Wednesday, 26 September 2012

The Naughtiest Girl

This post has be coming to me this morning where I'm poorly laying across the new Duvet in my school uniform, so do bear with me.

Off and on, I've made reference to the books I read during my chronological childhood some of which I owned, some borrowed off friends or via the library of the boarding school I attended.

A few were more girls schools stories but most were for boys and girls or boys own.

Indeed you may of spotted a few entries here about books by Enid Blyton that come in that category and how I've got new copies not least the second but last entry around St Clare's that with this rotten cold I'm reading, something that is a direct echo of my childhood in times when I read books in my dorm or the sick bay.

I recently got though a most interesting addition again an older edition with original illustrations that has taken me back with some startling observations.
With the final three in one volume of St Clare's (Back to St Clare's) was another three in one book.

This was a 1992 edition of first three The Naughtiest Girl stories (Naughtiest girl again, Naughtiest girl is a Monitor and Naughtiest girl in the school).

The stories are set in Whyteleafe, a progressive co-ed boarding school that some feel has a striking resemblance to Summerhill school in Suffolk, England.

The main character is Elizabeth who you could say is a very spoilt child used to getting her own way often running with unchallenged ideas so much so she resolves to behave so badly she can't avoid being expelled from the school she never wanted to go to. 

The secondary character is her best friend, Joan Townsend, who tries to get her to behave which by the time Elizabeth realizes how lonesome she was as a only girl, she gets more onside with the other children and  is less of a problem to the staff.

Here's an earlier cover from one of the separate books:

Now the first think upon quickly skimming the book was I saw my age reflection in how she dressed in the original illustrations although obviously I am a sissy gurl as much as I was dressed as a boy back then.

She's around nine or ten years of age as are the boys who dress in shirts, shorts as much as I'd of loved to had worn a skirt and long socks so the first thing I am thinking is, *Something* around this age is lodged in me as I'm not a senior. 

The second  is that smile as she's doing things like flirting ink about - it comes to me that around this age I did some similar things with ink and it's her awkwardness is causing this lashing out as oddly enough it did for me.

The boy stood by E.A stood on her right of this original illustration is the image of that era of my life, meeting together with satchel and naturally full uniform.

One interesting aspect of the Whyteleafe school is that the children have meetings where they dole out pocket money (everyone has a certain minimum  because it is pooled and the case for more has to be accepted by the others first) and also they deal with infractions dishing out punishments which the Monitors have the power to as Elizabeth is reminded of when she acted silly.

In practise, in my school head boys and girls also did although it wasn't formally set up - effectively they stepped in and if didn't accept whatever the outcome was, it was reported to the staff.

On one  particular day I did do something really silly like get going calling one girl rotten names and it got a bit out of hand, as does some of Elizabeth's silly things but unlike it being raised at a Meeting it was dealt with in private.

Like Elizabeth I got better after that as I learned to fit in better with people, having my rough edges smoothed and even became a year rep, greeting very important people which does help when as now I have to do groan up things.

Having this book has reminded me of the distance I've travelled emotionally, the difficulties I've overcome in the past through learning to be more mature in how I deal with situations. As well, it affirms what Tammy remains deep down - a little sissy gurl only just in double digits - and no one least of me should ever forget it.

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Representing and play things

 Ah. September when thoughts having moved from going back to school start to move towards Christmas and what is you'd of loved as a present.

Corgi models were a thing I loved back in the day being well cast and something you could share and race with other children.


We had board games at school just in case it rained at playtime which was as well and they included things like Scrabble apart from draughts and chess which I played a lot of back then to the point of having a magnetic chess set for playing with other girls and boys when travelling. 


Things have being coming along since I encountered some new people about a year and a half ago  and I'm wearing a more feminine uniform whenever I'm in touch with them plus at home that includes a red sweatshirt.


The model for the uniform is more based on modern junior uniform as many have removed things like dress shirts and ties which we had back then and a fundamental difference is for this I'm wearing a grey pleated junior girls skirt rather than the short short trousers I had to back then.

 


In more a nod to what is worn more today, rather than those pelerine socks the girls I knew wore and some still do the socks are cotton long ones with a pretty bow that are with grey versions available too very popular with girls and highly appropriate for feminine gurls like me to be wearing.

As a age dysphoric feminine gurl with an developmental age of ten, it's very appropriate for me to be dressed in a junior girls uniform that takes me to the more feminine side that was repressed during that era and learn to embrace it as part of the whole me.

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

Taking a break in Weston

I went on a break to somewhere I hadn't been in ages on a local coach on Monday.

