Where we are at

 

Things are different from the days this blog had started with greater acceptance of gender variation as it effects us personally from our interests, personality and way we present even if a good number hold against reality that their son or daughter will be the gender stereotype they were brought up with.

The reality has always been I am not  nor am I in anyway almost fashionable transgender because I love my actual sex identity but more my gender side goes against certain cultural norms that in general has more issues with for bring male than a good many women and girls have (not saying they don't get negative attention sometimes).

In connection with that I did under go an online  test just for curiosity's sake and this is how it worked out

Certificate: Test results Sissy Proficiency Test

You have quite a high score! On some questions your answers scored nearly "100% sissy" male. For some other questions, the answers you provided made you appear to be either offended, uninterested and/or unable to live your dreams. Of course, the options above mean different things to different people. It might be that you would like to be more of a sissy, but home/work life prohibits or inhibits your ability to enjoy absolute and full sissy life. Either way, you are more than half-way to being a sissy! You have three choices: (a) work harder at becoming a perfect sissy; (b) stay as you are and just have fun, or (c) convince yourself that you are actually a red-blooded male... and good luck! Whatever you decide... be safe, have fun, and enjoy life!
 
Take this quiz: Sissy Proficiency Test

While I don't associate myself as with some aspects of online sissy culture  it did comfirm my feminine side and that going forward it is really best to work with that.

Having been back and forth over the years as there is no great combination of terms that both command wide acceptance and adequately define the sense in which I am not either male or female by gender even though I accept my male sex, I am now prepared to accept Sissy Gurl as main  gender idenitity.

Stripped down, its obvious I'm a Sissy Gurl.

Going back with events

 

While with other events in country in this last few days have taken us back us back a few decades or so and give us reason to look ahead to changes, this week I'm going back to twenty ten.

I was rather experimenting with looks beyond that had initially inspired me such as more formal office wear or the stuff of my schooldays, the blessed school uniform.

Things more Goth or Emo were more it so I had short  net like skirts, tops and over the knee ringer type socks although I did experiment also with wearing stockings with them.

Ditto lace up canvas shoes or heels although I tend to be rather wobbly on the feet with limited control of their movement.

It was a bit before the tartan micro skirts started to come in and with the netting underneath could give you a far bit of modesty although obviously you do mind how you sit.

Choices

December means Christmas of course with all the preparations that come with it which is big if like age dysphoric me you view this from a child-like prospective.

Winnie The Pooh was a childhood like and to have a pinafore dress or dungarees with them on is not just cute but a step back to the childhood we'd of wanted, just being us. 

As far back as the late 1990's we still read and used paper based catalogues to order from or make notes for in store shopping.

I mentioned about the Giroscope purchase that never quite happened a while back but that had a backstory to it too because it was upon finding that tartan skirt originally bought in the very late 1970's by Mum one day when no one was in the house that I did start to wear it carefully folding and putting back in the chest it lived in.

This I am sure is a thing many feminine boys go through, helping ourselves without permission to other peoples things cos we "need" to wear it then being oversized "borrowers".

To me it is the only source of shame we can have because of our inability to ask them for the very garments or even be given them if they were only go to go to a collection.

Going back, this is a twenty inch length ladies kilt skirt I bought this year in the Dress Gordon tartan very much in that mode so it's just above the knee with me with the knife pleats at the back, designed to fit on your actual waist, above the naval.

It's just the thing for when I want to look smart with either long socks or white tights.

Crackerjack returns

Covid had many effects on things in our lives but Series One in the revamped Crackerjack! was a victim of it with filming delayed for what would be a second series following its widespread praise in being just sufficiently updated for today's children but keeping the core of what the show great as children are children what era you're in.

Series two resumes on Friday December 11th at 6pm on CBBC with the Christmas special which was really funny with Naga Munchetty and Charlie Stayt from BBC's breakfast time taking part in the show presented by Sam Nixon and Mark Rhodes.

I laughed my socks off as Naga got the gunge and remembered quite a bit of the Crackajack players story on on  the "Watch it" section which is a test of observation and recall.

Naturally I watched this show from a young boy and so I remember Ed 'Stewpot' Stewart who also presented Junior Choice on Radio One at the time.

