fun of it and above all just accepts me as I am.

The year has been hard for us both following the death of our (and probably for a good number of you, yours too) close friend where we've both been supporting each other  and both of us have been supported by others which has been a great source of comfort.

You're a star.

Then there are other people such as those that have given me a home from home where I can just relax with my mind free from some of the stuff that gets on top of me here, enjoying a meal and like minded company together.

Which if on it's own is something I'd be thankful for but you go much further than that, you look after me, not in a super fussy way but more an observing the scene and responding way, knowing that if I'm giving signs of been tired (and I tire easy) you'll get me to where I need to be, bed, in  suitably child-like way that leaves me feeling relaxed and very little.

Things like that are really the best gifts of all.

HAPPY XMAS!

What girls want to know about feminine boys

 

Some boys are very different because on their insides they are really much more like you than you imagine

We, while wearing whatever we feel may be better suited to what we're doing at that moment, prefer to be dressed in dresses and skirts that you wear too. You can encourage us in that.

You refer to us as a gurl because that is our gender but you treat us as girls.

You include us in but hold us to the same rules as your girl friends.

That said we may wear Pj's in bed

We may enjoy somethings with regular boys such as playing with dinosaurs and some rougher play

but then we just adore playing with dollies with...you and like magical girl animes that are very girly

Our first instincts are the same as yours so let us express them.

We are feminine boy or sissies and would love to play with you and your friends.

A few addictions...

I've from time to time looked a bit more at presentation in the form of uniform and how that's changed and how that is a part of my life.

There are other parts of it too which have changed over the years, socks being oddly enough one of the first manifestations from buying school socks from the schools department of British Home Stores  every term usually grey from the late 1980's before moving gradually toward an exact replica uniformed presentation via 'Senior school' or 'Secretarial' wear.

Sometimes I have bought patterned socks like Harlequin ones in different plaid colours before moving more into that exact replica uniform by wearing actual school socks with it such as these Grey ones.

These are some I recently got although I usually wear white one of the same sort of design
except the bow would be a matching white.

The other thing that goes with it is underwear which has changed a bit over the years from all white around 2010 to grey or bottle green full school briefs when the original replica uniform came about.

 Now it is to go with the newer uniformed presentation I'm to be wearing mainly black high waisted Carta Gym Knickers which apart from being good for sports do keep me warm and cozy which is good thing at this time of year.

These arrived a few days ago and are to be worn from now on.

Bi Mode expression

 

We've talk a bit about this feminine boy thing means but what exactly does it look like?

I can do it different ways as I don't have gender dysphoria just a irritation on how restricted some people feel being any kind of boy what we are "allowed" to wear and how they project that around.

I can wear cute Hello Kitty t shirts with short trousers and cute ankle socks as a feminine boy but I can just as much wear a pinafore dress, blouse, girls white long socks with pretty bows and Hello Kitty slipper socks.

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Feminine boys feel different than other boys and start to notice it at a young age. Being feminine has nothing to do with being trans; that's another topic.
You simply enjoy everything feminine and don't care too much for gendered dress-code. You do you!

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Your personality tends to lean a bit toward the feminine side. It is good to have a bit of both (femininity/masculinity). Like they say, you have the best of both worlds. Just don't over-think it and try to enjoy life the way you like it. Whether you want to try more feminine clothing, or feel that way on the inside only, do you!
 
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I've always been curious about how gender plays out in me  and this test does confirm I do have fair bit of obviously feminine traits running in me although I have no desire to be a girl and while some aspects of the sissy community online aren't me, I have to be honest and say the little side of sissy is.

I'm obviously a mixture with chunks out of line with traditionally boys were expected to be.

The important thing is to honour the feminine side in whatever way works  because that is good because I can let out my feminine side and actually it's important for me mentally to be myself.

Carl Nielsen

I was a bit late getting up this morning  even though I was in bed  and asleep according to my set bedtime although that's probably down to the overnight disturbances.
Recently I picked up this box set following an exploration of Scandinavian music

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Carl Nielsen was born on the Danish island of Funen on June 9th 1865, taking up music playing and attending the Royal Danish Academy of Music and is regarded as the pre-eminent composer of that country and died in 1931. His earlier works were inspired by Grieg and Brahms.

He wrote 6 symphonies all of which tended  to be around the half hour length  were written between 1892 and 1925 and have a number of common characteristics such as the prominence of the role of brass instruments  and unusual changes in tonality that have the effect of heightening the dramatic feel.

That's one reason why I wanted the whole set  and this one recorded around the 1990's bot only features the superb playing of the San Francisco Symphony Orchestra  but also  an excellent warm sounding recording.

I've transferred these recordings in Lossless full cd quality for my Fiio X3 digital music player

Getting set for Advent

Well, it's not so far off but I've made preparations this year for the start of the great countdown otherwise known as Advent which from childhood always was a magical thing aided by having a calendar.

Way back then, they were card based  with you pulling back a flap to uncover various things and at least in our house, nominally religious in character.

 This is a very nomable which is currently atop of a short floor standing bookcase facing the front room window cos I don't care anymore. 

A little feminine sissy gurl lives in this house and does stuff like this apart from colouring his Frozen colouring in most days!

Just open a door each day, eat some chocolate and see the days before Christmas go before your very eyes.

Before I forget also happy thanksgiving folks!

Personal growth

It's kind funny how it is change and permanency crop in in differing forms when it is we think about aspects of our lives such as what may matter the most or the direction a hobby or interest may take.

Some people may put a great store on things being the same then, now and even in the future living around patterns from the past and equally we can all think of people who never really seem settled, forever swapping and changing things at whim, sometimes to the consternation of those closest to them.

Sometimes you may feel things changing but hear the siren calls of those who just loved you and what you do begging you not to change, that you and what you do is all that you are and to embark on journey be it personal or in developing your skills would lose you your own qualities while others still may wish to take you down routes you might not feel sure over.

To grow and to adapt either as a person or in your interests to me seems on the face of it a healthy thing as that would imply you are learning and exploring more of what interests and fascinates you.

I know and sometimes it feels at certain sites as if I'm forever on about, I am changing, learning  to do and live with greater expectations of doing things to those I'm been familiar with far a long time which hasn't been easy.

It would of been easy to given the matters that came to a head last year to had done nothing, in effect deciding to have stayed in rut which may have been a dead for end for me but a comfortable one but instead pursued on that was and has been painful at times but has ultimately been more benefit to me. Sometimes it's the courage to change that we need.