Most of the people on the coach were groan ups who looked very groan up but me being a LSG* said "Naw, I'm a little"  so went in my red school sweatshirt, grey school shorts as it was a bit less revealing in the wind than a skirt, grey long socks and regular brogue style children's' shoes. In addition I had my black messenger and tote bag.

When we arrived in Weston Super Mare, although I had been snacking on Barley sugars and chocolate finger biscuits - too bad they didn't have any animal shaped ones in - I was hungry so I called in at the Dragon Inn, a Weatherspoons public house that does food.
The food was nice , I had a Steak and Kidney pie and the manager was really funny!


Having eaten I felt like going on a bit of a walk around as I've never been here before and I'd have to say everywhere was super clean with litter pickers active during the day.
The beach was cleaner than a good number in North Wales I could think of with finely grained sand.

There is one automatic response when I see a beach and it involves a bucket and spade so guesses for what happened next! 

Also the next response is something like getting a Pirates flag and waving it around while jumping up and down like a super excited junior school gurl. Nobody I was with said anything!



What feminine boy with a Hello Kitty fixation couldn't resist the chance to win your very own Hello Kitty plushie? Well I sure couldn't!

Seaside towns often have amusement arcades, with exciting dodgem cars, things you can win teddy bears and plushies with and slot machines that I recall as a young boy spending a little time around.
The Pier was burnt down a few years ago but a great job was done of rebuilding it with associated facilities for that whole strolling along the pier experience. For an out of season weekday, it sure was busy.

Finally I had to be super careful not to get in the way of this the Great Western Land Train  that runs to the Harbour and back along the sidewalk. 

I think the Great Western was train company that operated in the South West of England before nationalization (and privatization in the 1990's).

The return back was much smoother stooping at Frankley services south Birmingham to freshen up

* Little Sissy Gurl, the non sexual frilly panties down gender identity I am

Wednesday, 5 September 2012

A return to St. Clares

Picking up with the themes of returning to school where I've been trying last week to get to grips with times tables, the little adventure days out locally and so on, I decided to take stock of my small book collection.

Actually it came to me last night, there were two reasons why some of the first books I bought at the end of my formal education were more like textbooks, first first being my problems in reading meant something more simplified like a study aid was easier to follow and the other was - wait for it - an early indication that really I wanted my childhood back by having some of the books I had or read at the time with me.

Anyway, I found a few books that I never read much because as good as they are (some won literary awards), they're too far above my reading age meaning I struggle to really follow them so I'm replacing them.

Why replace them rather than just give them away? Simply I realize that reading is something I need to do to improve within my own learning disabilities restrictions, my ability to read, follow and understand stories.

What I decided to do was to get the older two book collections of the original 6 story edition of St Clare's by Enid Blyton because it's a  bit more wordy than some of her other stuff so it gives me a bit of a word workout (I can look up the words in my Dictionary and learn their meanings) and a school, based adventure story is the kind of thing I love to read (which helps keeping the interest up).

Unusually for most brought up as a boy I wasn't opposed to reading girl based stories if I liked the theme being more mix and match when it comes to those things and Enid was big favourite of mine anyway. 

They were issued several years back with new computerized art covers however I feel they just don't look right and also Pamela Cox ghost wrote three new stories for that series that aren't really essential.

These are my 'new to me' editions:
This edition has the first three books in a single  volume namely The Twins at St Clare's, The O'Sullivan Twins and Summer term at St Clare's, written between 1941 through 1943 although many more memorable characters such as Claudine, a mischievous French girl and feather-headed Alison also feature in a world of tricks and jokes, midnight feasts, sports matches, thrilling rescues, fun and friendship as well as hard work, exams and snobbery!

The final volume has Second term at St Clare's, Claudine at St Clare's plus Fifth formers at St Clare's written between 1944 and 1945. I remember the fifth form vividly!

It's a bit queer for missing out completely the third form  but perhaps everyone leapfrogged it?

The school predates Malory Towers and is seen by parents as being  a "very sensible sort of school one  not to pander to children who feel their above everyone else.

The school Headmistress Miss Theobald is a believer  in the idea people get out of life what they put into it, telling her pupils: "Do your best for us and St. Clare's will be able to do its best for you!  Oddly enough that was what my Head teacher said too!

These editions came out in 1993 but with the artwork still looking a bit more in keeping with the period they written and the stories themselves still hold up. 

Indeed many 9 to 11 year readers today have written glowing reviews as have parents whose children having gone though today's supernatural based stories were given these only to find their offspring can't get enough of them.