That's so nineteen seventies!

Mr. Leo Sayer on the show in the mid nineteen seventies.

A photo for an anniversary show in the eighties

Here in the UK we love a Annual, a yearly round up of a show, magazine or series and during that era you may well of had one with your selection box and toys.

The Nineteen Eighties when I was getting out of official childhood but still was in nearly every way saw me watching the show just the same as I had ten years before and so Stu Francis is a face I fondly remember presenting it.

Ooo I could just crush a grape!

All that AND "Wee Jimmy" from tv's The Crankies, it was a riot and a possible influence in remaining looking as a little boy.

As with Blue Peter there has been "behind the scenes" books published over the years.

The next edition in series 2 of the remake will be screened in the new year.

Detail added Dec 12 2020.

Underwear a la mode

Underwear is a key difference in how I present as that varies as my gender fluidity moves across and to a point across the resulting presentation.

Traditionally a boy like me only had one form which for good measure was set for you but frankly what would a sissy want with tighty whities?

Because I am a feminine boy, I do wear usually with skirts and dresses soft smooth girls underwear with lace.

I find them comfortable so long as you check there is enough room for your boy bits and as you pull up your skirt and pull down your knickers that lack of a fly is of no consequence but that soft luxury feel is just what I want when I'm like that.

If I'm in school uniform skirts and dresses then usually I wear gym knickers which do provide surprisingly lots of support in a brief based design and are quite comfortable.

At one time silk panties were hard to find but since the economic opening of China they have become easier and far more affordable

Pretty panties like these that have more space down below are highly appropriate and every sissy needs some pink panties to be put into

Having a more grown up side Big Gurl more scrunchie panties are also appropriate while in that headspace when I want to fly with my sexual side

Trans age rant

 

Ever notice how people react with a disgusting and unwarranted amount of vitriol towards those who "don't act their age"?

Seriously, what is it about being immature that causes such nastiness in people? As long as your so-called immaturity isn't hurting anyone, why do they care? 

Everyone knows to be kind and understanding towards people with disabilities, mental illness, and so on, but have they ever stopped to think that maybe immature people can't help it either? 

So WHAT if I become obsessive over celebrities and fictional characters? So WHAT if you deem me to be "too old" for that kind of stuff? 

Why do you have to treat me like human garbage just because my interest and personality is that of a person younger than the number of years I've been alive?

It may be true for people whose current bone age up to thirty to be given some latitude having interests in Fandoms, celebrities and perhaps following some interests from their teens but my generation was pushed onto serious topics, having plushies ripped from you, prized toys prized out of your hands, discouraged from having posters.

You had to read "grown up" books which was a bloody laugh when I didn't have the reading comprehension to do so, wanting to dress as a character in film or book was called "Silly" and childish.

Just goes to show how horribly most people treat those who buck the status quo.

It gets so bad for some of us that we’re called pxdos and people say that we “act that way” to attract kids somehow. I had a disrupted childhood and have always had a fixation on toys and arts and crafts and cute things. I experience involuntary age regression and am autistic and I’m tired of being seen as cringe, creepy and even predatorial. It hurts so much. I’m just a big kid trying to relax.

That's the thing. They assume that about us, and then all rational conversation shuts down–like they don't even want to hear anything further. 

Like, how fucked up in the head do you have to be that your mind automatically goes there when you hear about trans-age people? To me it sounds like THEY'RE the ones with the problem, not us. And besides, how could we be (those people) when we are kids ourselves??? As kids (with the exception of maybe the teenagers among us), it's not even possible for us to experience sexual attraction of any kind!!! We are literally CHILDREN! Stop trying to steal our innocence and turn us into monsters.

Kawaii overload!

 

An overload of cuteness is something I am prone to having a long term addiction to all things Sanriotown for a long time, from tote bags to all manner of things

I quite love sugary sweet pink in tops, short kittenish skirts and accessories so if it was given its fullmost expression then you'd need to wear sunglasses all year round and not just on summer days either.

I was also into Care Bears, probably cos the message resonated strongly with me liking cartoons a lot.

I mean I seldom watch adult tv these days as little really interests me unless say it's arts or history based with nothing changing much over the years.

The clock has stopped.