Wednesday, 29 August 2012

Getting ready for New Term

Fast approaching end of Summer Vacations which for me  at least signifies the start of the Autumn Term and getting all your school requirements such as uniform sorted, ironed ready.
You know pretty much what my uniform is, and what it means to me so apart from anything else making sure everything is in top top shape really matters.

Apart from the socks as I like white just above the knee socks that's pretty much how mine looks and that's what I'm wearing this minute.

Apart from finding Peaches and Spikey after a bit of tidying up I got into my closet and have been creating some space to hang everything nicely.

While there I made a few discoveries such as finding a pair of tailored shorts that oddly enough would go with the uniform, being Grey  that gives me an options for playing not least actual out of doors playtime  as much as I love skirts as a gurl.

And I've gotten some new socks ready for September too

Wednesday, 22 August 2012

Take Two Cuties

When I was living in the Greater London Area, I used to travel out a lot across and just beyond the City and on one Saturday morning in the spring I was in the Covent Garden area, a favourite part of central London of mine where I came by this:
Aww she's cute, very fluffy and and a hand puppet being made by hand and I just had to have her, walking across the area clutching her tightly afterward. This was well before I had any idea of what being a little even was!!!

Well I used to take her to work - as this is the internet and a public site I won't say where - but the job was super important for children's welfare over here and every lunch time I'd put on an impromptu puppet show. 

We called it Peaches the Panda show and it was ever so funny. At all other times she was on my desk and I'd start playing with her as people drifted about the office.

Shortly afterward I got another fluffy thing but this was more a Plushie I named Spikey cos 'es an Hedgehog.

I found them a few days ago as I was sorting out my closet so I give them a bit of clean and fluffing up and their back out on display.

Wednesday, 15 August 2012

The Byrds and Roxy Music box sets


Anyone who knows anything at all about me knows I've always loved the Byrds one of the most important American rock groups of the 60's and beyond not just for the individual talents within  the group in its differing lineups but the fact they got to what was new and hip before anyone else did, pioneering whole new musical genres such as Country-Rock that lead us to The Eagles and Poco.

 
I grew up on the UK import History of the Byrds double compilation lp which for its time give a well rounded assessment of their abilities and not a few hard to find vital 45's such as Lady Friend although in time I bought a number of studio albums plus the good if slightly flawed Original singles masters lps issued in the UK in 1980 and 1982 respectively supply all the singles with matching b sides.

People remarked on the music I played at high school during that period as it was so different than anything they were familiar with.

Anyway in 1990 I was based in Surrey, just outside of London, when the news broke that a new box set of their work freshly remastered and even remixed in parts was coming out October 19th on CBS over here (the US edition was on Columbia)  which appealed not least because some of the  early Byrds cds although having the original mixes didn't sound so hot in this new format.

The set also content 6 new recordings made that year showcasing their talent even now.

I remember saving up for it, intending to buy it in a store in Kingston Upon Thames only to find some so and so had stolen all my money so as I was short on funds for meeting my other obligations, I never got around to getting it.

 
I bought all the remastered individual cds from 1996 and 1997 that were issued  featuring many bonus tracks but still hankered for this attractively packaged set

Each disc is titled with its own cover art and there remains a good number of alternate mixes and material not carried over to the "There Is a Season" box set of a few years ago.

 
Fortunately I was able to track down an as new US copy used for a cheap price from a Amazon vendor which should be here in a minute.
I'm really looking forward to finally getting it.
Tracklist:


We Have Ignition
1. Mr Tambourine Man
2. I'll Feel A Whole Lot Better
3. Chimes Of Freedom
4. She Has A Way
5. All I Really Want To Do
6. Spanish Harlem Incident
7. The Bells Of Rhymney
8. It's All Over Now, Baby Blue
9. She Don't Care About Time
10. Turn Turn Turn
11. It Won't Be Wrong
12. Lay Down Your Weary Tune
13. He Was A Friend Of Mine
14. The World Turns All Around Her
15. The Day Walk (Never Before)
16. The Times They Are A-Changin'
17. 5D (Fifth Dimension)
18. I Know My Rider
19. Eight Miles High
20. Why
21. Psychodrama city
22. I See You
23. Hey Joe

Cruising Altitude
24. Mr Spaceman
25. John Riley
26. Roll Over Beethoven
27. So You Want To Be A Rock 'N' Roll Star
28. Have You Seen Her Face
29. My Back Pages
30 Tim Between
31. It Happens Each Day
32. Renaissance Fair
33. Everybody's Been Burned
34. The Girl With No Name
35. Triad
36. Lady Friend
37. Old John Robertson
38. Goin' Back
39. Draft Morning
40. Wasn't Born To Follow
41. Dolphin's Smile
42. Reputation
43. You Ain't Going Nowhere
44. The Christian Life
45. I Am A Pilgrim
46. Pretty Boy Floyd
47. You Don't Miss Your Water

Full Throttle:
48. Hickory Wind
49. Nothing Was Delivered
50. One Hundred Years From Now
51. Pretty Polly
52. Lazy Days
53. This Wheels On Fire
54. Nashville West
55. Old Blue
56. Drug Store Truck Drivin' Man
57. Bad Night At The Whiskey
58. Lay Lady Lay
59. Mae Jean Goes To Hollywood
60. Ballad Of Easy Rider
61. Oil In My Lamp
62. Jesus Is Just Alright
63. Way Beyond The Sun
64. Tulsa County
65. Deportee
66. Lover Of The Bayou
67. Willin'
68. Black Mountain Rag
69. Positively 4th Street

Final Approach:
70. Chestnut Mare
71. Just A Season
72. Kathleen's Song
73. Truck Stop Girl
74. Just Like A Woman
75. Stanley's Song
76. Glory Glory
77. I Trust
78. I Wanna Grow Up To Be A Politician
79. Green Apple Quick Step
80. Tiffany Queen
81. Bugler
82. Lazy Waters
83. Farther Along
84. White's Lightning

From The 1990 Roy Orbison Tribute:
85. Turn Turn Turn
86. Mr Tambourine Man

The Nashville Session: New 1990 Recordings:
87. He Was A Friend Of Mine
88. Paths Of Victory
89. From A Distance
90. Love That Never Dies





Back in 1972, a year I remember well with moving there were a number of  acts that later on you realized were about to break big one of which was David Bowie who released the seminal Ziggy Stardust album that year and there was Roxy Music.


Roxy Music are an English art rock group formed in November 1970 by Bryan Ferry, who became the group's lead vocalist and chief songwriter, and bassist Graham Simpson. The other members are Phil Manzanera (guitar), Andy Mackay (saxophone and oboe) and Paul Thompson (drums and percussion). Former members include Brian Eno (synthesizer and "treatments"), and Eddie Jobson (synthesizer and violin). 

They disbanded in 1983 they reunited early this century releasing live albums but nothing new in the studio.

Roxy Music were one of the first English bands I got into buying their records over the years band one first artists to have their catalogues fully released on cd back in the mid 80's before the Stones or even Beatles and they have been reissued three times with the last set suffering from a very loud screechy sound that lead me toward buying my favourite albums by them on original vinyl.

On Monday August 4th this 10 cd box set came out called The Complete Studio Recordings and I sprung for it although it's different than originally intended probably for cost reasons so here's a few thoughts  on it.

The first thing anyone getting this set has to get over this is it's not the ultimate set with High Resolution audio on dvds and a coffee table book throw in it's more basic than that but by way of compensation is a lot cheaper around the £50 mark. That's not much per cd now is it?

Also unfortunately a background capsule booklet wasn't included which is a shame because it would of helped to set the context of each album (and the singles) release for the casual fan but the packaging is otherwise of a high standard with thick card sleeves and a paper inner to protect the disc.

The card looks durable so shouldn't suffer damage in regular use with a bit of care. The box is sturdy and functional allowing you to slide out the core to retrieve an album for playing when it is on your shelf something I appreciate.

For this set Roxy Music (self titled) loses Virginia Plain which was never part of the original lp and 1979's Manifesto gains for the first time on cd the album versions of Angel Eyes and Dance Away rather than the disco inspired remakes issued originally for the 45's and all are present in the  2cds covering non album singles, b sides and odd mixes.

The mastering for this set is different than the 1999 HDCD discs which remain available new, preserving far the better the difference between the quieter and louder passages so when you listen to a track like Street Life, it doesn't tire your ear and you can tell the difference between tracks with more softer passages and those that don't .

It seems they redid the transfers from original analogue tape which coupled with newer analogue to digital converters results in much smoother sound compared to previous cds.

I've had quite a blast this week playing all these albums back comparing with other versions finding this set to the best sounding yet.

To sum up, it may not be the ultimate set when it comes to features but is a extremely good sounding set, well presented being available at a modest price suitable for either a casual fan as a one stop purchase or for those looking for upgraded sound.